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Chapter warnings: brief allulsion to suicidal thoughts
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The sun was low but bright, casting long golden beams over the dewy grass as the Gryffindors and Hufflepuffs trailed down toward Hagrid's hut for Care of Magical Creatures. The crisp September air carried the scent of damp leaves and woodsmoke, and Harry shoved his hands deep into the pockets of his robes as he walked, shoulders hunched slightly against the chill.
Hagrid was already waiting, beaming as the class approached. "Right, you lot," he said, gesturing to a series of low crates beside him. "Thought we'd start the term off with somethin' easy." He flipped open one of the crates, revealing a nest of round, golden creatures no bigger than snitches, all covered in plush fur that bristled gently with each tiny breath. They made soft, snuffling squeaks, round eyes blinking slowly in the bright light.
"Puffskeins," Hagrid announced proudly. "Gentle creatures. Like bein' cuddled, don't bite, and they eat just about anythin' — but please don't test that."
A few people laughed.
"Anyone know anythin' about these little fellas?" Hagrid asked. Hermione's hand shot up.
"They clean themselves with their tongues," she said, "and they're commonly kept as pets in wizarding households."
"Good!" Hagrid grinned. "Five points to Gryffindor."
The students knelt in the grass and each gently selected a puffskein. Harry was last to reach the crates, where only one remained. The little puffskein, smaller than the rest, was cowering in the corner, staring wide-eyed up at him. It trembled slightly, pressing itself further into the corner in an attempt to make itself as small as possible.
Harry crouched down and reached out slowly, his movements deliberate and quiet. "Hey," he murmured softly, "It's alright, I'm not gonna hurt you."
The puffskein flinched at first, but Harry didn't push. He let his hand rest gently on the edge of the crate, not touching — just offering. After a long pause, the tiny creature gave a nervous wiggle and inched forward, its nose twitching.
Harry waited.
Eventually, the puffskein nuzzled against his fingers, and only then did he lift it carefully, cradling it in both hands. It gave a faint hum — unsure, but curious — and he sat cross-legged in the grass, settling it carefully into his lap. Within minutes, the puffskein had burrowed into the folds of his robes and closed its eyes.
He didn't move an inch. He just sat there, legs folded beneath him, the puffskein a warm weight on his leg. It felt strangely nice – the way it vibrated slightly as it purred. He stroked it gently with his finger, and it sighed contentedly.
A loud thump and a yelp of frustration broke the moment.
"Bugger—!"
Ron was on his knees, chasing after his puffskein for the third time. The little creature had launched itself out of his hands and was rolling toward the pumpkin patch with surprising speed. "Oi! Get back here, you menace!"
"It's not a snitch, Ron," Hermione said from nearby, not looking up from her notes. "Stop trying to catch it like one."
"I wasn't! It just—won't—sit still—" Ron lunged for the puffskein and caught it, holding it aloft like a trophy. It immediately flailed its stubby limbs and emitted a distressed squeal. "Why is mine broken?!"
"Try holding it more gently," Hermione said, conjuring a small enclosure of twigs beside him. "They like warmth and quiet. Maybe it senses your… energy."
Harry, watching from his spot, snorted before he could stop himself. It wasn't a laugh, exactly – not a full one. But it was real. And it made Ron glance over, puffskein wriggling under his arm.
"You laughing at me, Potter?"
"Little bit."
"Well. Good. You could use the practice." Ron gave him a grin and deposited his puffskein in the enclosure, where it immediately rolled into a corner and began sulking.
From across the grass, Hagrid wandered over, smiling as he looked down at Harry. "She likes yeh," he said, giving Harry a warm pat on the shoulder. "Got a gentle touch, tha's what it is."
Harry blinked up at him. "Thanks," he said softly, voice rasped from disuse.
Hagrid moved on, and Harry went back to stroking the soft fur in his lap. The puffskein trilled faintly. The sunlight was warm on his face, a gently breeze on his skin. For a little while, everything felt okay.
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Later that evening, the Gryffindor common room glowed with firelight, the windows fogged faintly from the chill outside. The warmth inside was almost soporific — soft and golden, the room filled with low chatter, laughter, and the occasional small explosion from Fred and George's experimental deck of enchanted cards.
Harry sat curled in one of the armchairs near the fire, legs tucked beneath him, a thick woollen blanket draped over his shoulders. Crookshanks had claimed his lap not long after he sat down, kneading the blanket with his paws before settling down with a heavy, satisfied sigh. He purred loudly, his body warm and solid.
Across from him, Ron, Hermione, and Ginny were sat around a chessboard. Ron was chewing a sugar quill furiously, halfway between thinking and arguing; Hermione had taken over Ginny's side of the board and was frowning with intense concentration while Ginny braided and re-braided a lock of her hair, having lost interest about five moves ago.
"I swear your knights cheat," Hermione muttered as one of Ron's pieces slid neatly into a position that blocked her every remaining move.
"It's not cheating just because they're better than yours," Ron said, grinning as the knight let out a tiny, smug laugh.
"I'll remember that next time you lose to my queen in under five minutes," Hermione shot back. Ron opened his mouth, clearly ready to counter, but Crookshanks let out a loud, offended yawn — as if to say 'some of us are trying to nap here' — and the moment passed.
Harry didn't join the game. He didn't want to. He was content just watching them, the fire crackling beside him, Crookshanks heavy on his lap. Something about it all felt distant but lovely — like watching someone else's dream. The kind you wake up from and try to fall back into.
He let the warmth soak into his bones and rested his head against the back of the chair. The comfort of it wrapped around him like a spell — the fire, the low hum of voices, the soft, rhythmic rise and fall of the cat breathing against his stomach.
This was a good day. One of the few good ones. He wished he could keep it, bottle it somehow. Just to know it happened. Just to remind himself, later, that it had.
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Hours later, long after the fire had burned down and the tower had gone quiet, Harry sat on the windowsill in his dorm, his forehead against the cool glass. The grounds stretched out below, dark and endless, the lake gleaming silver in the moonlight. He watched the wind scatter leaves across the courtyard, watched them dance and tumble, weightless. In the corner of his eye, the Astronomy Tower rose sharp against the stars, its silhouette etched clean against the dark.
He found himself staring at it for longer than he meant to.
Time felt strange lately – slippery, too fast and too slow all at once. Whole days disappeared in the space between meals. Whole nights passed without sleep.
Harry wondered if time would slow down if he were to fall off the Astronomy Tower.
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