(Clementine's Pov)
I was watching Violet as she was sleeping. I moved some hair out of her face and I think a bit as I moved my hand away from her face and I rubbed the back of my neck. I then look to the woman as she was sleeping and I kissed her head gently. I go over to the kitchen and I start working on dinner. AJ was able to get a few fish and I look to the side. I had to go with him so we can have more.
"Hey Clem." I hear and look to AJ as he comes over to me.
"Are you ok?" I asked and he nods.
"Yeah just… is Violet ok?" He asked and I nodded at this.
"Yeah, she's just tired, her wounds are uh… I think her side wound is worse." I tell him and he looked to Violet then to me. He helped me with dinner and once we filled the bowls, I look to see Violet still sleeping. I go over to her and I checked her wounds again just to be safe. She didn't move in her sleep and I look up to her. When all was good, I then went to the couch with AJ and we looked to the flames and ate our food.
When Violet woke up, I got her a bowl and gave her some food. She ate a little and then went right back to sleep. I grabbed the bowl and then mine and we go and put the bowls up. AJ then went up to his room and I stayed with Violet and watched her. Months would pass and Violet was getting better. But she said she would feel a little sick here and there. Her side wound was more irritated than the abdomen it would sometimes bleed more so we had to work on it more. She even got stubborn and was able to rip her stitches.
"Violet, come on I need to sew it-."
"I know just… fuck it hurts and." She says and then stops and I look to her.
"I know, I know, just lay on the couch and I will try my best." I tell her. She shakes her head a bit and then looked to the couch then to me. I look to her and she sighed as she slowly takes a seat and then lays on the couch for me. I grabbed the first aid kit and I lift her shirt up and look to see the bloody bandages.
"How deep is it?" I asked as I grabbed the needle and got to work.
"Hmm, fucking… the hilt of the knife touched my side… it was a hunter knife." She tells me and I look to her and she looked to me sadly.
"I'm sorry." She says.
"Nothing to be sorry about, just need you to stop and relax." I tell her.
"I can't… I have to help." She says and I look to her.
"You know I thought the same thing… even if I was hurt, I had to help or do something right." I tell her and I stopped and looked to her as she nods. Her eyes were shut and she lays her head back a bit as she leaned her head to the side.
"Fuck… I just… I should be better but I feel like… I feel like I should be better but I feel like shit." She tells me and I nod and get back to work on her side.
"It'll be like that, I'm just glad she didn't hit anything vital… you'd be dead by now if that was the case." I tell her and I feel her grab my hand and I look to her. She looked to me and I see the fear in her eyes and I look to her hand again.
"I'm sorry… I… I." She stopped and I move my hand from her but kept the one with a needle near her wound.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that." I tell her and she shakes her head a bit and then lays her head back on the couch.
"I… I shouldn't be scared… I mean I shouldn't be, we're in a world of Walkers and this should be the least of my worries." She tells me and I keep an eye on her and I shake my head and finished stitching the wound and cleaning it. I place a new bandage on it and I look at her.
"You have every reason to be scared, I mean look at me, I got a busted eye… you think Walkers are bad? Yeah, you are right, but I'm going to be fair things like this also make you scared… you could have an infection you can have problems; you can't not be scared but I know… I know about the tough act." I tell her and she looked up to me as I stood up and she grabbed my hand gently.
"Why haven't you left?" She asked and I frown a bit and bend back down and look to her.
"I told you already." I tell her quietly and she looked to me more.
"I'm weak-."
"You aren't… shit I ain't never seen anyone take a stabbing like this." I tell her.
"… You want to hear a story?" She asked and I nod a little as I sit on the ground and look at her. I hold her hand gently and she looked to me as she thinks.
"When I was about thirteen years old, I had climbed up the bell tower… slipped and thought I broke my arm." She tells me and I listen to her.
"Made me not want to climb it again but… I looked to the stars and thought… I thought if I tried to climb the belltower again, I could see them better." She tells me and I rubbed the back of her hand with my thumb.
"So, I went to the bell tower again in the middle of the night… I didn't fall or slip and I finally get to the top. I climb over the wall of the bell and I look up to the stars and thought… 'wow… this is so beautiful'… I uh… I began to think and I thought… if I were to die… I'd like to look at the stars." She tells me and I look to her a bit.
"Sounds like a nice thing to see before dying." I tell her and we look at each other.
"Yeah… it is nice… I still think I should go that way… looking at the stars." She tells me and I nod at this.
"Though I'm not doing to die anytime soon, it's just a nice thought." She tells me and I nod at this.
"When I die, I want to die in style." I tell her and she chuckled at this.
"Car crash wasn't enough?" She laughed and I smile.
"Hey now I thought we agreed that I am a damn good driver." I joke and she laughed again. I look to her and smiled at her.
"If I'm going to die, I want it to have a reason… I don't want to die because someone has an itchy trigger finger or… for something stupid… I'd want to die during golden hour." I admitted and look to her and she looked to me a bit and she tighten her grip on my hands. I grab her hand with my other hand and she gently let's go of my hand.
"I'm sorry for making you stay." She says quietly. Her eyes looked heavy and I frowned a bit but not in a bad way. I kissed her head gently and she looked to me and then placed her hand to my face gently.
"I'm so sorry." She whispered and I place my hand to her face.
"You don't need to be sorry; you didn't keep me here, you didn't do anything wrong, you understand?" I asked her and she looked to me. I still see the sadness in her eyes and she looked to the side and I gently move her face to look at me.
"You didn't do anything wrong." I whispered to her and I see the tears in her eyes. I wipe them away gently and she looked down. She looked up to me and I know she wanted to tell me sorry again but she stopped. She clears her throat a bit and I kissed her gently. She kissed me back and I feel her move her hand to the side of my face and we pulled apart.
I look to her as she looked to me. I feel her rub her thumb across my cheek and I look at her eyes. They looked to be sad and I place my hand on top of hers on my face. I kissed her again and I she kissed me back. I pulled back after a minute and she looked to me.
"I think you should get some sleep." I tell her.
"Been sleeping." She mutters quietly and I smiled gently at her.
"I know but sleeping will help you, plus AJ and I are going to head on out so we can check the traps." I tell her and she looked to me a bit then nods. I covered her with a blanket and she closed her eyes. AJ and head on out the cabin and I look to him as he held his gun. I watched him as we walked to the traps and I then I looked to the woods in front of us. I take a breath and looked around for any Walkers.
"Is Violet ok?" AJ asked and I look to him.
"She's getting better." I tell him.
"She's being stubborn." He says and I smile a little and laughed.
"Yeah, but come on, aren't we all?" I asked him and she looked to me as I looked to him.
"I mean… she's hurt, and she's hurt real bad… does she not understand that we know what we are doing? That she can rest, that we don't need her to help." He says and I look to him a bit.
"AJ… she's scared." I tell him.
"Scared about what?" He asked and I look to the trees on the side.
"That she's making us stay, that… she's not getting better even when she does rest… but come on, I did the same thing." I tell him.
"Aren't we staying?" He asked.
"Yeah… you like it there, right?" I asked and he nods.
"Yeah, I mean it's nice, and we are still near the school, so we can still see the others, we can still get food, and water… and you like it there too, right?" He asked and I nod.
"Yes, I do… it's a nice place and I'm tired of running and I want you to stay in one place… But Violet thinks she's forcing us to stay." I tell him.
"Why would she think that?" He asked and I look down a bit.
"Because we… well I have left before… I think she thinks I've stayed to long." I tell him and he stopped so I turn to look at him as he looked to me.
"She thinks you want to leave?" He asked and I nod.
"I think she expects it to happen." I tell him. Though I do know that, that is exactly what she thought.
"Why would she think that?" He asked and I look to him.
"Because I left her before… and she just expects it to happen." I tell him.
"You think Till said something to her?" He asked and I look to him.
"From what Violet said, Till did but I don't think it was about the whole leaving thing." I tell him.
"Why don't you tell her we like it there? Why don't you tell her we want to stay? I like it there; I like the cabin and the fact we can just run to the school to see the others… She needs to know we aren't leaving soon." He says as we look around a bit.
"AJ she's only ever known abandonment, all the kids do but it's worse for her." I try to explain.
"And she needs to get better, so she needs rest." He says and I pat his head a bit and he looked to me.
"She's just scared, something like that can scare a person." I tell him and he sighed.
"I know… I know." He says as he looked to the side where he was dragging the stick more behind him.
"It's not like we won't be back even if we did leave, we always come back." He mutters as he picked up a stick and was dragging it in the dirt a bit. We finally get to the traps and we checked them to see that there was some fish and some rabbits as well. When we get back to the cabin, I see Ruby as she looked to Violet who was holding her side a bit. I hand the food to AJ and I go over and help Ruby as we tried to check Violet's wound but she was being stubborn.
"God damn it we have to check your wound." I tell her. She turns her head and glares a bit and I glare back at her.
"Let us check your stiches." Ruby tells her.
"They're fine." She mutters.
"Violet let us check damn it." I tell her and she curled into herself.
"It's fine." She tells me.
"Yeah, well you wouldn't be clutching your stomach if it was fine, now let us check it." Ruby tells her and when she didn't, I rolled my eye and I look to Ruby who nods and I grabbed Violet's arms and Ruby lifts up her shirt. The bandages were a little bloody and I look down to Violet and glare at her as she looked to the bandages and she mutters.
"You tried to get up without help, damn it Violet." Ruby says and she got to work on the stitches. Once done I let go of Violet's arms and she went back to holding her stomach and I shake my head a bit. Ruby sighs and then we head to the side a bit.
"Good thing I came to check up on her." Ruby says as she washed her hands a bit and I nod.
"If she could just… relax." I mutter a bit.
"She's been working a lot… to be honest this is the most she's worked, don't get me wrong she was a good leader and all but she just… I guess she thought she just had to keep going." Ruby tells me and I look to her.
"I thought you all were voting and working together?" I asked and she looked to me.
"We were and are, it's just that… well ever since you guys left, she thought if she made the school better you would stay… honestly I think it had to do with the fact that she wanted you to not leave again." She tells me and I sighed a bit and shake my head at this.
"Plus, she… she's just changed." She tells me and I had to agree with that. Violet has changed a lot but honestly, she needs to take a break, she's acting like she's never had one before.
"And with what happened to Tennessee." She says as she dried off her hands and I look to her. Did it really affect her that much? Ok it did, she's not like me when it comes to death of a close one. Especially someone so young, everyone was older than me, when it come to death, it was like a normal day for me at that point. I take a breath and look over to the living room and to the couch where Violet was laying down. I shake my head a bit and then I see AJ as he brings the food over. I nod a bit as we get to work on cleaning the fish and rabbits. Ruby and I would check on Violet from time to time, and I was glad that she had finally gone to sleep at least.
When we finished cleaning the fish I set it to the side to make some fried fish. Omar was able to make some flour and batter which was amazing in all honesty. I got to work on the fish and we gave some Rabbit to Ruby to take back to the others. I worked on the food as Ruby checked on Violet one more time and she says bye to AJ and I. I waved and then got to work on frying the fish and I hear violet mutter in her sleep. AJ checked up on her and he tells me she was still sleeping which was good. When I was done, I gave AJ his food and then I made a plate for Violet and myself. I go over and check on Violet and I place my hand on her head and I sighed in relief as she wasn't running a fever.
I go an eat my food with AJ who was enjoying the food. When I was done and AJ was done, he goes and sets the plates in the sink and I check on Violet. AJ heads to bed and I take a seat on the floor and looked to Violet as she turned a bit in her sleep. I place my hand to her face gently and she moved her face into it more and I couldn't help but smile a bit at this. I rub her cheek gently and she opened her eye and looked to me a bit. I smile at her and she smiled at me a little and I move my hand away from her face. She grabbed my hand and placed it back to her cheek and I rubbed her face again.
"You think you can eat something?" I asked her quietly and she nods a bit. I nod and then get up and I go and grabbed her plate. When I came back, she was trying to sit up and I set the plate to the side and I stopped her. She looked to me and I sighed as I helped her up a bit before she could make a stupid comment on the matter. She looked to the side a bit and I grabbed the plate and brought it over to her.
"How's your side feeling?" I asked.
"Hurts still." She mutters as she eats some of the fish. I nod a bit at the answer. I mean getting stabbed with a hunter's knife sucks a lot.
"Do you like the pistol?" She asked and I nod.
"It's nice, like I said." I tell her and she nods.
"Uh… sorry I just… small talk." She tells me and I nod and giggle a bit.
"Yeah, small talk makes things awkward hu?" I asked and she nods as she takes another bite of her food.
"Yeah… look I just-."
"Why aren't you taking care of yourself?" I asked and she sets her fork down.
"What are you talking about?" She asked as she looked to me. I raised my brow a bit at her and she looked down to her plate and then she rubbed her head a bit.
"I am taking care of myself." She tells me and I shake my head.
"Look, clearly you aren't, if you were you wouldn't still be in pain." I tell her.
"Where is all of this coming from?" She asked.
"Oh, I don't know would you like a list?" I asked her and she just looked to me.
"Ok, for one, you just pulled your stitches not that long ago, and you've done it twice if not three times already, you aren't getting enough sleep, don't say you have because you haven't." I tell her and she just looked to me.
"You also overwork yourself; Ruby told me." I tell her and she looked to me and then back to her plate and she sighed.
"Look, I just… want to make sure everything is all food, ok? is that a crime?" She asked.
"It's not but you and I both know how bad overworking yourself isn't going to help anyone, especially yourself." I tell her and she set her plate to the side.
"Yeah, well least I got rid of that cunt." She mutters and I look to her a bit. She looked to me and I look to my lap a bit. I look back up to her as she takes a breath.
"I don't want to lose anyone else." She tells me and she looked to the plate then to me.
"I know… I know you and I won't have what we had but, I don't want to lose you again… don't you get that?" She asked and I think a bit and looked to the flames in the fire place. I get it, I wouldn't want to lose her either. Even if we aren't together or at least in a normal sense of being together. I look to her as she held her hands together.
"I get it I do; I want to keep everyone I know safe. But I know when to take breaks here and there, even if they are short ones I know when to stop." I tell her and she laughed.
"You stop? You did so much-."
"I have but you don't need to compare how you feel or act to how I feel or act… you and I are different and we always will be, I grew up having to always and I mean always having to watch my back, not just from the dead but from the living too." I tell her and she looked to me a bit then back to her hands and she side as she moved her hand to place it near her wound. I get up and go over to her, she didn't struggle when I checked her bandages and I nod when there was no blood. I set her shirt down and she looked to me a bit.
"You have to understand you aren't like me, no one is like me and no will ever be me… just like you are you, no one will be like you, and that's fine, you don't need to impress anyone, you have friends that worry about you." I tell her and I see the necklace a bit and I grab it a bit and pull it so the ring was in my hand a bit. She holds my wrist a bit and I look to her as she looked to me. I gripped the ring in my hand and I move up and kissed her. She kisses me back. It was gentle, nothing to passionate but it was nice. I pulled back a bit and she looked to me and I look to her and I smile a little at her and she smiles a little as well.
"You are good at what you do, why hurt yourself for something like this? You have others that are going to help you, and they know you'll help them too… but right now you need to worry about yourself, your health is important, your safety is important." I tell her and she looked to me a bit then to the side.
"You know I'm right." I tell her.
"I know but I just… had a feeling something bad would happen… I mean hell look at what happened to you, you got hurt and I wasn't there-."
"You were lucky you weren't there; we were cornered there were so many Walkers it wasn't a walk in the park." I tell her and she looked to me.
"I was lucky to make it out the way I did, I would never want you to see me like that, for fuck sake I was scared, I was terrified and I was still trying to look out for AJ, for god's sake Violet, I… I was freaking out feeling that pain, thinking back to how Lee died, the fact I was going to die in his family's old drug store." I tell her and she cups my face and I look to her as she looked to me.
"So what? I lost a leg, but I'm still here, hell I have to take more breaks because of my leg… but it taught me that I need to worry about myself, that I need to just relax when I'm hurt and not try to worry all the time… cause in the end it not only hurts me but others." I explain to her and she takes a breath.
"Ok… ok yeah I just… need a break?" She asked and gives me a smirk. I loved that smirk; it made me happy that she was finally understanding. I feel her move her legs a bit and she motions for me to sit next to her so I do. I look to the ceiling and take a breath. We just sat here in silence and then I feel her sit up a little more so I turn my head to look at her. She looked to me and I see her smile at me as she just moved a little. I place my hand on her leg and she looked to the flames and I look to them as well.
"Was it scary?" She asked and I look to her and she points to my leg and I nod.
"Very scary… I thought that… that that was it… that I was going to die and the last thing I would see would be of AJ pointing a gun at me… that I would never see you again if I have to be honest." I tell her and she chuckled.
"Scared to see me?" She asked.
"Not scared… sad… I still have feelings for you, I won't deny it." I tell her and she looked to me.
"I still have feelings for you too."
"But it's just… I was gone so long, I didn't want to be gone as long as I was honestly, I kept thinking to bring AJ back to the school after the one year mark." I tell her.
"Why didn't you?" She asked.
"I was still mad at Louis, and trust me it takes a lot to get me angry." She laughed a bit at this and I look to her.
"I mean yeah it's true, I mean if AJ gets kidnapped that's one way to piss you off." She says and rubbed her head gently.
"Does your head hurt?" I asked as I placed my hand to her head a bit.
"No… well I mean, just a little." She tells me and I look to her a bit and I get up and I get a wet rag and place it to her head and she sighed a bit.
"Why does it feel good?" She asked.
"Hmm, I'm not a doctor, but I do know that it can be a way to help with head pains." I tell her and she chuckled.
"The bitch hit's me with a cast iron skillet, and then she does this shit to me… surprised I'm not coughing up blood." She mutters as she closed her eyes a bit and I look to her. I have to be honest I was a little surprised as well. She was stabbed near a vital part but it missed the important organs which alone is amazing luck. I look to her as she kept her eyes closed and I take a breath and place my hand back to her leg. I messed with the blanket a bit that was on her and I hear her exhale a bit and I feel her hand on mine. I moved so my palm was facing up and she grips my hand a bit.
She rubbed her thumb on the back of my hand as best as she could and I look to our hands. She gripped it a bit more and I feel her try and pull me close to her. I look to her a bit and she nods as if saying it was ok so I moved so I was laying next to her. Se then placed her hand on my side and I moved my head under her chin. I didn't put my hand on her side or I might aggravate her would knowing me I would find a way. I feel her chin on my head and she pulled me as close to her as she could and my hand was gripping the front of her shirt a bit.
I think to all the times we spent like this back at the school. I know she wants to stay here; this is a nice place. I know she feels like she's forcing me to stay here but she isn't. I worry about her when she thinks like that if I have to be honest. She needs to understand many things. She needs to take breaks, no one is expecting her to be perfect, I'm not expecting her to be perfect. She also needs to understand fully that her health is important just as everyone else's. I know there will be times she forgets, hell I forget sometimes to take care of myself but when I realize my mistake I fix it. I hear her snore a bit and I couldn't help but giggle to myself as I moved my head a bit so my forehead was to her chest.
It would be a few more weeks, with some arguing here and there from Violet not resting completely but she was able to get up on her own fully at least now. She was currently sitting outside on the porch and I looked to her and AJ had just come back from the fishing traps. I look to him a bit as he shook his head and I get up as does she and we walk over to him.
"No fish hu?" Violet asked.
"No, I was coming to ask if it was ok for me to check out the traps in the woods." He says and I think.
"Sure, I don't see why not, just please be careful." I tell him and he nods.
"Wait really?" Violet asked and I nod as AJ heads out.
"He's going to be on his own soon, might as well let him get use to setting the trap and getting stuff on his own, he's good too." I tell her and she looked to where AJ went.
"He's what nine?" She asked and I think.
"Oh god I'm getting old." I laughed and so did she.
"He's ten." I tell her.
"Oh shit." She mutters.
"Oh, that just means I'm old enough to drink… legally." I tell her and she nods and I hear her chuckle.
"Not like you haven't before." She says and I nod and smiled.
"Ruby left a few joints here." I tell her and she nods a bit.
"Yeah, I saw, did you want to hit one?" She asked and I think.
"How's your side doing?" I asked to get her off the topic of getting high. As fun as that seems right now, I don't think we should be getting high right now.
"Oh, it's fine honestly." She tells me.
"Scale of one to ten?" I asked.
"Hmmm I would say about a two." I hear her and nod a bit at this.
"Ok, maybe tonight." I tell her and she nods. When AJ comes back, he had two rabbits and we cleaned them up and I began cooking them. Violet helped me as did AJ and we had a good meal if I have to be honest, though could I compare it to Omar's cooking? No, not at all. When AJ went to go do what he wanted to do, I grabbed a joint and she was sitting on the bed in our shared room. We moved her in here since it was comfortable and so that she could walk around more in all honesty. I light up the joint and hand it to her and she takes a hit then hands the joint to me. I take a hit myself and I lay back in the bed a bit. I looked to the ceiling and I think about how tonight we should see the stars more clearly. I then pass the joint to her and we do this till it's all gone.
I close my eyes for a bit and I just lay there with Violet who was also looking to the ceiling. I yawn a bit and closed my eye as I tried to relax and I feel Violet shift a bit in the bed. I opened my eye and look to her as she had one hand placed behind her head and then she looked to me. I move my hand to her face a bit and felt the faint scar by her eye and she raised a brow at me. I shrugged a bit and she smiled just a little. I moved closer to her and she looked to me and I kissed her gently. She kissed me back and I slowly put my hand up her shirt.