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Chapter 10 – I'll stand By You
'You….. You know what?' Chichi asked, Goku was looking angry, but he was also looking hurt. She knew why.
'I know what's wrong with you' he said as he looked her in the eye as she began to shake. She was afraid. Afraid of what comes next.
'Goku…. I…don't know what you…..'
'YES! Yes You Do! Don't lie to me! No More Lies! Do you think so little of me!?'
'No No of course not I…..'
'Then I'm gonna ask you a question….. and I want you tell me the truth, I deserve to know it!' He ordered as Chichi held back her tears and grip the bed sheets in her hands. This couldn't go on, she knew that she had to tell the truth.
'Okay' she whispered as he looked her dead in the eye and tried holding back his own tears
'Do you…. have cancer?' he asked. There! There he asked! And now she must answer. Everything she had worked hard to keep from it was about to come out in the open and she couldn't escape it. She knew it was over, she lowered her head and gasped for breath and felt her tears flow and cry hard. She couldn't look at him, and she hated her saw her as she appeared. It was too much to bear.
'Goku…..' She Cried
'I asked you a question. Do you have cancer?!' he asked again, more impatient than before as chichi continued to cry. Goku was not gonna take this, he needed to hear her say it! And he needed it now 'CHICHI ANSWER ME DAMMIT! DO YOU HAVE CANCER?! SAY IT! SAY IT!' He roared
'YES! YES I HAVE CANCER!? YOU HAPPY NOW!?' She screamed at him and continued to cry as he gasped for breath and lost his balance a little. There it was. She had cancer. He looked her, her frail body, she must have been in pain. He looked at her and then suddenly frowned again.
'You had this for months and you thought I didn't deserve to know. You made our friends lie for you and kept me, Gohan and Goten in the dark. How could you chichi?!'
'You wouldn't understand Goku! And I didn't want to burden the boys with this!'
'I have to have a say in these things Chichi! Did you think I wouldn't care!? That I wouldn't come back to help you!?'
'Its not like that! You know that!'
'Do I!? You didn't tell us anything about you. Us! Your husband and your sons! We know you better than anyone else just as much as you know us. But you were more than happy to tell 18 and the others about your condition!'
'Goku I'm sorry! Everything happened so fast! And I had to think fast. 18 was with me when I found out about the lump in my breast, that's how she knew and she wouldn't let me go through this alone!'
'A Lump in the breast? So its….'
'Yes. Breast Cancer, Stage 2' She nodded as he looked at her pacing around the room
'Who else knew?' he asked as she sighed
'18 was first to know, then Krillin Found out. After that, Dende sensed my condition and told Piccolo. And then Bulma saw me at the hospital getting my treatment'
'Piccolo knew too?! All of them knew about this! About your cancer! And none of them told me! You Didn't tell me! When I should have been the first to know!' he huffed and continued 'You even sent Goten away to Gohan's to stop him finding out, lying to our sons about your health. I mean what were you thinking?! You didn't think we deserved to know?! Your family?! I mean does your father know?! Or is he in the dark too?! Is that why we haven't seen him for months, you couldn't tell your own father about this?!'
'Believe when I say that every decision I have made since finding out was not done with ease. It was the most difficult thing I have ever had to hide. Finding out about it, the surgery, the chemo, all of it. And all I wanted to do was scream for you to come home' she cried as he looked at her, she looked so tired and defeated. But there was also fear in her eyes. And he didn't think it was because of the illness, more afraid of… him? He sat on the bed looking at her as she cried
'Then why didn't you? he asked as she looked up at him
'What?'
'You say you wanted to tell me, but you didn't. Why? What was the reason?' he asked as she wiped her tears away but they still flowed
'Goku….'
'Chichi please tell me. Help me understand. Why didn't you tell me you had cancer?' He asked. She looked his eyes, they showed sadness, fear and disappointment. Disappointed because she didn't tell him. She stifled a whimper but finally admitted the truth.
'Because I couldn't bear the thought of you seeing me like this' she answered as he looked confused
'What? Sick?'
'No….. weak' she admitted as he gasped.
'Wha….. you…. I…'
'It's a painful reminder you know. Oh sure, we are happy together and we have kids but it doesn't change the fact that you are not human, nor I a sayien. Vegeta once said that the only way sayiens die is either they get killed or they die of old age. There is no cancer, no tumours, not diseases, hell you barley get the flu!'
'But that isn't true! I got the heart virus remember?' He argued as she continued
'But you survived that, I knew you would. Because you're a sayien. You're a stronger species. You are a mighty race of warriors and you're not brought down by these kinds of things. Unlike humans. I have never known the boys to be ill by anything, that's makes them more sayien than human. And then there's us. We can get ill, I gave gotten ill and now I could…' She stopped herself finishing that sentence and changed it again 'My point is, that humans will always be weak, and it's a painful reminder that I will always be weak to you. You now realise and now you don't want me anymore. I'm letting this cancer destroy me and I'm too weak to stop it! It could kill me, but the thought of you thinking I'm weak is worse. Because you want someone who's strong' She confessed as Goku just sat there in pure shock. She genuinely believed that if she was weak….. he'd leave her!
'Chichi…. How could you think that? Where does that come from?' he asked as she sniffled and caught her breath
'Your desire to get stronger, it's a great ambition of yours. Not just for yourself, but for everyone else to get stronger too. Your friends, your sons and…..I know you would prefer if I was stronger too. But I'm not…. I'm Not Strong' She began to cry harder and hyperventilate, this worried Goku.
'Chichi calm down…..'
'But I'm not strong! I never have been! I'm weak, I hate it but I am. Because this may be a battle I can't win. And no one can fight it for me! And I may lose. I could Die from this!'
'No Don't say that….!' Goku frowned as She cried hard and stroked her hair for a chunk to fall out, clenching it in her hands frowning through her hot fresh tears.
'Look at me! This is what I've become. I'm weak! I'm scared and I Hate it! I hate it! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!' She kept screaming as Goku pulled her into his arms, she tried to fight back but he was too strong for that, he pulled her into his embrace as she screamed out crying her soul out. Goku held back his tears as he watched the woman he loves crumble. He wished he could fight this battle for her, but she was right! It was her battle to fight, Not his. But it didn't mean she had to do be alone.
'Look at me! LOOK AT ME!' he ordered as he pulled her up from his embrace, made her look up at him as wiped away her tears with his thumbs, grazing over her cheeks
'What?' she asked still sniffling
'You're wrong you know' he said as she looked at him
'Wrong? Wrong about what?' She asked
'You're not weak, you've never been weak, even when you were a kid, I never thought of you as weak. You have always been strong and its why I fell in love with you, and it's not just because of your physical strength, no its because of your stubbornness, your bravery, your kindness, Your Spirit! All of those things make you stronger as a person chichi. That's who you are, this cancer doesn't change that. It'll never change that. It doesn't justify who you are. You're a mother, a wife, and a fighter. So I know you can beat this' he exclaimed as Chichi looked up at him
'You can't promise me that Goku'
'No I can't, but I have faith in you, I know if you fight it, you can win'
'And if I can't? If I die?' she asked as he frowned. Not daring to think about that, he held her hands and kissed them softly
'All that matters now, is that we know. And that me and the boys are going to be there for you. You don't have to do this alone anymore chichi. You have us, and we aren't going anywhere. You can fight me on that but that is a fight I refuse to lose.' Goku instructed as Chichi softly smiled
'Goku….'
'I love you Chichi. So Much' he whispered as chichi wrapped her arms around him holding him in a tight and long embrace. This was long overdue. For both of them.
'I'm sorry I kept this from you, I just couldn't bear the thought of you seeing me like this' she said as he chuckled and stroked her cheek
'All I see is you. My chichi. Nothing else matters. And I'm going to help you through this. You remember when you were there for me when I got the heart virus?' he asked as she nodded 'The only thing that helped me get through it was the thought of you being beside me, because I knew I was being cared for by the only person that mattered. Let me be there for you chichi. I want to help you. And I won't take no for an answer.' He said sternly but gave her a wink. She blushed softly.
'I Guess I don't have a choice in the matter' Chichi joked as he chuckled and nodded
'We're going to get you better chichi. You just need to keep having faith, in yourself.' He Smiled as she nodded.
*Knock knock knock*
They both looked up at the door to see Gohan and Goten walk into the room, both of their eyes were puffy and they looked pale, they had been crying and still in shock over the news.
'Hey guys, I thought you were going home' Goku said
'The others went Home, Goten and I couldn't stand going home without seeing mom, we just needed to see her' Gohan answered as they looked to their mother as she looked to them, trying to not cry again
'I'm so so sorry' she whispered as Goten was quick to jump on the bed and give her a huge hug, his bottom lip trembling and his eyes filling with water
'Mom! You didn't tell us. I could have helped you!' Goten cried 'I don't wanna lose you momma. I need you! I love you' He cried as chichi held her youngest son and soothed his wails
'Oh Goten I'm sorry, I just didn't want to worry you boys. It's so difficult for you to understand but I needed to keep this to myself. But I guess it all got too much for me' she confessed
'Mom…..' Gohan looked at his mother, she turned to look at him as she felt her tears return. Gohan and Chichi's bond was very special. He was her first born and Gohan would do anything for her. She was his mother, and she was loved very much! He fell on his knees on her side of the bed and cried, Goku took Goten from her as he continued to cry into his dad's gi as chichi and Gohan shared a tight Hug. Gohan couldn't remember the last time he cried. But he knew it had been a long time since he last did so.
'Boys, I promise you that there are no more secrets. Everything is out there now. And I'm sorry for putting you through all of this.' she said
'So what now?' Gohan asked
'Well I will need to keep going to my treatment sessions and then we will need to evaluate if it has made a difference and continue a different line of treatment. But until then, we're sitting ducks for the time being.' Chichi confessed
'But you won't be doing this alone anymore mom. We're gonna be there to help you' Goten smiled as chichi nodded happily
'I'm glad, I couldn't have asked for a better pair of sons.'
'Seriously mom, whatever you need, we can provide if for you, I just wished you would have told us sooner' Gohan sighed
'Yeah, I'm not sure having Bulma, Krillin and piccolo know. I mean, what If something had happened before I came home, did they ever think of that?' Goku asked as Gohan gasped
'Pic….. Piccolo knew about this!?' Gohan yelled as he growled
'Please don't blame him Gohan, I asked him to not tell you boys anything.' She exclaimed as he huffed under his breath. Goku noticed this and added to the conversation
'I know your angry at them Gohan, I am too. But right now, we need to focus on getting your mom better okay?' Goku ordered as Gohan nodded
'Right!'
'Starting with, its way past your bedtime young man' chichi said
'Aww but mom I wanna stay with you!' He said
'Nah she's right pal, come on! We'll spend one more night at my place then we can head over to mount pazou and get the place ready for mom and dad when mom is out of hospital.' Gohan smiled as Goten nodded
'Okay! Sounds great! We'll see you tomorrow mom. I love you!' Goten smiled as Chichi smiled back
'I love you too' she said
'Hey dad, aren't you coming?' Gohan asked before they left as Goku looked to his wife and shook his head
'No, you know, I'm gonna stay with her. You guys go, I'll see you tomorrow.' He said as The boys left the room
'You're staying?' Chichi asked
'Yeah! You thought I'd leave you here by yourself, then you are mistaken. Budge up' he said she climbed into the hospital bed with Chichi as she rested her head on his chest. In less than 10 minutes, she was fast asleep on him as he watched her face, hearing the sound of rain outside and the radio playing in the background, Goku watched chichi as she slept and couldn't help but think
'I wish you had said something sooner chichi, but don't you worry, we're all here now, and we will help you though this. I promise' he said as the music began to play a familiar melody
(I'll Stand By You – Cory Monteith)
Goku: Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Goku: Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
Goku: When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
Goku: I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Goku gently drew circles across her shoulder as he watched her sleep, even with the bald patches, the pale skin, she was still truly beautiful to him, no cancer would ever change that fact.
Goku: So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Goku: Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
Goku: When you're standing at the crossroads
Don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong
Goku: I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
Goku looked at her, he then felt tears flow from his own eyes, falling down his cheeks, and his body shaking, he was scared. Scared of losing her. But he wasn't gonna give up, she wouldn't, so why would he?!
Goku: And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own
Goku: I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
Goku: I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
and I'll never desert you
Goku: I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
Goku: I'll stand by you
'I'll stand by you Chichi. I promise.' He said, giving her a soft kiss on her forehead, falling asleep next to her there in the hospital bed.
That's It for now. You will have to forgive me if your crying. But I think there is way more reason to cry if you listen to the song along with reading these lyrics, my recommendation is you listed to Cory Monteith's version of this song (Finn Hudson for Glee. RIP) It brings up more emotion in my opinion. Hope you guys enjoyed. Don't forget to Like and comment your thoughts. Lots of love to you all! You guys are awesome! Xx
Penelope out ;)