Rita came back home early that morning. She looked happy. Really happy.
"How did it go?" I asked.
"It was great. Really, really great." Rita said. She was grinning and blushing. I hadn't seen her like this since we first started dating. It was...beautiful. It looked good on her.
Warmth. Like I felt with Debra, and with Rita at our most intimate moments. Deeper then usual with Rita like...something was breaking through.
"I'm... glad." That really was the best word for it.
"You really aren't jealous at all." Rita said.
"No. I'm happy. For you. For Deb. For...me." I said.
"For you?" Rita seemed only a bit confused. Curious, not concerned.
"I'm lucky to have two such wonderful, understanding women in my life. Without you two...I'd be lost. I really mean that." I said. It was sincere and Rita would never know how true it was.
"Good because Debra and myself...well, we all need to figure out how this works." Rita said.
"Then invite her over." I heard myself say. It surprised even me.
"Invite her over? Tonight?"
"Yes. Why not? We should figure out where this goes. As soon as possible." I said. My head was spinning. I was throbining with need, but it had nothing to do with my Dark Passenger.
I couldn't get the idea of Rita and Debra together out of my head.
"Really? We can always...cool off. Take it slow." Rita said. Gentle, generous, kind, beautiful , lovely Rita.
"Do you really want to cool it off? Take it slow?" I said. Rita gave me a slow smile that blossomed into a laugh.
"No. I really, really don't." Rita said.
"Good then invite Deb. For tonight. We can talk."
"And then...?"
"We can see what happens?" I smiled.
I didn't know exactly what I wanted to happen in a house with myself, my girlfriend and my sister. I just wanted whatever it was to happen, really bad.
We spent the day with the kids. After dinner, we left them with a sitter, one of Rita's friends. We went over to my place, Deadly Dexters Domain, for a talk.
Deb was already there when we arrived. Sitting on my couch, with a beer.
"Ah. You're here." I said. Usually, this would put me off a bit. I'd want a few minutes to adjust and wait for her. Now I was...glad. It would be quicker. Less of this growing anticipation. The plot would fucking quicken.
What did I want? Usually, I was very clear about my urges. Generally I knew lust was a factor here but...how would I satisfy that? Debra, the sister, and Rita the girlfriend in the same room doesn't add up to me satisfying any desires.
"Hey Dex. Rita." Deb said. She was smiling, but it seemed a little tense. Nervous.
"Hello Debra." Rita said. She seemed lovestruck. Why did I...enjoy that. More than just physically.
"So, I heard you two...had fun." I said.
"That's the understatment of the century." Deb said.
"I presume you want to make it a regular habit." I said.
"You presume right. God damn I'll take as much as I can get." Deb said. She seemed off though. Vulnerable.
"You will?" I said. Something was off.
"Well, I know I'm the third wheel here." Deb said.
"No, you're not." I said instantly.
"Really? Because Rita made it pretty clear that I wasn't the main part of anything here." Deb said. I looked over at Rita, confused.
"I didn't mean...Debra I just didn't want to put pressure on you. I didn't think you wanted anything more. I was trying to be considerate of Dexter's feelings too. " Rita said.
"Don't be. " I said.
"If you want something more-"Rita said. And I didn't know what she was going to say and I felt desperate suddenly.
"We can share." I said.
Rita and Deb looked at me, and I felt oddly self-conscious.
"Share?" RIta said.
"Dex, the fuck?" Deb said.
"Time. We can share time. Split it up. Both of us have busy schedules. And I-I'm fine with being here. With both of you. We can share." I said. I had to convince them. That I wanted this. That we can make it all work. I wanted this.
Maybe I needed this.
"Really?" Deb said. She looked worried. Scared that it was all gonna be taken away from her.
Don't worry Deb I don't intend on jerking you around anymore.
"Yes." I said. And I looked at Rita.
"I'd love that." Rita said with a nervous smile.
"Yes! Fuck Yes. Rita, thank you." Deb said bursting with joy. She gave Rita a kiss on the lips and turned to face me.
"S-sorry I'm kinda hijacking your realtionship brother." Deb said.
"You don't have anything to worry about. We were born to share. I was lonely without you." I said. Deb gave me an agonized yet somehow happy look and embraced me.
"Dex." But she didn't say anything more.
"Why are you crying?" I asked.
"...Because I am so close to something I've always wanted and I just don't know how to take it." Deb said. I withdrew from the hug and looked her in the eyes. Usually, eye contact was a problem for me.
"Deb." I said.
Another few beats.
"Just take it." I said.
It was a long while or it seemed like a long while. It was only Deb's presence, and occasionally Rita in the corner of my eye sitting at the kitchen counter, that I noticed. Breathing. Heartbeats.
Then Deb kissed me.
Finally, I thought, and with that, I knew what I wanted. It was wrong, absurd, and it violated everything Harry would want for us, but I didn't care.
I kissed Deb back and there was nothing else but us. The kiss deepened. I felt an intense warmth. A need. But also a fufuilment. As if a question I'd been asking all my life had suddenly been given an answer. One that had been looking me in the face the whole time.
I loved Debra Morgan.
I was in love with Debra Morgan.
Me. A killer. A psycho. A monster. Somehow, I could feel genuine love. It was breathtaking. A wall was breaking down that I never knew was there.
Maybe I was a little human after all.
"You two. You look absolutely delicious together you know." Rita said. Suddenly, the world seemed to reappear. We withdrew and turned to look at Rita. She was drinking a can of Diet Coke. Was she being sarcastic? I couldn't tell. My brain had stopped working.
I looked over to Deb. She looked terrified. Oh great.
"You know I always knew there was something going on between you. You two aren't normal siblings." Rita said.
"Bullshit." Deb said weakly. Absurdly. We definitly weren't normal siblings by any stretch of the definition.
"I don't mind it. Never really did. You look beautiful together." Rita said.
"Join us." They were my words but they came out of Debs mouth. Sometimes in my more poetic moments I had thought of myself and Debra as two halves of a whole. She had all the feelings I never had, and I was cold and detached could see the world through different eyes.
I guess it was truer then I thought.
"This is not my wheelhouse at all. But...I'd love to give this a try." Rita said and crossed over to us.
Rita kissed me. Usually it was sweet and gentle, but this was more hungry, the kind it's only been a few times before. It only fuelled me more. Rita pulled away way too soon. But I didn't mind because Rita moved over to give Deb a kiss. Watching them kiss felt like the final pieces of a puzzle clicking into place.
This is what I needed. Not therapy, not Lila's brand of rehab or a serial killer life on the road with my brother. Me, Debra, Rita.
Debra and Rita were getting really into it. Deb's hands were on Rita's ass and Rita was putting her hand up Deb's shirt. It was a better visual then I had even thought it would be.
It took a lot to say what I needed to.
"Bedroom." I said. They finally disengaged and looked over to me.
"Let's take it to the bedroom." I said.
Debs face lit up and Rita gave us a grin.
"Fuck I can't believe we are actually doing this." Deb said.
"Me fucking either." I said.
"If we keep thinking about this, we may reconsider." Rita said.
"Then let's stop fuckinng thinking about it." Deb said.
So we did.
We all walked into my room. Deb and Rita could hardly keep their hands off each other. Not like I wanted them to stop. They were tearing each other's clothes off in no time.
I took off my belt and pants and started stroking my cock. It was a sweet agony to be so close to them and not touch, to join, to claim them both. At the same time I felt oddly hesitant to come in between them. Watching was beautiful too.
"Oh...you came prepared." Rita said, her eyes between Deb's legs.
"Strapped and ready." Deb said, her eyes twinkling. She was wearing a strap-on dildo.
"You had one of those?" I asked.
"Picked it up on the way over. Always be prepared is my motto." Deb said.
Funny, mine was to. Bit out of my depth here though.
"Damn Dex, you are packing too." Deb said.
"Just fuck my girlfriend before I beat you to it." I said.
Rita looked in bliss from all of this. Did we all really want this that bad?
Dutiful Debra delivered on my request. She had Rita on her back and was licking and fingering her promptly. She was feverish and desperate. Soon she had plunged her strap on into Rita. Rita moaned beneath her.
I felt myself drawn to the bed. Soon, I was next to my sister. I was kissing her cheek, her neck, her breast. I was fondling one of her tits while kissing the other. It was a joy to please her while she satisfied Rita.
I heard the unmistakable sound of Rita's orgasm. Near as soon as she was finished, I kissed Deb. Deb seemed to know what I wanted, or wanted it too or both. She extracted her dildo from Rita and unhooked the harness. Leaving me free and clear.
Deb was soaking wet already. I slid myself in with no difficulty. She rode me until we were both cumming. The thin barrier separating us became ever more threadbare as we reached ecstasy together.
We were laying the three of us. Spent for the moment. I was in the middle of two gorgeous women. I truly felt lucky. Inexplicably blessed for the first time in my life. Not fiendish luck. Not a dark miracle. Not my cursed existence as a monster but a real blessing.
"Deb, I hope you're on birth control." I felt practically delirous. Deb laughed.
"Yeah no shit. Of course I am dumbass."
"You two really are adorable together." Rita said. Only she could say that with a straight face after she watched two siblings fuck each other's brains out.
We laughed.
"No, we're fucked up. You're adorable." Deb said.
"Well, if that's true, what does it say
about me that I like you two together?" Rita said.
"Maybe we should all just be fucked up together." I said.
"Yeah. I like that." Deb said.
"Me too." Rita said.
Perfect. As perfect as it can get.