Chapter 4
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Derek's POV
Derek sat at his desk exhausted and frustrated. He hadn't slept since the day his baby girl
told him she loved him. His stress level with Savannah plus his unresolved long standing
feelings for Penelope had caused him to lash out at the one person he didn't want to. He
was happy enough with Savannah but it wasn't a love that set a fire in his soul like he felt
around Pen. But he and Pen had always been best friends. The timing was never right for
them or he would decide to back out of saying anything to her to keep from ruining that
friendship. She really was his God given solace and he couldn't stand the idea of losing her.
Now he had a pregnant fiance and the woman he had wanted for 11 years was saying
everything he had ever wanted to hear. Derek was raised to be an honorable man but for the
first time in his life he wished his mom hadn't done such a good job. He was beyond
frustrated. He also knew there was at least a grain of truth in what Penelope had told him.
Savannah was holding something back, keeping secrets. He had been denying it for weeks
but when Penelope said the words his mind went back to all the small things he had been
ignoring. Derek threw his pen on the desk and ran his hand over his face. It was time for
some straight talk from the women in his life. Derek stood and walked to Hotch's office.
"Hotch, I need to handle a few personal issues. Are you okay if I take off a little early?"
Hotch looks over from his conversation with Dave, hesitating for a moment. "Go ahead
Morgan. We will call with anything urgent."
Derek nods once, turns on his heel and heads back to his office to pack up.
Once he is gone and the door closed, Dave looks at Hotch. "You think he knows about
Kitten?"
Hotch looks at Dave and shakes his head slowly. "No. He's too calm. That storm hasn't hit
yet. Brace yourself. I think it's going to get worse before it gets better." Dave Rossi nods
slowly and sighs in agreement. It's going to be rocky days ahead for the BAU.
Derek pulled his truck into the driveway and sat looking at his house, trying to collect his
thoughts and decide how to start this conversation with Savannah. She had been acting
strange since the first obstetrics visit but had excused it as nerves. Now, with Garcia's
words in his ear, he wondered if that was really all it was. He didn't like the direction his
mind went and certainly didn't like doubting Savannah. Knowing the only way to get it all out
in the open was to talk to her, Derek sighed, stepped out of the truck and walked to the front
door.
As he started to call out for Savannah, he heard her voice in the kitchen and began walking
that direction. He saw her with with her back to the door looking into the refrigerator as she
talked on the phone.
"I scheduled an in utero DNA on the baby for tomorrow Tina. I need to know who the father
is even if I decide not to tell anyone. If it's Derek then nothing changes. If it's John's, I guess
I have to decide if I really want anything to change. I love John but I don't think he will ever
leave his wife and I do think Derek and I can be happy together." As Derek stares in shock,
Savannah turns and sees him standing there. "Tina, I have to go. I'll call you later." She
hangs up the phone as Derek continues to stare at the woman he had planned to spend his
life with, the woman he thought was carrying his child. "Derek, hi honey. I, um, didn't hear
you come in."
"I'm not surprised. You were a little busy with that conversation. You want to tell me who
John is or would you rather start with why you lied to me?" He says coldly.
He sees Savannah flinch but doesn't feel anything but cold anger. As she takes a step
towards him with her hand outstretched he steps back. "Don't" he says. " I want answers
Savannah." Derek turns and walks to the living area and sits on a chair with his arms on his
knees. He watches Savannah as she walks to the couch and sits down.
"I didn't lie to you Derek"
He laughs without humor. "A lie of omission is still a lie. You led me to believe this baby was
mine. But you don't know if it is or not do you?"
"No." She says quietly. " I don't know for sure. Not about the baby. But I'm sure about us.
Nothing has changed Derek."
"Nothing has changed? You have to be kidding me. How can you say that with a straight
face Savannah? I just heard you admit that you are in love with a married man who may be
the father of the child you are carrying, which means you were also cheating on me! How
does that not change everything?!"
"We can be happy together Derek. You know we can. And if this baby is yours we should at
least try…."
Derek interrupted, "I will go with you to the clinic tomorrow but I want the test sent to the
FBI lab. If the baby is mine I will take care of my child. But you and I are done. You can stay
here until we get the results or until you find another place to live." He stood and walked out
of the house slamming the door behind him.