A/N: Just as a quick warning. There is a lime within this chapter.
I'm fairly certain it could be argued that Bella and Edward - namely Edward - is super OOC within their human excursions here. I think I tried to best explain it in this chapter and hopefully I've conveyed it a bit in previous chapters. Short of it is that Edward and Bella are a married couple, or at least was before being pulled back in time and becoming humans again. They've had only a little bit of time together as a married couple. So to suddenly go back on it, it's a bit of a challenge for them.
Let's see where the road takes us for these two.
Chapter V
Bella and I bumped along beside one another, the buggy taking its sweet time as we drove away from the bustling little city of Chicago and headed up north. I sat beside my wife while she stared out the windows in silence, as I wracked my brain for recollection of this lake house that my family supposedly owned. I was drawing blanks considering I don't believe in my first round of life - prior to being sucked back in time - my family and I rarely went up north to this lake house. Nothing that I could pull from my previous memories aided me in trying to remember this getaway from the city. I half wondered if this was another splice in my time line, another alteration that Bella and I unknowingly created after we had been brought back here together.
Most of my human life previously was just spent at home with my mother, where we spent our past-times, just the two of us. We often went on walks in Chicago, strolling through parks or through the markets. We spent time together with her high society friends, which she had tried setting me up with socialites back then to no avail. I did my best just floating through each day while rarely spending time with my father, or I'd dream about enlisting into the military to make a name for myself. That all came crashing down once the Spanish Influenza hit Chicago, which plagued us as quickly as it arrived - and that's when I fell into the lap of Carlisle who changed me. My human years were but a blur, so I never recalled us owning a lake house. This had to be just a diverging bit of my past that was either created when we were warped back here together, or something else entirely.
"Edward?" I turned my head up to gaze down at my wife who was sitting beside me. She had glanced up and likely called to me when she realized I was staring intently down at the buggy's flooring. I hadn't said much ever since she entered the car. Her plump lips were set into a frown.
"Hm?" I hummed, and she tilted her head.
"You've been silent this whole ride, is everything alright in that head of yours?" she prodded, her eyebrows furrowing.
I pursed my lips and gazed up towards the front of the buggy where two of my family's servants were sitting, escorting us. I didn't think it'd be wise for me to have a discussion out loud of what all I was thinking, when they were in front of us. They'd be shocked and confused to hear me talk about our situation - I likely would be committed to an asylum if they hear me discuss with Bella about us time travelling when we were from a modern time that was unheard of for them, along with the discrepancies in my past and how I couldn't remember any of my human life once I had been turned. So I turned back to my wife and shook my head to her. "It's nothing my dear." I murmured, squeezing her hand. I hoped that my silent plea to her was telling enough. Later.
Bella nodded her head slowly and otherwise let it drop. She went about looking back out the window and we rode in silence for the rest of the way up north. It took at least another hour or two before the servants had made a turn and we were now onto slightly less than smooth turf. We otherwise had been on a relatively smooth road prior to the turn, but as I gazed out the window I could see why. We were turning onto a property that was north, a good ways out from the last closest portion of a town. I could see the property before us and was floored at the sight. It was a beautiful estate of its Victorian era, of which beyond the house sat the makings of a large lake. The estate before us was at least three stories tall, a beautiful rich blue in color with windows placed perfectly to capture the surrounding beauty of the nature around the home. Behind the estate was a separate building, likely the servants' housing, before the rest of the back yard to the home was the lake itself.
"Oh my goodness!" Bella gasped as soon as she saw the estate. The servants drove the buggy towards the steps of the home and parked the vehicle. They slipped out where one went to help the second buggy that was pulling up, and the other opened my door for me.
"Welcome to the Masen estate, sir." the servant announced as he bowed while I slipped out. I nodded to him and then turned to Bella who was carefully sliding over towards the door.
"Take my hand, my dear." I instructed her as I bent with my hand outstretched to her. Bella blushed from the action, but of course she should've been used to me doing this for her. I did it for her all the time previously when we had first met. After her warm hand slipped into mine, I did my best to help her out of the buggy and she stood onto the gravelly ground beneath us. Her heels crunched once she stepped foot out of the vehicle, and she drank in the sight of the estate once more.
"This is incredible." she breathed to me quietly while I eased us forward. I began to walk her up towards the home slowly with the servant leading us.
"It is." I whispered, shaking my head. I still never truly recalled us owning such a beautiful vacation home, so this was just as astonishing to me as it was to her. We made our way up the steps to the large front porch to the home and waited whilst the servant produced a set of keys from his pocket and stuck one into the keyhole to the front door of the home. There, he pushed it open and stepped aside for Bella and I to walk inside first. I nodded to him in thanks as we walked past him before we entered the foyer to the estate. It was a large room with branching archways that led towards other rooms in the estate, with clean tiled floors and deep blue wallpapered walls. Various pieces of artwork hung on the walls, and to our left was a winding staircase the likely led to the upper floors.
"I had no idea you had such a grand estate like this in your family." Bella whispered, blinking up at me.
"Neither did I." I muttered to her, and she gaped.
"Really?"
"No." I admitted, a sheepish grin on my face.
"Master Masen," I turned as I heard my title being called. It was the servant who still stood in the doorway. "The other servants and I will be spending time taking your belongings up to the rooms upstairs. Your room is on the third floor, fourth door down on the left. As for Lady Swanson, her things will be placed on the second floor, second door on the left."
"Thank you." I thanked the servant once more, just before he turned away to head back down the steps to gather our things we had brought with us for the vacation. I took this time to lead Bella further into the home, heading for the archway directly in front of us which led us to a den. The flooring changed into a deep mahogany wood with maroon wallpapered walls. Again, various pieces of artwork were strung about the walls, whilst an array of fancy sofas and chaise lounges sat arranged in a square around a narrow coffee table. To our left sat a stony fireplace, and behind the sofa in front of us was a wall that held two doors. I wondered of where those doors led to but decided that we could sit for a spell.
"This place looks so grand." Bella marveled aloud as I guided her towards one of the sofas to sit down on. I sat beside her and watched as she gazed around the den, taking in each piece of artwork surrounding us. I kept my focus on her, smiling at her entranced look in her eyes. She finally settled her brown eyes back onto me and gave me her signature blush.
"It's indeed a lot to take in." I mused.
"You have no memories of this place?" she whispered to me then, seeming shocked that I didn't remember this place. I shook my head and she exhaled a puff of air. "I don't know how you can't possibly remember this place."
"I don't have many memories of my human life from my first go around, love." I explained gently.
"Oh."
"Much of my human life I could remember were vague memories with my mother, dreams of joining the war, before the traumatic experience of the Influenza when it rapidly ripped me away from my parents." I reminded her, shaking my head sadly. "I was just as shocked as you were when my mother offered this summer getaway."
Bella nodded her head, her blush remaining on her delicate cheeks. "I was floored to hear both of our mothers having trust in us to be here by ourselves."
"As am I." I agreed, feeling my face heat up. It was starting to sink in once again that we'd be here by ourselves for a few days, without our parents' supervision. Yes, we had the servants here acting as 'supervisors' but most of the time the servants would be busying themselves around the house keeping up with the daily chores. I knew they'd likely have to busy themselves with making the food, straightening and dusting down rooms, tidying up anything out of place, keeping up with the groundwork - that still left windows of time for Bella and I to be by ourselves without watchful eyes.
Bella cleared her throat when an awkward, tense silence briefly fell upon us. I chanced a glimpse to my wife and noted her blush had deepened but her eyes were fixated on me. "What shall we do while we're here?"
I gulped from hearing her question as my hormones began to come alive from her seemingly innocuous question. She had to have known the power she held over me with that simple statement, surely she did. Just yesterday I had admitted to her aloud how much I deeply wanted her, how badly I desired to have her in every physical sense. Lest I remind her, we had but a taste of the married life before when we were both vampires and now that we were sent back in time as young human teens - the desire I held for her was alight like a blaze. I thought my vampire emotions were bad when I desired Bella back then, and had to rely on my control to ensure I never once slipped with her in fear of hurting her. Of course being able to let my control go allowed for a more enjoyable time yet still there was an ounce of restraint I had to maintain - to make sure I didn't harm her still.
Now that we were both human again, the human emotions and hormones were something I didn't think I'd ever experience. Getting to feel this arousal, the sexual desire I had for my wife, it was daunting. I felt like a beast as I stared at her beautiful features. Her plump lips were set before me, begging to be kissed. Her brown eyes flickered between my own eyes, my face and would dart down to my lower half - the very thing she desired in this moment sat between my legs. God I sound like an nympho as I think about her, about her features and her body, but I guess she likely felt the same way when she gave me those heated stares. I drank in the rest of her form, noting the beautiful day dress that hugged her body wonderfully, further captivating by the constricting corset that was underneath her dress. It gave her a slimmed waist even though my Bella was already naturally thin.
I couldn't help but linger on her chest, which didn't help my teenaged hormones. The day dress' neckline was kept modest with a high necked collar to hide any skin, but the corset underneath accentuated her chest in pushing everything up. She always had a naturally, decent sized chest when she had been human when I met her - and after giving birth to our daughter, her breasts filled out wonderfully even more so once she became a vampire. She was womanly then and now, and I longed to see her bare again. I only had so many chances like that previously when we were immortal together, and even more so before then during our honeymoon. Now to see it all again as a human was causing all sorts of fantasies within my head.
I shouldn't be thinking like this - of all the ways Bella and I could explore each other during this alone time. I should be honoring our courtship and attempt to save ourselves for marriage in this time period. But it was becoming more and more difficult with each passing day. I wondered if this trip would be the breaking point and we'd give into our selfish needs.
Before I could finally answer my wife, one of the servants - the original male one who let us in - made himself known to us. His shoes clambered noisily against the flooring beneath our feet as he made his way into the den area where we sat. The two of us looked up once he entered, to which he bowed. "Master Masen, Lady Swanson, your belongings are in your room. The other servants and I plan on driving into the closest town nearby in getting some supplies for food for today so we shall be gone for at least an hour."
I gulped once again. Another opportunity presenting itself for my wife and I. "Thank you for informing us. Please do be safe on the roads."
"Thank you Master Masen." The servant thanked me for my sentiment before he turned and left the den; a minute later I heard the front door to the home close. Now Bella and I were alone in this huge estate for an hour.
Bella turned back towards me and took a shaky breath. "Edward..."
"Bella?" I asked at the same time she spoke. We both chuckled at the notion we had spoke at the same time, and Bella tucked a loose strand of brown hair behind her ear.
"Edward I... I think we should discuss this."
"You must be a mind reader in disguise." I breathed with a laugh and she rolled her eyes.
"Edward, I... I get the feeling you're nervous. What's wrong?" she began, reaching over to take my hand in hers.
I took a deep breath and shifted my body to be facing hers. "I am nervous. I'm nervous with us being alone like this."
"What? Why?" she questioned, frowning.
"It's hard to explain, my love, but I'll try my best. You know what I said in the park yesterday right?" I began and Bella nodded her head. "Simply put we've been given an opportunity of a lifetime in being alone and yet I'm terrified out of my mind."
"But why?" she murmured, frowning still.
"My dear, I'm terrified because I'm conflicted within myself." I sighed and shook my head. "I want you so badly that it's eating me in this very moment. You cannot begin to even imagine just the fantasies running through my head in this very moment." I tried to carefully explain my emotions, and Bella's blush continued to darken as she suddenly began to realize what was going through my mind.
"Oh?" she gasped, leaning closer towards me.
"Yes." I whispered, and gazed up at her. That hazy look of lust was apparent in her eyes again. "But I'm scared. I shouldn't be wanting to do these things with you - we're supposed to be saving ourselves for marriage as is par for the time period. It's sinful of me to be thinking of that."
"Edward." Bella muttered, the lustful look in her eyes dissipating briefly as she heard me admit that. "You're giving me whiplash again with your emotions."
"Bella you remember how I was previously. I was a reserved vampire and wanted us to wait until we were married before we made love. In part it was a result of my strength as a vampire as I was afraid of hurting you." I reminded her, pursing my lips. "And another part of that was frankly due to the era I grew up in - this era we're in now. Sexual desires and expressions of the nature were frowned upon in this society, and it was engrained in my brain when I was turned. I roamed the earth for a century alone with no mate until you entered my life and turned everything I had as my character, on its head."
"What are you implying?"
"I'm implying you awoke a beast within me that I didn't know I had in me." I teased her gently and her brown eyebrows puckered. "Before I was a reserved, stoic vampire who never welcomed sexual expression openly - it was hard for me to adjust to the changes that you brought out from within me as much as I also tried to fight with my emotions. I wanted to give into my urges with you and still do, even as a human. But you have to realize this is difficult for me. I'm trying to give way to my desires much like I had expressed to you yesterday. Inside however, I'm scared... I'm that scared little teenaged boy again not sure on how to go about this with you as my lover."
"Edward," Bella began then, shifting to sit even closer beside me. I felt her thigh through the dress as it pressed against my leg. I looked towards her and saw her face held a look of patience. "My sweet husband, you don't have to be afraid. We're in this together."
"I know."
"If you must make me say it, I'm not expecting you to be a suave sexual god with me as we're both human." Bella whispered and I felt the blush to my cheeks heat up further than they already were. "You're my husband in the future but my lover as well for eternity. You are still my Edward, and I love you all the same regardless. I'm not expecting you and I to be perfect together as we're humans together. You shouldn't have held yourself to these perfect expectations back then when we were married. You know our first night wasn't perfect but when you let yourself relax, you and I shared quite a few memorable moments on that island."
"We did." I whispered reverently, smirking as she too smiled.
"I am looking forward to us, to sharing each kiss, each touch, each moment, and I'm not expecting it to be like a scene from an erotica novella." Bella continued, squeezing my hand. "However I will admit that even though I say that, you and I make it our own and it very much feels mind blowing to be with you. I still feel the sparks between us like it had been before whenever we touch. I get the butterflies in my stomach, my heart races and I quiver under your touch. You have so much power over me and you don't realize it."
"I would argue the same for you." I countered and she looked up at me dubiously. "You still sell yourself short but you are a temptress with a simple smile, my dear."
"Okay, Romeo. No need to butter me up."
"Merely stating the facts." I snickered and Bella giggled.
"So please, don't be nervous with me Edward. I simply think you and I should trek this with an open mind and just let our bodies talk how they want to talk. I will tell you right now I'll be severely saddened if you revert back to your reserved ways much like you had previously when you were a vampire. But I'm also not expecting you and I to christen that table in front of us with the servants watching." Bella explained, shaking her head at the last mention.
"I never pegged you as an exhibitionist anyways." I teased and Bella gasped at me. She gave me a light smack to my chest and I laughed. "Teasing my darling. Trust me, I don't want to share you in the middle of our passion - that's reserved for my eyes only."
Bella gave a small groan at the words I admitted, to which the noise went straight to my groin again. Before I had time to react, Bella leaned in and initiated a passionate kiss between us. I groaned quietly against her and reciprocated the fervor she exuded, leaning into her touch with one hand going to her face and the other to her waist. The kiss escalated to involving our tongues exploring each other's mouths, where I lost myself in the taste of her. Bella mewled underneath me and her hands flew to my neck, with her fingers starting their climb to dig themselves into my hair. She eagerly pushed my cap off of my head and I gave a moan when her fingernails dug into my scalp. She had been waiting to do that for so long and now that we were alone she finally could.
The need to breathe quickly arose and I had to tear myself away from Bella's lips. We were both gasping for air, panting heavily. Her brown eyes were darkened as she stared up at me with hunger, and I was sure I fared no better with my own eyes. As soon as we had kissed, the hormones within me increased tenfold. My sexual desires to have my wife, to continue this kiss and let it progress further, nagged at my mind. Go on, you two are alone. Continue making out with her, cop a feel of her clothed chest. Bury yourself in her, rip those confiding clothes and ravage your wife on this couch. The deviant side tried to persuade me into giving into my carnal needs while I rested my forehead against Bella's. She was sucking in breaths noisily, her chest heaving yet it did nothing to quell the arousal in me as I watched her chest move.
"Holy hell..." she breathed, giggling. "I don't know how we're going to survive these next few days."
"Uh huh." I rasped out, clearing my throat.
"Oh my, you really are affected by this." Bella pointed out, blinking at me in shock.
"You do not know the half of it." I grunted, scrunching my face. "Bella, I..."
"Edward, please I won't push you if you're not comfortable with it." Bella relented, but I shook my head vehemently.
"No, that's not what I was going to say." I took a deep breath. "I... I don't want to go back to my old ways, trust me I really don't. You just have to exercise patience with me, please. I want to let myself go, but it's going to take some time as I try to battle with myself on this."
Bella gasped as she heard this. "You mean...?"
"I want to explore everything with you, remember?" I reminded her, once again referring to yesterday. "I'm at odds with myself but my resolve is slipping bit by bit the more I kiss you, the more I touch you. I want to learn everything with you, even if during this time it's taboo to engage in sexual acts before marriage. I want to feel and be human with you. Even if the time period would shame us if it were to be seen by anyone else." I whispered.
"Yes." Bella murmured, understanding.
"Just please, be patient with me as I try to adjust." I pleaded with her. It was such a rash decision to make but I couldn't help but give into the devilish desires. My wife was a seductress even if she didn't try, and I was putty within her hands. I wanted to give into my desires and abuse this time we had together as we were truly, finally alone at least for a few days. No more would I have to look over my shoulder expecting one of our mothers would be nearby watching us and our every move. I wouldn't have to worry about possibly running the risk of our fathers interrupting us either. I had Bella all to myself.
"Of course." Bella breathed, and I smiled to her. I leaned up and kissed her again, in attempts of it being chaste. But the usual spark between us ignited again and we gave into the lust. Bella groaned as our lips touched, her hands finding home once more into my hair. It was meant to be kempt, but that was a task within itself in this era. My hair never settled previously when I was a vampire and the much was same said in this time period no matter how hard my mother tried with pomade. I encircled my arms around her waist and pulled her close to my chest, where we both gasped as I felt the contours of her body pressed up against mine. Once I had pulled her close to me, she settled herself into my lap and I groaned into her mouth. She wasn't straddled over my lap but I felt her thighs pressed into my lower half of which she had to feel how hard I was.
"God, Bella." I hissed around our lips when Bella gasped at what she felt down there.
"Oh Edward." she whispered into me, and then pulled away again to breathe. I couldn't stop my kissing however and began to trail my lips along her jaw and then came to the collar of her dress.
"These damnable clothes." I cursed and Bella gave a breathless giggle.
"Should we...?"
My heart skipped a beat at what she was suggesting. Take her upstairs to one of our rooms, undress each other and give ourselves into the deepest throes of passion, that is what she wanted to do. I gulped again at the imagery created in my head, and buried my nose into her neck. She gave out a quick mewl to the touch, her hands massaging my scalp.
"I would love to." I murmured against her clothed skin, sighing. "But we only have but an hour before the servants return."
"Oh..." Bella trailed off with a sadness evident in her tone.
"We can perhaps explore this later my love. I have an idea of what we could do to entertain ourselves."
"I can't believe I let you talk me into this!" Bella cried to me as I began leading us away from the house. I held onto one hand of hers as I led us forward to the lake, where her other hand held onto the skirt of her dress so she wouldn't trip when we walked the dirt path.
"It'll be fun. Besides the whole point of us coming up here was to escape the heat from the city. This will be a lucrative activity in combating the heat." I reminded her with a laugh as I raced us to the water's edge. After Bella and I had finished kissing within the den, I had reminded her the idea of the whole trip was to escape the heat. The northern part of this state was indeed a bit cooler than what it was at the moment back home, yet it still retained some bit of heat. Of course being right next to this large lake definitely cooled the air around us immensely. And I wanted to have a human experience with my wife - swimming with her.
She had pointed out we didn't have our swimsuits - swim costumes of this era were hideous, mind you - while I raced us out of the estate. I had other ideas in mind.
"Edward slow down!" Bella giggled as we neared the water's edge. She was breathless when I finally slowed us to a stop. The air was crisp when I took a deep inhale, where I let the gentle sloshing of the water relax me. I was bubbling with excitement of the idea of swimming with Bella, even more so teeming with joy when I had the 'brilliant' idea that I did have in how we'd swim together. I began to take off my shoes and shoulder off my jacket, noting Bella was eyeing me. "What are you doing?"
"Getting ready to go for a swim." I murmured to her with a smirk, setting my jacket to the side on the cool grass. Then I began to unbutton my top to which Bella finally caught on.
"Are you swimming nude?" she hissed, her cheeks darkening.
"No, although I would love to swim nude with you again like on our honeymoon." I replied, winking at her. "But the water here is icy cold of which my human skin wouldn't be able to handle that. So I'm stripping to my drawers."
"Edward..." Bella trailed off apprehensively yet couldn't keep her eyes off of my chest when the last button popped off. She eyed my pale chest that had that creamy, rosy quality to it thanks to me being human. She lingered on the tufts of bronze hair to my chest. "Oh!" she squeaked as she noticed I was starting to unbutton my pants and turned away.
"Bella why are you acting so shy?" I teased, slipping my pants off to where I was left down to my drawers - a simple white cotton piece that went to my calves. I bent down and pulled them a tad, knowing well enough that once I hit the water they'd sag from the water weight. "You and I are husband and wife and we've seen each other naked."
"Edward I saw you naked as a vampire, not as a human." Bella pointed out, not turning around.
"But there's nothing truly different with my human body and my vampire body. I'm just a bit squishier and softer. Don't tell me you're put off from my human body." I argued, taking a few steps to stand behind her. I put my arms around her waist and Bella gasped from the closeness as I stood behind her, my lower half coming into contact with her back. She was still short even in her heels and I towered over her small frame. "Why are you so shy my love? Do you not wish to swim with me?"
"N-No I do!" Bella stuttered, and looking down I could see her gnawing on her bottom lip. "You just... have to give me a second. I haven't seen you in this state of undress for a long time since we were last together back in our time."
I kissed the top of her head and whispered to her, "Would you like me to help you out of your clothes?"
"Edward." Bella gasped, and wobbled in my arms.
"Steady my dear." I chuckled lightly, my hands moving away from her waist.
"At least if you could help me with the back of my dress. I think though you should turn away from me though when I strip." Bella muttered, cheeks bright red.
"Why?" I questioned aloud, feeling my eyebrows furrow.
"Because," she paused, taking a deep breath. "Again we haven't seen each other like this in awhile and I frankly think it would be good to keep it a surprise reveal until we're in both similar states."
I shook my head to her reasoning, not truly understanding it but decided I would please my wife with her wishes. I helped her in unbuttoning some of the fasteners on the back of her dress, gulping again from the action. Bella waited before me shakily while I unbuttoned each button carefully. I could feel myself harden even more if that was remotely possible from the action, and leaned down to place a gentle kiss to her neck. She gasped from the feeling, and I smiled.
"Don't keep me waiting too long, Mrs. Cullen." I whispered into her ear, feeling a sense of de ja vu. I know I had whispered something similar to her on the night of our honeymoon and couldn't help but be a bit coy in my actions. We were dancing along that fine line of giving into our emotions or keep them at bay while we were out here. But I decided I'd go with my gut with my emotions and let them drive me while we had our time alone. I was along for the ride. Once I had done this, I pulled back as Bella's dress was unfastened enough for her to be able to escape the confines. I turned and walked leisurely to the edge of the lake, where I took a careful dip of my toe into the water.
"Gah!" I hissed when coming into contact with the cold water. It was definitely cool to the touch and I knew it'd be a shock if I were to jump in. However the heat that was present outside was starting to sit on my skin; it was nothing like Chicago's heavy heat but it was still enough to sit there on the surface, making me feel like I'd start to sweat the longer I stayed outside. So I took a few deep breaths before I stuck my feet into the water. I hissed and carefully waded my way into the water, keeping my back to Bella to give her the privacy she desired. The water rose to my waist before there was a drop off and finally I could push myself off to start to swim. My skin adjusted to the temperature of the lake's waters, and I welcomed the coolness.
I decided to test myself and quickly dove under the water after taking a gasp of breath to hold onto. Once under, I blinked several times as I tried to look through the murkiness of the water. It was another experience to chalk up as a human, one of which I missed having the ability to see underwater. I liked being able to see down into the water with sharp vision, be able to see my surroundings and not have to second guess what was down here with me. It was a lake, granted, in the 1900s of which I didn't have to worry about any predators like I would if I were to be in the ocean. But it was jarring to try and see through the water with my horrible human eyesight. Another thing that I missed as a vampire when swimming, was once again related to my need for breathing. As a vampire I could stay down underwater for hours and never have to come up for air. As a human the longest a human could remotely hold their breath naturally was a mere two minutes - and that was going to quickly become an annoyance. I was losing oxygen quickly the longer I stayed under with my lungs crying out to me to return to the surface. When I knew I couldn't hold it in any longer, I swam quickly and broke through the surface with a gasp. I bobbed in the water to balance myself, sputtering and wiping a hand over my face as I caught my breath.
When I finally had gained it back, I turned back towards Bella as I wondered if she was finished in getting undressed - and that's when my jaw dropped.
Perhaps Bella was right in keeping it a surprise for me to see her again.
Bella had managed to get her dress off along with her coreset, and pulled her shoes and stockings off of her feet. Now I could see her in just her undergarments. A chemise that was thin and left little to the imagination was adorned on her womanly body, where I could see also her bottoms on through the thin filmy material of her chemise. Bella was blushing when she realized I had turned to look at her, and was taking slow steps towards the water. She was a distance away from me after I had made my trek into the water, but I could still see her. I began to swim towards her, entranced at the sight of her body. While her bottom half was covered, her top half was left for all wandering eyes to see the shape and curve of her breasts, as well as the darkened center of each areola before it led to her pert nipples. My human eyes could at least make that much distinction to her chest, and my body reacted in kind.
"Bella..." I breathed as I swam towards her.
"Don't stare at me like that." Bella muttered through her shyness, her cheeks ablaze as usual while she took to carefully lifting the hem of her chemise while she began to step foot into the water. Her bottoms, long frilly drawers much like mine, couldn't be saved and once they touched the water, they began to take on water, dragging.
"Do you need help?" I murmured to her once I got closer to her. The closer I had walked towards her, the more my eyes fixated on her chest.
"I know how to walk into water." Bella protested with a pout, and began to walk towards me. I kept myself planted at where I had stopped and watched as she carefully waded into the water, hissing from the coolness that touched her skin. She took each step slowly and carefully, not wanting to suddenly step onto a loose patch of mud that would lead to her slipping. Eventually, she finally reached me. Bella carefully set her hands onto my bare chest, shivering from the coolness of my skin there and gazed up at me. Her cheeks would forever be pink considering I hadn't let up on my staring of her chest.
"You're breathtaking." I whispered to her and let my arms encircle around her thin waist. Bella bit her bottom lip while she let me pull her close to me and began walking backwards with her.
"Oh!" she squeaked as soon as her chest came into contact with mine. I tightened my hold around her frame, relishing in the feel. The chemise provided very little barrier between us, to which I could easily feel the curvature to her chest as well as the hardness that were her nipples when they touched my chest.
"God." I hissed, stopping short in the water. Bella wrapped her arms around my shoulders suddenly, while I pulled her impossibly closer into me. We were both freezing cold due to the water, but it felt like my skin was on fire. I was finally feeling Bella's body once again as it felt like it had been eons since I felt it. We have had layers upon layers of clothing separating us for months since we have been brought back here to this time period, along with no alone time for one another considering we were under our parents' watchful gaze the entire time. It indeed had felt like centuries since Bella and I had last been together, since we last made love; the previous time we had even shared such time together was before we were pulled back in time. I was a sexually starved man craving his wife's touch, and I know she felt the same way as I had. She expressed as much within her letters and the few times we have been out together.
When I had pulled Bella closer, it caused a shift in my weight distribution. I failed to realize that I stopped on a particular slippery point within the lake bed - so when I brought Bella closer to my body, the shift caused me to lose my footing. "Oh god!" I yelped as I felt myself slipping backwards. Bella squeaked before I took us down into the water. It was at a point in the lake that was deep enough for us to sink below the surface and would have to put some effort into trying to stand up again. We floated there within the water, where her hair flowed around her like that of a sea nymph. I could see through bleary eyes that her clothing still did nothing to hide her body from me, and she looked even more like a mythical creature to me than she did before. When we could no longer hold our breath, we swam up to the surface.
"Holy crow!" Bella gasped as she reached the surface, sputtering for air. I shook my hair out, knowing well enough that it had darkened considerably from the water. Bella grimaced as I splashed her, but giggled. "You slipped. That's a first."
"I'm only human, love. Don't have the perfect strength and balance anymore like I used to." I joked with her to which she laughed at me. Then she swam closer to me and wrapped herself around me in a vice grip; she had her arms around my shoulders and her legs wrapped around my waist. It was there that I realized her core was closer to my groin, and I groaned.
"What?" she questioned aloud, batting her eyes at me. She was doing this on purpose.
"Perhaps swimming was not a smart idea." I grunted, wrapping my arms around her to keep her steady against me. As much as I would like to pride myself on the strength I did have as a human, we were both of equal weight at this point and with her wrapped around me like this, I could not keep us both balance and buoyant in the water.
"Oh I'm causing us to sink." Bella realized once I had tried to keep us afloat, that I was sinking in the water with her. I grunted to acknowledge her and she released my waist from her legs, where I groaned at the loss. She blinked at me when she had let go of me, and I gave her a sheepish grin.
"I didn't exactly want you to let go of me." I murmured to her and noticed her cheeks reddened once more. She understood what I was implying. She still had her arms around my shoulders where I held her close to me, and I knew she had to have felt just how hard I was in this moment. Rather than saying another word, Bella leaned forward and kissed me. My heart raced when I felt her lips touch mine, and her chest came into contact with mine again. I could feel everything that was her in this cold water while I lost myself in our kiss. It started out slow and tender but escalated quickly like usual, to hungry and heated.
Once again the lake proved to not be an ideal place for us to share kisses or any form of intimacy. When I had bobbed with Bella in my arms, she squealed when we had dipped low into the water and pulled away from my lips. Her brown eyes were darkened with hunger, and her brown hair was soaked, clinging to her skin. "I think we should get out." she whispered, her finger reaching up to trace my lip.
"Splendid idea." I whispered back with a smirk, leaning down to kiss her quickly. There, I carefully swam us back to the lake's edge, holding her in my arms. Just as I reached the edge where I could have steady footing, I stood us up. Bella adjusted to reposition herself like she was before, wrapped around my front with her legs around my waist. I groaned when our lower halves were near each other once more, and resumed our heavy kissing. Bella's tiny hands found their place in my hair while I walked us up the edge and onto the bank of the lake. Her chemise hung heavy from the water, and was paper thin for I could feel everything that was her body wrapped around me. My drawers were no better and hung low on my hips.
"Edward." she breathed against my lips, moaning when I brought my hands around her legs to hold her steady against me. I lowered us onto the grass and continued to make out with my wife, hovering above her. I gave out a moan of my own when our lower halves rubbed against one another, my mind becoming hazy with the fantasies once more. It'd be so easy to rip these undergarments off that confine us, and bury myself into her. She would look breathtaking in the sunlight, nude and her hair fanned out below her while she'd be crying out and writhing underneath me. I thought to myself while kissing her, squeezing her thighs that remained around my waist.
"Fuck, sweetheart. I can't get enough of you." I hissed when I pulled away from her lips and Bella gasped.
"I've... never heard you curse like that." my wife breathed. I guess it was true that I rarely cursed in front of her, but granted I hated the act of cursing. It was unnecessary vulgarity. I'd like to think that I used to curse a bit more when we were married and both immortal, but I guess I never truly did back then. I felt myself smirk from her remark before I began kissing down her jaw and down her neck. Now that there were no clothes on her to stop me, I realized I could continue on my journey down her neck and even further if I wanted to. Bella's breath caught in her throat when I stopped at the base of her neck and made it to her exposed collarbone. I glanced up at her to see her eyes were closed while she breathed heavily beneath me.
It was there I began to my exploration, kissing further down. She mewled to herself when she realized I wasn't stopping, and waited on pins and needles while I made my way to one of her breasts. The chemise was soaked through and her beautiful rosy breast was ever present before me, her pink nipple taught from the coldness of the water. I gulped down my nerves and with a shaky hand that I released from her thigh, I brought it up to move the portion of the chemise away. Her breast came free, hanging loosely before me. I was mesmerized by the sight before me, but the hunger won over the desire to admire. I leaned forward and kissed her nipple.
Bella gave way to a jolt and a harsh cry of pleasure. "Edward!" she exclaimed, her head lolling back in the grass. I felt a sense of pride in being able to make her react this way, but focused back on the task at hand. After the simple kiss, I began to suckle and tease her there, rolling the bud between my teeth. The action drove me just about as wild as it did her. I felt a tug deep within me that went directly to my erection; the sensation of feeling her in my mouth as I sucked on her body, and hearing her cries of arousal as I touched her, spurred me on further. The hand that initially came up to free the first breast, boldly went across her chest and slid underneath the material to her other breast. It needed attention as well, it begged for it. My hand went to her other tit and there I began to massage the soft flesh there.
"Oh god, yes!" Bella sobbed, her body giving into my touch. Her back arched, pushing into my mouth and my hand. I hummed against her chest and continued to tease her, my suckling increasing in vigor while my fingers played with her other nipple. "Please, more!" she begged with a whimper, her head shaking back and forth. She was lost to the sensation I was creating.
"Shh my love, just feel." I murmured against her skin when I pulled my mouth from her tit.
"Please Edward...!" she begged once more, and a hand flew up to the one that was playing with her chest. I continued my ministrations to the first breast, enjoying feeling her in my mouth while she grabbed my hand in hers. She then pushed my hand lower and that's when realization dawned on me.
"Fuck." I grunted against her when she brought my hand down to her drawers, hinting at where she needed my touch.
"Yes, more please." Bella pleaded, grunting when I had cursed against her skin again. "Please Edward, I need you there."
"With my...?"
"For now." Bella whispered, mewling when I pulled away and shifted my hand. I was facing another first with Bella, at least a sense of a first with her as we were both human. Back when we were both vampires, we didn't exactly engage in much foreplay with one another - namely pleasuring each other with our hands. We were too caught up with one another and had dove straight into the main course, that we often skipped appetizers. But now as humans, it was but another task to add to our list of sharing experiences with one another. Even when I was the dangerous creature and she was still human, we still didn't exactly enact anything like this. I was too engrossed in enjoying my wife and desired to be with her that I never thought about playing this type of an act out on her. She never really did much of the same with me either, namely since before I didn't exactly think it was something she wanted to do. I'd never ask her either.
But now, here we are. The 'for now' as well was indeed foreboding; she was hinting she wanted more, definitely more than just my fingers.
I gulped down my nervousness and toyed with her undergarments for a minute. "Are you nervous again?" Bella asked calmly and I gazed up at her. She was still holding that heavy, lustful look in her eyes but she was focusing on me, on how I was reacting to this challenge. She could sense my nerves and hesitation. I didn't want to mess this up with her, I wanted to be sure I'd give her all the pleasure she deserved. I just hope her expectations aren't met with mediocre results.
"Yes." I admitted aloud, and Bella gave me a warm smile.
"There's nothing that you can do that would be wrong, Edward. Remember, it's us. I love you and will always love you. You make me feel good regardless of whatever you do." Bella murmured lovingly and I gave her a smile. I leant up to kiss her lips then, and decided it was now or never. While kissing her tenderly, I took time in dipping my hand under the waistband to her undergarments. She cried around my lips when my fingers came into contact with her curls. I hummed around our lips and continued my descent, feeling her soaked down there - whether it was because of the water from the lake or wet with need for me, it likely was both. I groaned when my fingers came into contact with her soft flesh below, and I let my fingers tease her there. She gave more cries of pleasure from my touch, arching into my hand.
"So beautiful." I breathed against her skin when my lips traveled down once more from her mouth to her exposed chest. There I took to teasing her once more with my mouth while my fingers gently pushed past her folds.
"Edward!" she all but screeched now, sucking me in. This had to be more erotic than anything I've ever experienced with Bella. Why did I never engage in foreplay with her like this? I thought to myself when I watched her writhe under my touch. I took to letting my fingers slip mostly all the way out from her, but then pushed them back in which she groaned to the sensation. "More, please more!" she pleaded with me in a sob, her delicate hips bucking into my hand. She was letting her arousal drive her body. I was all but happy to oblige to my wife's demands and began a steady rhythm with my fingers into her, taking time to give attention to her breasts or watching her wiggle underneath me. I'd add more fingers after several strokes and took to increasing my speed of which Bella adored.
"That's it my love." I whispered to her huskily while she moved, the pace of my fingers continuing to rise as fast as I could manage as a human. Were I a vampire still, the speed would be thrice as fast in order to drive her to the brink quicker - but I don't think Bella minded the human speed I had to offer. She was left to only give out grunts and cries of delight from my movements, her breathing picking up and turning into pants. Her skin was still glistening wet from the lake, its hue now turning pink the more she exerted control over her release. I wanted to watch her come undone beneath me, and knew she would snap at any moment. I used my thumb to find the sensitive bud that was hidden amongst her curls, and quickly found it. Whilst pumping my fingers in and out of her, I did my best with my thumb to rub her clit in circles.
This is what led to her slipping over. "Oh god! Edward!" she shrieked, where I felt her muscles tightening around my fingers. I felt her release and watched her body shake with her orgasm, her head thrown back into the grass and her hips lifted into the air. I continued to pump her through her orgasm, making sure she got every last bit of enjoyment out of it as much as I did watching her. She was a thing of beauty. Slowly, she came down from her high and collapsed to the floor beneath me, heaving gasping breaths. When I was sure she was spent, I slowly pulled my fingers out from her and eased my hand out from her drawers. My hand was warm and had essence of Bella all over it, of which her scent hit my nostrils when I brought my hand up to inspect it. I glanced at Bella where her cheeks turned a light pink as if embarrassed that I was staring at my hand like this. I was curious to her taste and thought would it be weird if I were to try tasting her?
Testing the waters, I sucked my fingers into my mouth and tasted my wife, groaning to what greeted me. It was just her, and further spurned on my arousal for her. Bella watched with rapt attention as I cleaned my fingers after having them inside of her. I could feel my erection aching below, and knew I needed a release. However I felt like a heathen thinking of asking my wife to help me relieve this problem of mine. I don't know truthfully why, but I felt as if it was better for me to take care of my wife's needs and give her that sexual gratification she desired from my touch instead of vice versa. She was my beautiful angel who needed to be worshipped like the goddess she was, in my eyes at least. There was no need for me to sully that with my selfish needs.
Bella had other plans. She leant up and pushed on my chest suddenly, a determined look in her eyes. "Wha - Bella?"
"Lie on your back." she murmured, pushing me down. It was a blessing for her she had the strength to push me around now since I was no longer an immoveable marble force of weight. I willingly lied back and was about to question her again but she silenced me with her lips. She greedily kissed me, her small tongue darting into my mouth where she lapped up the taste of her on my own tongue. I groaned around our mouths at the action, feeling even more turned on by her in the moment. I didn't even realize that her hand began to descend down to my trousers and she let her small hand slip under.
"Ah!" I gasped when I felt her hand just graze my privates. "Bella -"
"No, it's your turn. Now you get to feel." Bella's voice was a husky murmur, and god was it tantalizing to hear. I moaned and proceeded to listen to my wife's commands. My body twitched when her small hand engulfed me, and Bella hummed. "Holy hell, you were big as a vampire but you're still very big as a human too." she mused aloud, causing me to groan at her open vulgarity as she discussed my size nonchalantly.
"You're a minx talking like that." I muttered, my head rolling back while she began to stroke me.
"Lift your hips honey." Bella ordered in a whisper, and I complied easily. With my hips semi-raised, she eased my drawers down slightly to free me. Now that I have been sprung free I chanced a glance at my wife but it only made me hardened even more in her grasp; her brown eyes were transfixed on my crotch, eyes wide and her pink lips slightly parted.
"It's not the first time you've seen it." I murmured, biting my lip to lessen the cry of pleasure when she continued her stroking.
"No, but it's the first time I've seen it whilst you're human. It's so... fleshy, full of veins and not like a rock when you were a vampire." Bella commented, licking her lips whilst she let her other hand come down to run it through the coppery curls of my crotch.
"Ungh." I grunted at the action, shutting my eyes while I let the sensations of her giving me a hand-job take over my body. It was yet another first for us; as mentioned before, we never truly engaged in foreplay like this back before we had been pulled back in time. We essentially had been worked up easily by one another that we never saw need for it and dove straight into making love. Seeing how Bella reacted when I gave her pleasure with my hands and mouth, it'd be a memory I'll have etched into my brain forever. Now I certainly wanted to keep up with the notion of us engaging in this type of loving from now on, if I could just get to watch her body writhe under my touch like it did. But now the shoe was on the other foot and I was rendered powerless under Bella's hands as she stroked my cock. It felt amazing, mind-blowing even. She seemed to be enjoying it as well, from her humming while she watched me twitch with each movement, or that she enjoyed teasing me. First she'd let the speed build and build with her human strength, before she'd suddenly slow it down and got at a slow, snail's pace. It was driving me mad. "Love, please..." I pleaded, groaning when she kept up with her games.
"Shh, I want you to feel this, enjoy this." Bella murmured, shifting in her position to where now her head was perpendicular with my hip. I could feel her hot breath blowing on my groin and I knew exactly what she was planning on doing.
"Bella, love, you don't -"
"I want to." she cut me off again, where I peaked out from my closed lids to see her staring determinedly at my penis. Oh god.
I moaned and let my head roll back into the grass, deciding I'd let this play out how she wanted to play it out. It's there I gave a resounding cry when Bella's tongue darted out, licking the tip of my cock gently. She was tasting the precum that was leaking out from me, and if that wasn't one of the most erotic sensations I've ever felt, I know nothing in this world. "Fuck!" I grunted, panting. Bella hummed at my response, before long I felt her wrap her whole mouth around my penis. I continued to curse and yell out profanities of exaltation as she began moving her head up and down my length slowly. Her little mouth was hot and wet, sucking and licking. I wanted to desperately fist my hand into her hair, I wanted to guide her so I could have my cock hit the back of her throat, I wanted to be rough. The gentleman in me - or what little was left - held back the beast that was battling inside me, where I couldn't do that to her. It'd likely hurt her. She'd gag and choke if I was forceful with her.
My heart was pounding as Bella continued to give me head, pumping me as she moved her head up and down in a steady rhythm. She kept trying to fully deep-throat me, but it wasn't going to happen easily since I could feel her hesitate each time she tried. "Don't... ungh... force it- fuck!" I hissed, groaning when she sucked, humming around me. Bella lifted her hands to which one went to the rest of my shaft, to pump it with her movements as she bobbed up and down. The other hands went a little lower, where she gently cupped my ball sack and began to massage them. That brought about a new sensation and I could feel myself racing for the climax. "Oh god! Bella!" I cried, groaning and my back arching from the feeling. She hummed again around me, and began to speed up her movements even more, trying to get me to finish. It was almost too much for me to handle, I felt like crying as my mind couldn't focus on anything but her mouth and hands. It was incredible and I felt so powerless, helpless but felt the love behind her actions. She wanted me to feel good and get everything out of this like I had given her. For her to bravely dive headlong into giving me oral sex like this, it was so unlike her to be bold. It was even unlike myself to be as bold as I had been with her as well.
It didn't take long for me to finally reach my climax. I wanted to fight Bella and push her from my cock as I didn't think it'd be something enjoyable to swallow my cum, but Bella continued to surprise me. When she could tell I was about to cum, she sucked harder to bring me over the edge faster. It was as if she knew I'd try to push her off, but she wanted everything I had to give. It was with this I gave a loud resounding cry of letting my orgasm win out and I let myself go; I could feel my seed releasing into her hot mouth and I let my body arch and convulse, riding the waves of pleasure. Bella stayed planted in her position, swallowing everything. I felt like I was leaving my body from the sensation of letting go, and probably would've passed out there in the grass. When the orgasm had finally passed, I collapsed into the grass, heaving panting breaths while trying to calm down. I closed my eyes whilst trying to get my heartrate to slow down. Meanwhile I could feel Bella release me after she licked me clean. She readjusted my wet drawers back over me, and I could feel her repositioning herself to be laid up against my side.
"How..." was all I could muster to say when I tried to find my voice. It was shocking to see that Bella was able to do that so easily.
Bella let loose a giggle next to my limp body. "Well, we had tried something like that at least once when we were both immortal. We preferred making love, I know, and rarely engaged in oral sex. But the one time we had, I found it to be such an easy thing to just take you in my mouth. You feel so good to me there just as you do inside - at least again from what I remember when we were both vampires." Bella discussed easily, and I groaned as she talked about it out loud. I could grasp at foggy memories of when we were both vampires, from before, and how it felt amazing then as well when she gave me head as a vampire. I don't think anything would really compare to the feeling as a human. It was mind-blowing in more ways than one. I thought to myself. "I'll admit, the struggle here was having to try to breathe around you instead of not worrying about my air supply. But the sensation was still the same - it feels amazing to know I can make you feel good like that."
"More than good..." I trailed off, smirking. I opened my eyes and gazed up at her. Her face was flushed from our activities, those brown eyes twinkling while she stared down at me. "It was amazing."
"Indeed." she concurred, biting her bottom lip.
"I can't believe we did what we did." I stated, replaying the memories we just created, realizing the weight behind our actions. We just ran through second and third base, in modern terms. We engaged in foreplay with our hands and mouths, out in broad daylight no less, in the 1900s. It was a blessing we had the privacy that we did, but it was a shock to realize that I willingly went as far as I did with my wife. I think the old me would be having a heart attack - as much as one could have as a vampire - if he were to see how I leapt to where I am now.
Bella's blush deepened, the color going from her face down her neck and down her chest underneath her still wet chemise. I let my eyes follow the trail, which my groin twitched at the sight that I could see the rosy hue make its way to her chest - which I could very much still see through the chemise that was see-through thanks to being soaked from our swim. I don't think now I could hold it back anymore. I felt like a ravenous beast who needed his wife at every given chance, every second. I had unlocked that cage that was my human resolve, the cage that kept the hormones at bay. The act of what we did was only an appetizer that would whet my palate for what I wanted most. And I think Bella knew it too, that it'd be harder than ever for me to hold back now. I think that's what she wanted, however; I knew in the past she hated how I had to stop myself in our sessions if things began to go too far. She wanted to push the line and have things be more physical than I allowed. But I had my fears holding me back, back then. I didn't want to hurt her before, since I didn't know my own strength. Bella was fragile against me, and I never could live with myself if I hurt her during any of our sessions - be it when we'd be in her bed kissing, or like how it had been during our honeymoon. But she had a point. When I had relaxed during our honeymoon and just let my natural instincts take over - the drive to keep her protected, but to make her happy - it was like my body finally understood that I could never really hurt her. I could let go and feel all that was my wife. It was enjoyable to be free with her, no worries that I'd be too much and that she'd break under my hands. She was my home, and she kept me grounded for us to feel everything during that honeymoon. It was indeed what led to our Reneesme after all.
Pushing the sadness that crept in when I was reminded of our separation from our daughter, I looked up at her when I felt her hand come to rest on my bare chest. "You realize that we've opened Pandora's box now, and there's really only one thing left between us we haven't done. It's only a matter of time." Bella murmured, biting her bottom lip. I knew exactly what she was talking about.
"Yes." I agreed, nodding my head, taking a deep breath before pushing myself up slightly to rest on my elbows. She watched me, silent as I continued to speak. "It was all about letting go, you also realize, in what we did today. I told you that I want to experience being human with you - all its hurdles, its surprises, and its pleasures included. I don't think I could truly hold back now from the home stretch that's laid out before us." I explained, feeling my heart skip a beat when she gazed up at me with those sultry eyes of hers.
It was indeed, only a matter of time before Bella and I would be diving into the final stages of our physical relationship. This trip was a gift from God, thanks to our mothers. I think I will surely be losing my mind when we get to that point.
The thought terrified me, but also excited me. It couldn't come soon enough.
A/N: I guess a slightly hasty end to the chapter, but I think I'd rather call it there. I was starting to run out of really ideas of what else I could put within the chapter, but think if there's any more events to come to in this story, it should be saved for another chapter.
Any critique is always welcomed as usual! I'm trying to take feedback as I go and adapt to it but unsure on how the execution went about in this one. Either way I had fun with writing this up.
Until next time,
~Lady Eleanora~