Chapter 15 - Boyfriend
Once John had left the room and closed the door, Sam and Dean look at each other in silence. Any embarrassment or mortification that they felt from Johns comments disappeared while looking into each other's eyes. After a beat, Sam takes a step closer to him "Hey, I Ah... I wanted to thank you… you saved my life… I don't know how I could ever repay you for that" Sam said grabbing Deans hand and holding in both of his own.
"It was my pleasure, Sammy, I don't know what I would do if something had happened to you" Dean said with a crack to his voice
"Well… I would have died, so if you hadn't been there… I feel like I owe you my life" Sam replied
"No… Sammy, you owe me nothing… I would literally do anything for you" Dean replied with emotion.
Sam wiped at his eyes as the emotion in his throat threatened to bubble over. "I… I don't have words" Sam had never had someone say things like that to him.. to cherish him like this. "How are you real?" Sam asks sarcastically
Dean cleared his throat "I just really like you Sammy… I don't know why it's happening so soon… but I really dig you" Dean replies sultrily pulling him in for a kiss.
When they separate, Sam is a little dazed "I really dig you too… what do you want to do now?" Sam asks.
"Well, how about you come and watch this movie with me?" Dean replies
Sam looks over at him shyly and smiled "I would love to… what's the movie?"
"It's one of my favourites… Die Hard" Dean said with a grin pulling him closer to the recliner "It's a classic"
"Are you one of those people who think Die Hard is a Christmas movie?" Sam asks with a raised eyebrow
"It is a Christmas move" Dean replies with a playful scowl.
"No, it isn't" Sam says with a chuckle.
"It's set at Christmas time… so… it's a Christmas movie" Dean said sarcastically
Sam was full on laughing now "No it isn't… that's hilarious" he was bent over as he kept laughing.
"Hey! Stop laughing it's true… lots of people think it's a Christmas movie" Dean said with a chuckle in reply
The stood there laughing for a moment when they caught each other's eyes they smiled at each other. Dean reached out for Sam's hand "Come on, lets watch this movie together then"
Dean motioned to Sam to sit in the new recliner, but Sam pulled Dean with him, and they both ended up tangled up on the single chair, Dean pulled the leaver, and it reclined with the footrest up in one quick motion. They were touching from knees to chest, their arms were wrapped around each other. Sam was looking into Deans green eyes, his heart was beating wildly, he was nervous for some reason, they had kissed a few times before, but this felt like before their first kiss, the nerves, the butterflies in his stomach and his cheeks heating up. "HI" Sam said shyly
"Hi Sammy…." Dean replied, tucking a strand of hair behind Sam's ear. "I like being this close to you…" Dean said softly
"Me too..." Sam replied rubbing their noses together.
"Can I kiss you?" Dean asked sultrily moving his hands around Sam's body, one hand landing on his back, keeping him close, the other hand snaking up to the back of his head into the soft strands there.
"Oh my god yes" Sam replied and leans in, and their lips meet, the kiss starts out soft and gentle, then it turns passionate.
Dean's fingers were combing through the soft hair at the back of Sam's head and when his blunt fingernails scrape against his skull, Sam lets out a soft moan at the feeling. The sound spurs Dean on as his tongue swipes along Sam's bottom lip, then swirls around Sam's tongue causing tingles to go down Sam's spine eliciting another moan. They separate for a second to change angles, then they dive straight back into the kiss, Sam grips Deans shirt tight in a fist, pulling Dean impossibly closer and just melts into the kiss.
After few minutes of being lost in each other, they pull apart to catch their breath, "I have really wanted to do that… since I saw you in that hospital bed" Dean kissing him on the nose.
"Wow… you are a really good kisser… do you know how sexy that is?" Sam asked with a grin.
"Well, I've had no complaints" Dean said leaning in to kiss him again quickly.
"I guess all those ladies couldn't be wrong" Sam teased "I have liked you for a while… so to be a recipient of a Dean Kiss… gosh..." Sam swooned.
"Hey, now I may have kissed a lot of women, but you are the only one who I have given a proper, toes curling kiss to… with feelings and shit" Dean replied jokingly too.
"Well, my toes are properly curled… I really, really like you Dean" Sam said with a nervous smile.
Dean rubs their noses together affectionately "I really like you too baby… I mean, I actually spent time alone with your father, and he gave me the father speech you know, and I told him that I wanted to make this work with you… if this isn't… the L word to be confirmed… I don't know what is?"
Sam smiled at that, his cheeks going pink. "L word to be confirmed… I like that… just to be clear… I really think I could get to the L word without too much trouble… especially if you keep saying romantic things like that"
"Oh really… You know… I haven't looked at anyone else since I saw you at Bobby's, all those months ago" Dean said realising how true that is.
"Really?" Sam asked insecurely
"Yes, really, it's true… you have really grown up into an amazing, sexy, brainy, handsome, sexy, floppy haired, sexy young man" Dean said with a growly voice
"You said sexy 3 times" Sam said with a deeper flush to his cheeks enjoying the praise maybe a little too much
"Well, it's 3 times as true" Dean said pulling Sam into another steamy kiss
"I think you're sexy too" Sam said and leaned into give Dean another kiss. When they pulled back, Sam furrowed his brow "So… does this mean that we're… um… dating?"
"Like, are we boyfriends? … do you want to be my boyfriend, Sammy?" Dean asked seductively nuzzling their noses together.
"I would L word to be your boyfriend" Sam replied with a smile.
Dean chuckled at that "Good… now its official… boyfriend, let's watch this movie, shall we?"
"Yeah… I don't know how much 'watching' is going to happen now…boyfriend" Sam said in reply
"I know what you mean…" Dean said his eyes twinkling "You are pretty distracting" Dean leans in to give him a quick kiss.
They laid in the recliner together and watched the movie for a while, intermittently kissing, cuddling, and nuzzling into each other's necks, breathing in each other's scents.
Sam looked at Dean as he watched the movie and when Dean looked over at him, he gave him a small smile. "What?" Dean asked softly
"Um when do you need to go to the Vamp nest?" Sam asked nervously playing with a button on Deans shirt
"Not for a few days… why?" Dean asked with his brow raised
"I was just thinking… I mean, I know you can't stay with me but how is this going to work?" Sam asked still grasping Dean's shirt.
"Well… we'll have to do long distance for a while… I still have a job to do… but I'll message you… we can video chat… have phone sex too… then I'll come back to you when I can" Dean nuzzles into Sam's neck and kisses the soft skin there.
Sam sighed at the feeling of Dean's lightly grown in 5 o'clock shadow scaping over his skin. "Do you think that will work?" Sam asked as his old anxiety came creeping back in.
Dean leaned back so he could see Sam's face "I want this to work... so I will make it work… you'll get sick of me honestly" Dean replied looking into Sam's hazel eyes.
"I highly doubt that… I'm just worried that it won't be enough… a phone call isn't quite the same as this… being in your arms…" Sam said with his lips against Deans neck, he sucked in the skin there, leaving a small mark.
"I know Sammy…" Dean replied with a breathy voice, the feeling of Sam sucking on his skin causing his whole body to shiver. "If you didn't need to be here, studying your little heart out, I would make you come with me"
"And if you didn't need to be out there helping innocent people… then I would make you stay here with me… but I know I can't stop you from doing what you're really good at… and I really need to do this, it's what I've always wanted to do" Sam said with a shy smile
They looked at each other for a moment, then leaned in for a soft kiss. "I know baby… I'm going to miss you… but I'm looking forward to phone sex with you" Dean replied with a squeeze of Sam's left arse cheek.
Sam's cheeks went pink and laughed nervously "Me too actually… and you know… when you come through town again… I would probably be back to 100% by then, so we could… do more than just cuddle..." he moves his arms around Dean "and kiss…" he leans in and gives Dean a soft kiss. "We could… have much less clothing on for starters" Sam kicks off his sneakers "we could explore each other" Sam pushes one of his legs between both of Deans legs and tentatively rubs his leg gently against Deans crotch causing him to groan softly.
"Oh god... you're such a tease" Dean said leaning into give Sam another passionate kiss.
"Not teasing… just giving you a little preview" Sam said softly in the small space between them as he kisses Dean again letting his tongue come out to slide against Deans. They stayed all twisted up in each other and just enjoyed the intimacy.
When they parted again, they looked at each other, Deans hand came out to tuck a stray hair behind Sam's ear "I'm enjoying this side of you Sammy… but we should probably watch the movie, because if we keep going, I'm going to want to take you to bed"
Sam shuddered at the suggestion but a small stab of pain from his ribs reminded him about that his body was still healing. Dean noticed when Sam's body tensed up and rubbed his hand up and down Sam's back soothingly. "Hey, hey, it's alright, we won't do anything until you're ready" Dean said misinterpreting the tension
Sam looked up at Deans face and placed his hand on his cheek "No… I'm not worried about that…. It was more that I wished we could do more… It's going to suck to have to wait" Sam said, hoping he wasn't coming across as a needy, horny teenager.
Dean smiled down at him sultrily. "Oh, it's like that is it? I'm irresistible" he pinched Sam's butt making him squirm a little.
"Haha, yes you are actually" Sam replied as he put his hand around Dean to keep him close. "but… you already knew that De"
"Well don't you worry Sammy… we can both be patient… I promice… it will be worth the wait" Dean said softly and kissed Sam again, sucking on Sam's bottom lip and enjoying the shudder that ran through Sam's body as he did so.
They stayed there wrapped together and watched the movie half-heartedly as they just enjoyed their time together. Once the movie ended, Sam was dozing with his head on Deans shoulder, he leant down and kissed the top of his head "Sammy, wake up baby" he said softly as he turned the projector off.
"HHmmm" Sam replied without opening his eyes.
"Sammy… come on it's time for bed, you can't stay here all night, it's not good for your ribs" Dean said protectively
Sam opened his eyes to a squint and when he realised the projector had been turned off so the only light in the room as the small lamp on his desk. "This chair is very comfortable" he said as Dean sat up, bringing Sam with him.
"I'm glad it's comfy Sammy" Dean said as he stood with Sam in his arms in a bridal carry, holding him tight making the transition as painless as possible.
"Wow... you're like He-Man or something… how did you do that?" Sam asked sleepily
Dean chuckled "Thanks for that… but you're just all sleepy, so your easy to move around" Dean said moving Sam over towards the bed.
Sam felt himself falling slowly to land gently on his small bed "HHmm, are you staying with me Dean?" Sam asked, his eyes already closed.
"If you want me to stay with you, I can stay" Dean said and when Sam nodded in reply, he moved to take his boots, shirt, and his jeans off in record time staying in his boxers and t-shirt.
Pulling back the covers, he crawled in behind Sam and pulled him closer, encircling him with his arms. "G'night Sammy" Dean said softly
"Night" Sam replied in barely a whisper as he drifted into sleep.
Hours of uninterrupted sleep later, Sam is awoken by the sharp rays of the sun coming in through the curtains, he groans when he tries to open his eyes as they were assaulted by the brightness of the outside world. He laid there for a moment, then noticed the warmth of a body wrapped around him, their chest to his back, their arms keeping him close. He smiled to himself, knowing that Dean had stayed with him all night, he was falling just a little more for the man, who treated him so well and made him feel so cared for. He wasn't quite sure that Dean was at the same place emotionally, but Sam knew that it wouldn't take long. Their connection had grown so quickly, and yet it had been developing for years.
Dean started to wake up when he noticed the body in front of him started to shift. "Hhmmm mornin" He said sleepily.
Sam put his hand over the hand that was wrapped around him and threads their fingers together "Morning… I like waking up like this"
Dean sighed and moved the arm with their entwinned fingers up to Sam's chest as if he was hugging him. "Me too…" Dean replied.
"Are you staying for a few days?" Sam asked hesitantly "Or do you need to go?"
"I don't want to go anywhere right now…. but I will need to leave first thing Sunday so I can get to Detroit in time for your dad" Dean replied holding on the Sam even tighter.
"So, we have a few days to spend together…" Sam started happily
"We can even go on a date…" Dean turned his head to see Sam and smiled at him.
"Ohh yeah… where are you going to take me then?" Sam asked leaning forward and giving Dean a kiss to his cheek
"Well, you can't do anything too strenuous… yet…" he said with a cheeky smile "But we can go to a nice restaurant" Dean replied, already thinking about where he might want to take Sam on their first official date.
"Oh, yeah, I could go a good steak" Sam said with a smile.
"Hey, it's my job to find somewhere to take you on our date… but a steak does sound nice" Dean said licking his lips.
"You didn't actually ask me, you just said you were taking me on a date" Sam replied watching the movement that Deans tongue made.
"I did to ask you…" Dean replied pocking Sam, making him laugh.
"If you say so… well my answer is yes anyway… I want to go on a date with you... our first date" Sam said snuggling into Dean.
They lay like that holding onto each other with nothing to really do but spend time together. Dean kisses Sam's neck as he moves his arms from around Sam, moving his hands from his neck down to the top of his ass cheeks and back up again in a soothing manner. The silence of the room is calming and not awkward, but after a few moments there is a loud grumbling noise from Sam's stomach "Oh my god" Sam whispers and buries his face in Deans neck in embarrassment.
Dean moves to stand up, then leans over to help Sam get out of bed "Come on Sammy, let's get up and go and get you some breakfast… before your stomach eats you from the inside out"
"Haha… yeah ok, let's go to the cafeteria" Sam says as he pulls on his jeans, overshirt and his sneakers.
Dean pulls his jeans back on and slips his boots back onto his feet and as Sam grabs his keys and wallet, Dean grabs his leather jacket from the back of the couch, and they walk through the door together. Dean grabs Sam's hand as they walk down the hall together, with the other students in the common room looking over at them and whispering to each other. Sam knows that it's very unusual for Sam to have anyone with him, let alone someone who was holding his hand. Sam smiled as they walked down the small set of stairs and through the door out into the sunlight.
Sam looks over at Dean with a smile on his face and when the older man looks back at him and gives him a smile in reply, Sam knows that he has finally found someone who isn't ashamed of him or of their relationship and treated him really, well. Sam just hoped that they could make the long-distance thing work and Dean wouldn't get bored of waiting and let one of the floozies from small town America to catch his eye. Sam swallowed down the overwhelming jealousy and sadness he felt for something that hadn't even happened. He didn't want to fall down that rabbit hole, but he didn't wat to live in denial either. "Hey, um Dean?" Sam started
"Sammy?... I know we haven't been on a date yet, but I wanted to tell you… that I want to be in this relationship with you… no one else… I want to be your partner, your best friend, you protector, your… boyfriend… if you'd want me?" Dean must have read Sam's mind; he had said everything that he had wanted to hear
"Really? You want to be my boyfriend?" Sam asked with a shy smile
"Of course, I want to be your boyfriend… have you seen you? Do you want me to be your boyfriend?" Dean asks with a smirk
"Yes! … I want you to be my boyfriend. I mean I thought it was obvious how I felt about you… I've liked you for a long time…and I didn't really hide it" Sam said with a pink tinge to his cheeks.
Dean chuckles "Don't worry, I want us to be boyfriends… I want us to be exclusive, just the two of us… I want you to tell anyone who tries to hit on you that you have a boyfriend and that he's all muscly and he could kick your ass" Dean says sarcastically but with affection
"I know you're joking but I would totally tell someone that, if they were really pushy" Sam replies sincerely
"Oh I love that …. my amazing, sexy boyfriend" Dean replied lifting their entwined hands and kisses the back of Sam's hand.
Sam blushes and feels his cheeks go pink and hot in embarrassment mixed with a strange amount of pride. "Dean…" Sam says "I think I like it when you call me that… I um… really like that stuff" Sam says bashfully
"What stuff… like calling you, my boyfriend? … or do you like the amazing and sexy part?" Dean asks softly, seeing Sam's face
"I like all of it… but the amazing and sexy part… I think I might like… like you are praising me or something?" Sam said softly so no one could hear this incredibly embarrassing conversation.
"Hey, don't get all embarrassed… I really love finding out all these different things about you... I mean, you have a praise kink… I'm going have fun with that" Dean said giving his hand another kiss.
Sam smiled at him; he knew that just meant that they would explore that together. But then his anxiety crept in. "You're not making fun of me, are you?" Sam asked nervously
"No... of course not, I think it's adorable truly… if this is your thing… I am totally on board with that… I think I'm going to enjoy myself to be honest" Dean said with a sly grin.
"Oh god…" Sam replied his face going impossible redder.
"Hey, no, I'm not making fun of you… I think your amazing… so it's going to be super easy for me to tell you what I think about everything you do or say is amazing" Dean said pulling Sam in for a hug stopping their journey to the cafeteria.
"I didn't think we were going to have this kind of conversation before breakfast" Sam said into Dean shoulder as they stood there
"I'm glad we did… I want you to tell me these things… I want to know what's going to make you happy…" Dean says then moves out of the hug so he can see Sam's face "I L word you" he said and without waiting for Sam's reaction, he leant in and pressed a soft slow kiss to Sam's lips. "You don't have to say anything, I just wanted to let you know"
When they broke apart Sam was dazed and overwhelmed by everything Dean had said "Honestly. If I wasn't falling in L word with you right now, I would have to be crazy" Sam replied with a wet chuckle.
"That's good enough for me, Sammy" Dean replied giving him a quick kiss, then he pulled Sam along so they could go inside the cafeteria building just ahead of them.
They walked inside still holding hands and the hum of students eating their breakfast caused a lull in their conversation. They selected their food and placed it on a shared tray and as Dean paid for their food, Sam went to find a vacant table. Moving their chairs closer together they sat down and after unloading the tray, they started eating, sharing mouthfuls of their selections of Pancakes with syrup, fruit and cream for Sam and scrambled eggs, bacon, sausages, and toast for Dean. The whole experience was what Sam had always wanted in a relationship, it was a mixture of sharing each other's food and stories, laughter and they couldn't keep their hands to themselves. It was the most fun he had ever had, eating in that student cafeteria.
"Do you want some more coffee baby?" Dean asked as he stood to go back to the drink area of the cafeteria.
Sam smiled up at Dean and nodded "White 2 sugars, Thanks De"
"I'll be right back baby" Dean said as he stepped back and walked off.
Sam sat there and continued to happily eat his pancakes when he heard someone clear their throat near his table. He looked up and saw Sebastian standing in front of him, smiling smarmily back at him. "Um… can I help you?" he asked with frustration. He really didn't want this guy to spoil his day with Dean and whatever he wanted he wasn't going to get it.
"Hey Sam" When Sam looked up and saw Sebastian standing there expectedly, like he forgot everything he had done, Sam wondered why the universe had to send this dark cloud to darken his happy sunny day
TBC