Once Fitz left out of the door Olivia broke down at the kitchen table. She really tried to see it from his side but she couldn't, there was no excuse for leaving.
After a few minutes, she dried her eyes and called Erin. She picked up after a few rings.
"Twin?" Was all Erin said?
"Erin, can you come over," Olivia said through sniffles.
"Are you crying? What's going on? Are you okay?"
"No, I just really need you to come over."
"Okay, I'm at brunch with some friends and my old lady but I'm on my way."
"Okay."
Olivia sat at the table alone. She could hear the girls playing, screaming and laughing in the bathtub from downstairs. She texted Kristen and asked her to keep the girls upstairs.
About 20 minutes later, Erin walked into the kitchen. Lily hopped down the stairs behind her but Erin didn't hear her. She'd wanted to go grab the friendship bracelets she left in the kitchen counter.
"What's up babe, why the tears?" She asked.
"Fitz left."
"What do you mean left?"
Lily walked towards the kitchen arch.
"I mean he went back to the base."
"Ohhh, sweetie…" Erin said as she walked over and hugged Olivia and consoled her.
"I swear Erin, I'm done this time, I hate him."
"You don't hate him," Erin said with a chuckle, "you're just hurt. You just miss him."
"I do miss him, so much and that didn't even matter he just left us again, knowing what happened the last time he left, does that sound like someone who gives a fuck about any of us."
"No Olivia I'm sorry but I swear the only thing I know about Fitz is that he loves you and the girls."
"He doesn't know the girls Erin and they don't know him."
"Why did he leave? It had to be important."
Erin finally broke the hug and stepped back.
"I don't care why Erin, I really don't."
"Yeah, I guess I can't blame you. Five years is a long time to be waiting on someone just for them to leave again."
When Olivia turned to finally stand up she saw Lily at the door.
Olivia turned her face quickly and Erin turned around.
"Lil's what are you doing down here?"
"Why is mom crying?"
"Oh nothing she just doesn't feel well," Erin said.
"I made her breakfast, she said she felt better," Lily questioned.
"Goddammit she's smart," Erin said under her breath, "yeah but then she felt bad again smartypants." Erin teased.
Lily scrunched her lips into an angry frown.
Erin chuckle.
"Calm down niecey, your mom just needs a minute okay."
"I can help," Lily insisted.
Olivia turned around after spending some time fixing her face and smiled.
"Come here Lily," Olivia said.
Lily ran over quickly and climbed on the chair beside Olivia.
"Lily, I'm okay, alright honey."
Lily shook her head.
"Mommy you don't have to pretend to be okay."
Olivia's mouth hung open slightly from shock and then she closed it.
All Olivia could do was nod, she looked at Erin and she was just as surprised.
"Mommy you're making me sad too," Lily said with tears welling up.
Olivia wipes her eyes.
"You know what Rosebud, sometimes parents are sad but that's not a bad thing, just like you're sad sometimes or Izzy or Daisy or even aunt Erin."
Lily nodded.
Olivia took a breath and stood.
"What do you want to do today, if we could do anything what would you want? Just me, you and your sisters?"
Lily finally smiled widely.
"Can I have a slumber party with my school friends?"
"But some of your school friends have gone away for holiday?"
"Yeah but Mackenzie and Sam and Sofia and Harper didn't."
"Okay, sure I'll call their mom's."
Lily hopped off the chair excitedly.
"Yayyy. Thank you so, mom. I'm gonna tell Izzy and Daisy."
Lily ran off.
"You don't get to escape mommy mode for a second do you?" Erin said.
Olivia chuckled.
"She didn't even realize he was gone."
Erin shook her head, unsure of what to say.
"It's okay, you're tough, you'll get through it."
"I'm tired of being tough," was All Olivia could respond.
Fitz stood outside Huck's cell door. Their execution was only about an hour away and he wanted to speak to him one final time. As he stood outside he took his cell phone out and called Olivia again but it just went to voicemail again. He'd been there a day and she wasn't answering his calls but she did respond to his texts, only if he was asking about the girls.
"Hey Livie, I know this is probably the 50th message I'm leaving you but I just wanted you to know that I'm okay if even care at this point and also that I miss you and the girls and I'm sorry I had to leave but I'll be back soon. I love you, bye."
He hung up and took a deep breath and slid his phone back in his pocket and walked to Huck's cell door. He entered his access code and fingerprint and retinal scan and then the door opened.
Huck was sitting on the floor in the cold white room. When Fitz closed the door behind him he opened his eyes.
"Your execution is scheduled to take place in an hour and you should also know you'll be executed by a firing squad."
Huck chuckled.
"I'm surprised, a formal military execution, that hasn't been done since the '60s, I just assumed you'd come in here and do it yourself."
"I had one arranged specially for you and the rest of them, and as for formality, it won't be recorded, no one will ever find out how you die, you just won't exist anymore."
Huck finally looked up at Fitz. He hadn't been sure all along if he'd gotten his memory back but at that moment he knew for sure he did.
"You have your memories back, don't you?" he said with a chuckle. "The old you would have cut my throat already what's changed?"
"You're not worth all that energy and hate and anger, all I care about is getting back to my family."
"Oooh, family which means Olivia- oh let me guess, you took one look at my Livie and suddenly it all came back and then you remembered how horrible you used to be and you see how amazing she is and you're trying to be different."
Fitz didn't respond, it was true but he didn't need to discuss that with HucK. However, Huck didn't wait for a response before he began again.
"I used to hate her, I thought she destroyed us but then I realized it wasn't her that destroyed us, she's perfect, it was you that destroyed us and you destroyed her too.
"If I'm so horrible why didn't you just kill me?" Fitz asked.
"I tried a few times, each time unsuccessful but the truth is that you were harmless without your memory and in the end, I guess I figured after enough time she would fall out of love with you and nothing made me happier than to watch slowly, every day as she slowly erased you from her life and moved on."
"But she never did that did she?"
"She's loyal to an admirable degree, her only flaw I guess was that that loyalty was to you because you didn't deserve her. I'd watch her everyday crying because of you, taking care of the children you left her with, being strong while you were fucking a bunch of random women and having not a single problem in the world."
"Whose fault was that?"
"I take full credit, I'd rather her cry every night than have you on top of her every night," Huck said smugly.
Fitz shook his head, he realized huck was just saying things to try to rile him up. He turned and headed towards the door.
"By the way, those two little dimples on her lower back, just above her ass-"
Fitz stopped.
"It's like they were made for my fingers because when I pressed my thumb against them they would fit perfectly.
Fitz turned around.
"If I dropped a heavy enough sedative in her night tea, she slept through anything I did-"
Before Fitz even process a coherent thought he was on top of Huck, choking him.
Huck smiled as she struggled for air and it wasn't until Fitz realized he might be killing him that he finally snapped out of his fit of rage and eased his hands from around his neck. Huck heaved for air and somehow seemed smug as he did it.
Fitz stood and took a breath.
Huck began laughing.
"This is who you are, you monster, you can try to hide it and pretend to be better but not for long."
As soon as Huck said the words he felt the anger again but this time he didn't try to fight it, maybe Huck was right, he was a monster.
He reached down for the knife in the holster secreted in his waistband. When Huck saw the knife he smiled even wider.
He preferred a quick death over facing the firing squad and he'd hoped he could make Fitz angry enough to do it. It was working.
Fitz stepped closer and stooped beside Huck. He could see the look of relief on Huck as he relaxed, ready for death.
Fitz brought the knife up to the neck and stopped then seconds later he slipped the sharp blade across the corners of her mouth and a gush of blood splashed on his face. Hucks jaw hung open as blood gushed from his slice. He bawled out and held his hanging jaw up. Blood gushed down his fingers, he couldn't speak. Fitz stood up and stepped back. There was blood on his hands and blood that dripped down his blade. He stared at Huck writhing on the floor. He still couldn't believe what Huck said, he had to be lying.
He turned around and stepped out of the cell and walked to the adjacent cell. That was Abby's cell.
When Abby saw Fitz with blood splattered on his face and dripping down his fingers and knife she knew he came for her. For days she'd been trying to make peace with dying but the truth was that she didn't want to die and specifically she didn't want Fitz to kill her. There was nothing she could think of worse than spending her last moments writing in pain as Fitz murdered her by whatever painful method of his choosing. That painful method seemed to be by blade.
She began to shake and breathed slowly. She didn't want to go out screaming and crying.
"T-the least you can do is make it quick," she stared at the floor, not wanting to look at him.
"What did Huck do to Olivia?"
Abby finally looked up.
"What?"
"What did he do to her?" Fitz asked again.
Abby wondered why they were talking about that.
"He was just obsessed with her I told you that."
"How obsessed?"
Abby shook her head.
"He didn't hurt her if that's what you're wondering. I made sure of that." Abby chuckled, "but what does it matter now."
"I'm not gonna kill you Abigail but I need you to tell me everything that happened."
Abby finally relaxed, she didn't know Fitz as a liar so she believed him.
"Why not?"
Fitz sat on the floor with his back against the wall.
"Because you told me, that counts for something."
"Old you wouldn't have cared."
"Yes, old me wouldn't have cared."
"Can you at least put that knife away," she asked.
Fitz slid his knife in the holster.
"Now tell me."
"In the weeks after the crash, I realized that Huck kept disappearing but I didn't know why. When you first got out of your coma you had a really bad short term memory, we'd tell you something and you'd forget a few minutes later. While that was going on Huck was just gone and the only reason it was weird was that Huck never leaves the base for personal reasons, he doesn't have family or friends. It wasn't until months later when I went to check on them that I knew he was watching her."
"Why were you going back to check on them?"
"She just had the twins and I wanted to make sure they were all okay. I'm not a monster."
Fitz shrugged
"Anyways, I found out he was there too and at the time he said he was monitoring her, she was trying really hard to get your body back from the navy at the time and he said he was making sure she didn't make any real progress."
"What? What does that mean?"
"If someone reached out with a tip or to help or something he'd delete the emails or any info they tried to give her before she could see them or scare people off who tried to tell her. There was one incident where someone saw you and recognized your face, she was offering a reward and they tried to tell her but he stopped them."
Fitz nodded.
"Yeah so that's what he said at the time but then I realized that he was there watching her way more than what made sense."
"There where?"
"Just in the area, gradually she had switched out guards from the ones you hired because there were some problems, there was one who attacked her and another one who robbed her, with you gone they didn't have anyone to be afraid of so yeah."
Abby paused to gather her thoughts and get the story back on track.
"Anyways that's how he was able to get all the cameras in there and was able to get in there himself, the original security you got her had been phased out with news one, they were good but just not as good as she had before."
"What did he record?"
"Do you really want to know?"
"That's why I'm asking."
"When I found his box he had videos of her in bed, naked when she getting dressed and stuff, he'd wait till she was asleep then he drugged her and massage her then recorded her. A couple of times he'd remove her clothes and like inspect her body. He did weird things and he'd talk to her while he did all this."
Fitz took a deep breath.
"Are you sure that's all he did?"
"He did more, he stole shit and just took creepy things like her tampons and stuff but if you're asking if he raped her then no he didn't Huck's a creep but he's not a rapist."
"How do you know that?"
"Because he told me."
"And you believe him?"
"Yes, I saw it on his recordings, I think he just fantasized about having your family as his, he'd kiss Lily on the forehead while she was sleeping and ask how her day at school was, he'd do the same to Olivia, he mostly just pretended he was with her and apart of the family. As far as I can tell the farthest he went was with the drugging because he said and I quote, she was 'tired from taking care of the babies and she needed to rest' so that's what his rationalization was."
Fitz sat for a moment silently thinking about everything Abby said.
"You should've told me."
Abby sighed.
"When I wanted to tell you, you were just recovering from your injury, you couldn't protect me and then when you could protect it was too late, too much time had passed.."
Fitz sighed but didn't respond and then he stood and wiped some blood from his face.
"After I let you out of here today Abby, just make sure that you stay as far away from me and my family as possible."
Abby nodded.
Fitz walked out and headed back to his office. As he walked he called Olivia again. After what Huck told him he needed to hear from her and thankfully this time she accepted the call.
"Hey, Livie?"
"What do you need Fitz?"
"I just wanted to make sure you were okay?"
"I can take care of myself, I don't need you to check up on me."
"Olivia-"
"-I'm busy, I have to go."
She hung up and took a deep breath.
She walked back to the kitchen where Lily and her friends were decorating ice cream sundaes for dessert. She had a movie set up for them to watch before they went to bed.
She sat at the kitchen island as the girls laughed and chatted. It was almost 1 day since Fitz had left.
Fitz had been standing there for a moment after Olivia hung up on him. One of his lieutenants approached him.
"General, everything is in order, like you requested."
"Yeah, have them move it up to right now and get a plane ready for me to head back to Los Angeles."
"Yes sir but I thought we were going to wait until Captain Zarvos arrived for a brief transition and walk through."
"Not anymore but I'm sure you can handle it, can't you."
He nodded.
"Yes sir but we really needed you for the transition for secur-"
"-Yeah no, just have them prepare all the paperwork okay, I wanna be out of here in an hour."
He nodded and hurried quickly to do as he was ordered.
Fitz went back to his office. There were a few more things he needed to do, he'd been deleting some records that were kept in their database, only he had the authority to do that until he was officially no longer the head of the base.
About 10 minutes later, his lieutenant returned to his office to let him know that everything was set up. When he went down to the sublevel, Huck and 8 others including Dario's girlfriend who tried to break them out were fastened to locks that their handcuffs were attached to. Their arms were raised above their heads and they were so secured to the wall that they couldn't move.
Not many people outside of the circle knew everything that was going on. Only upper-level leadership was aware and some crew members who had to assist with the logistics.
Fitz stood behind the glass wall. They could see him but couldn't speak because they had gags over their mouths.
"Sir, whenever your ready, give us the go-ahead."
"Do it," Fitz said without hesitation.
His second lieutenant spoke into the earpiece of the admiral in the chamber with all the ex deltas and when the admiral nodded it began. He raised his semiautomatic and began shooting heavy fire against the wall. There were screams and cries. It took some longer than others to bleed out but after 20 minutes it was over. He was ready to go home.
After a long and hectic day with Lily, the twins and their friends, Olivia laid in bed exhausted. It was almost 11 pm. The girls were sleeping all together in Lily's room where they laid out their sleeping bags on the floor. She stayed in Lily's room until all the girls were sleeping and then left. She'd been in bed for just about 20 mins but she couldn't sleep. Hours passed as she laid there twisting and turning. Her body was exhausted but her mind was restless and calculating a hundred different scenarios where Fitz wouldn't come back to her. She eventually drifted off to sleep in the mid-early morning.
Fitz walked through the front door and checked his watch and dropped his bag. It wasn't completely dark since a few wall sconces were lit. it was almost 4 am. He kicked off his shoes and walked upstairs quickly. When he went into his bedroom and walked over to their bed to check on Olivia, she was asleep. He stood for a moment, staring at her before he kissed her hand and walked down the hallway to Lily's room. When he opened the door and walked in, he was surprised to see about 6 sleeping bags on the floor. Lily wasn't in her bed, and he couldn't tell where she was. He left and went down the hall to the twins' room but they weren't there and it was then that he realized they must've been in Lily's room.
He showered quickly. He'd been awake for over almost 24 hours and he was tired. Once he dressed in his pajama pants and shirt and crawled into bed beside her.
Olivia woke when she felt Fitz behind her. She didn't even have to turn around and see him, all she had to do was take in his scent. Fitz wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her close to him. He knew she was upset and hoped she wouldn't push him away but for Olivia, she was so happy that he was back that all she could do was wrap his arm tighter around her waist. She was still angry at him for leaving but her anger could wait until she finished rejoicing his return.
Fitz snuggled her closer and kissed the blade of her shoulder. Now she couldn't really sleep. They laid together in silence until Fitz drifted off to sleep while Olivia stayed up. She was happy he was home but the fact that he left in the first place opened up a lot of doubts in her mind. She didn't know if he would leave again or how long it was before he would leave. She left like nothing was certain and she knew that that was what she signed up for so many years ago but now things were different.
"I love you," she whispered to him as he slept.
The next morning when Fitz woke a little after 8 am, which was later than usual for him. As he sat up he saw Olivia fully dressed as she walked into the room.
"Hey," he said, confused as to why she was dressed so nicely, she was obviously going somewhere.
"Hey, something came up and I have to get to work."
"Oh-"
"The girls have some friends over but I have a driver who's dropping them home around 9:30 after they have breakfast and freshen up. I had Kristen, - come in so she should be here before I leave."
Fitz stood.
"Are the girls up?" he asked.
"No, not yet but they should be up in a little while."
She walked out of the room. Immediately he knew she was still upset with him. He didn't think it would be so easy to get back in her good grace and he knew he needed some gesture or some act of affection to at least get them to a point where maybe she'd open up to him.
He didn't want to push her, he knew she had every right to feel the way she felt so he wanted to be careful about how he went about trying to fix it.
He brushed his teeth and when he met her downstairs, the nanny Kristen had arrived.
"Good morning," she stretched her hand for a shake which Fitz returned.
Olivia turned to Kristen, "so Fitz is gonna be here with you today but it shouldn't really change your usual day-to-day."
Kristen nodded.
Olivia heard the small patter of footsteps coming down the stairs and saw Lily.
"Morning mom!" she called out cheerfully as she came to a halt at the bottom of the stairs.
Lily looked to Fitz and then Olivia then back at Fitz.
"Morning sweetheart."
"Hi Rosebud," Fitz said.
"Hi Lily," Kristen said.
Lily didn't respond, she just looked confused.
"Mommy, where are you going?" she asked.
"I have a little work emergency so I have to go into the office but it's just for today, tomorrow I'll be home all day and we can do something fun, maybe go to the salon and mani-pedis."
Lily frowned.
"But I don't want you to go, you said you were on vacation."
"I am but sometimes there are emergencies and you have to make an exception but it's okay that I'm going because you have your daddy and Kristen and they're gonna take really good care of you."
"No, I want you," she insisted.
"Lily I have to go."
"No," she said again, crying this time. "I don't want you to go. Please, mom, don't leave me here, let me come with you," she begged, wiping her eyes and sniffling.
Fitz tried to reach out to her but she pulled away and stepped back to the railing of the staircase.
"No, don't touch me," she screamed at him as she sat back against the rail.
Olivia's mouth fell open, she'd never seen Lily behave that way, it was very rare for her to throw a tantrum and even so she never screamed at anyone.
"Lily," Olivia said sternly, "that is not okay."
Lily became even more hysterical.
"I..I'm sorry mom."
Olivia sighed and stepped a little closer to her and sat in front of her so they were at the same level.
"Lily, I've never seen you this upset, what's going on?"
"I don't wanna stay, just please let me come with you mom, please, I'll be good and I'll help you, I promise."
"Lily, sweetie, I wish I could but I'll be really busy all day, I won't be able to take care of you but your dad and Kristen can."
Olivia wiped away her tears.
"Tomorrow I promise I'm all yours."
Lily was still sad but she nodded.
Olivia kissed her cheeks.
"Okay I love you, be good," Olivia leaned closer so only Lily could hear, "and be nice to your dad okay?"
Lily nodded, this time reluctantly.
Olivia kisses her again and leaned back.
"Okay do you wanna go see if your friends are up?"
She nodded and drudged up the stairs.
Olivia turned to Fitz.
"She's never done that," Kristen said shocked.
"Yeah," was all Olivia could say. "I have to leave now but I'll only be 20 minutes away and if she has any other issues just call me."
Kristen nodded and headed upstairs.
"Are you gonna be okay here with them?" She asked.
Fitz nodded, "they're my children Olivia, I have to start taking care of them sooner or later," he said with a humorless chuckle.
Olivia nodded and turned to head out.
"Livie-" he called.
She stopped and turned around.
"Can we talk later?"
She smiled, sardonically as if she was expecting bad news and was hardening herself for it.
"Sure," she said as she turned to leave but Fitz held her arm and pulled her in and kissed her softly on the lips.
She gave him a soft smile and left.
When Fitz went back upstairs Kirsten and the girls. He asked her for Erin's number, he needed a favor.
All the girls were awake by 9 am. Kristen seemed used to having that many children at once but for him it was new. Mostly he was concerned about his three out of the 6. Daisy and Isabelle seemed indifferent to him but Lily was cold and distance and it bothered him more than he could put into words. One day away had changed their already fragile relationship or at least he thought it did, he couldn't figure out why else Lily would be upset with him.
Lily's friends left a little after 10 am. Kristen by then had a list of activities for the girls to do. Those activities included arts and crafts, a pseudo-science experiment and a tea party.
The girls were exhausted by 2 pm.
And after they had lunch, they went to their rooms to nap. Daisy and Isabelle were the first ones to go down. Once they were asleep, he went to check on Lily since Kristen was cleaning up from their playtime.
He found her lying in bed.
"Hi sweetheart," he said as he walked to her bed and sat down. "Are you tired?"
She nodded.
"Do you want to call your mom before your nap."
She shook her head.
"No, she's busy, she's always busy at work because she's important."
Fitz chuckled and nodded.
"You're right."
He sighed wondered how much of an honest conversation he could have with a 5-and a half-year-old.
"Lily are you upset with me sweetheart, you can tell me if you are."
She scrunched her nose angrily.
"You were mean to mommy, you made mommy cry," she said sadly.
His heart broke and it took him a moment to form his next words.
"Sweetie, I would never hurt your mom okay, mommy cried because she was upset that daddy had to leave so soon but I'm back now and I'm not leaving again okay."
Lily nodded and for a moment he wondered if she understood.
He knew Olivia didn't say anything to Lily, she wasn't that kind of mom but he figured Lily must've overheard them.
"Do you want me to lay with you until you go to sleep?"
She seemed to think about it for a moment then she nodded.
He pulled the blankets back and laid beside her and snuggled her.
Lily drifted off to sleep soon after. Once she was down, Fitz stayed for almost a half-hour in her bed, it just felt so normal to hold her as she slept, it was hard to leave but after a while, Fitz kissed her forehead, and gently left the bed and went back to planning his evening, now that he felt a little better that Lily was no longer upset with him. He admired how protective she was of her mom, he would say that she got it from him only he hadn't been there long enough for that to be true.
Olivia sat in her car, too busy on her phone to realize the driver had taken a different street that didn't lead to her house.
When the car came to a stop she looked up and realized she was at Fitz old house.
"What's going on?"
"Mr grant asked that I take you here."
"Why?" She asked.
"Not sure Ms. Pope."
Olivia nodded as she dialed Fitz. He answered on the first ring.
"Livie?"
"Are we supposed to meet at your old house?" She asked.
"Yeah. Is everything okay?"
She nodded as she spoke, "yeah, I was just making sure."
Her driver got out and opened the door for her. She walked across the smooth pavement to the front door and when she twisted the handle it was open.
She opened the door and heard soft, low music. The light was low lit and she smelled delicious food.
"Fitz?" She called as she walked towards where the smell of food was the strongest. As she walked she saw flowers, mostly roses scattered all over the room. There were petals on the floor and arrangements of roses randomly placed at other spots in the room. She kept walking to the kitchen where she saw Fitz standing by the kitchen island. He was pouring glasses of wine by the counter where there was a spread of food.
"Fitz? What's all this?"
"Do you hate it?" he asked.
She shook her head and smiled.
"Now it's great but why?"
"I just thought I would do something special for you."
"Where are the girls?"
"They're home, Erin is with them."
Olivia nodded but she was still just standing there.
"Why don't you sit?"
She took her purse from her shoulder and placed it on the far side of the table then she sat on the stool. Fitz was on sitting on the opposite side. He took a glass of wine and handed it to her. She took a sip.
"Mmm...that's good, you choose this wine?"
"Is that hard to believe?"
"Yeah, you've never been a wine person but I don't know that was almost 5 years ago, I don't know how much has changed."
"Well you're right, Greg chose the wine, he made the food, I just figured you'd be hungry."
She nodded.
"I am."
He lifted the metal dome from the plate revealing seared lamb chops and spinach.
"Oh my god, that looks delicious."
She pulled the plate towards her but before she dug in she stopped.
"Gosh, I should probably wash my hands...but I'm already sitting down so.."
"Just eat," Fitz commanded jokingly.
She bit into a piece of lamb chop and closed her eyes as she chewed.
"Sooooo good."
Fitz smiled and took a piece of his as well.
They ate in silence for a while. Fitz wanted her to finish eating before they talked about anything. He could tell she was full when she began picking at her food and shoving it around her plate.
"So, I told you earlier that I wanted to talk?"
"Yup," she said with that same chuckle from earlier that bothered him so much, "I remember."
"I'm not sure where to start?"
"With the good first?"
"It's not a good news-bad news kind of thing, we just need to talk, I know you're mad at me right now-"
"See...that's the thing, I don't really know what I am."
"-I'd prefer you being mad at me than just seeming like you're indifferent."
"What else I am supposed to be, getting mad doesn't change anything, you still left."
"Are you just upset because I left because it seems like more and if okay if you are. I just want you to talk to me. I know I left but that's it, I'm here for good."
Olivia shrugged.
"You say but that if they come asking, you'll go, you'll have to."
"Olivia that's not true."
"Yes, it is. Whether it's in 2 days, 2 months or 2 years, they come calling about something so important that without you the world will cease to exist as we know it and you'll go."
Fitz sighed.
"Okay well saying it won't work so I guess when you see me here every day until you get tired of me, you'll believe me."
Olivia didn't respond.
"And I'm sorry for leaving."
He watched her face for any sign of change in emotion but there was none, just this steely exterior fighting him off in all directions. She was refusing to let him in. After a few seconds, she stood and cleared her throat.
"Okay, I think we should go now, the girls should still be up, I want to see them before they go to sleep."
She grabbed her bag but before she could Fitz was already around her side of the table, blocking her path.
"Hey," he said softly. "Hey," he turned her face to him by gently pulling her cheek but still she tried to avoid him.
"No, Fitz, just stop," she tried to pull away from him but it was useless.
"Look at me."
She shook her head.
"Look at me, tell me why you're angry with me."
"I'm not angry, leave me alone."
"Why the fuck are you angry? Tell me!" he yelled.
He hoped a different approach would work.
"Because you left okay!" she yelled back. "You came back for two days and as soon as they called you left and it just made me feel like everything I went through for the past 5 years was for nothing. I spent the last 5 years trying to be this perfect mom and this perfect wife to someone who was supposed to be dead and then I find out that you were fine, sleeping with other people with no idea what's been going on and that's fine, you know, it's not your fault, I've accepted that but now that your back you have to actually be back because I'm exhausted-" her eyes filled with water, " baby, I'm so tired of being strong, and having it all together... I know I shouldn't be mad that you left because it was important, but I am, it just reminds me that I'll never really have you, not in the way that I need."
He wiped her eyes and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into his chest.
"You should be tired, you've done so much alone that you shouldn't have had to but I promise you that I'm not going anywhere, okay, this is it."
He took her purse from her and placed it back on the table. Olivia wiped her eyes and sighed.
"Maybe we jumped in too fast, I was trying so hard to have everything how it was that I was trying to have sex with you all of 5 minutes after you came, maybe we should take it slow-"
"I'm gonna stop you right there." Fitz stepped back so he held her face up so he was staring in her eyes. "That's the most nonsensical thing I think I've ever heard you say. Are you okay?"
Olivia chuckled.
"Take things slow? No fucking way."
Olivia smiled and looked away. Fitz spun her around and walked her away from the counter, to the open space between the kitchen and dining room.
The music still played, it was low and soft. The song that came on was one of Olivia's favorites, Fitz remembered that.
"Do you still like this song?"
"Yeah."
He smiled, "great, let's dance."
"I'm tired," she complained, smiling now, blushing slightly.
Fitz spun her around and wrapped his hand down to her lower waist. She rested her head on his chest as they danced.
A few songs passed as they danced, and even though she enjoyed it, her feet began to hurt so she stopped.
"My feet hurt," she complained.
Fitz stopped as well and lifted her over to the countertop and sat her down. He held her leg and pulled off her heels and dropped them to the floor. He decided not to wait this time and pulled her right in for a deep kiss. He realized that Olivia wasn't going to make the first move, she was used to doing every alone and being alone, if he wanted things to change he needed to reinsert himself into every aspect of their life.
Once she felt him take command of the kiss, she reached for his shirt and began pulling it over his head. When it was off, she threw it to the floor.
Fitz lifted her off her table and wrapped her legs around his waist then he began walking her towards the stairs, wondering if they would even make it to the bedroom. Olivia reached her hands down between her legs and unbuttoned his pants and began pulling them down. Then she began stroking him up and down.
"Fuck-"
When Fitz reached the stairs, he couldn't go up. He stopped at the bottom and leaned her against the stairs. He unbuttoned the pants and drug then down her legs and quickly and he could. Olivia began shoving her underwear down before he got her pants off.
Fitz reached into his pocket and took out a condom and ripped the wrapper open with his teeth.
Olivia had turned her attention away from him while she pulled off her jacket and top but when she looked down and saw Fitz rolling the condom on his enormous, engorged penis she exhaled thankfully.
He lifted her and slowly and gently eased her down on his hard penis. She let out the most beautiful gasp. He gave her a moment to adjust then he leaned her against the steps and kissed her as he slowly thrust.
She closed her eyes and bit her lips, struggling to remember to breathe as he peppered kissed over her face and down her neck. She arched her back and squeezed her toes together, he was hitting her most sensitive spot.
"Mmm...ohhh…-" Fitz leaned up and buried her lips in a kiss when he heard her wanting lips moaning. He began to feel her walls pulsating around him, hot and wet.
"Whoooo-" he groaned as he broke the kiss and buried his face in the crook of her neck.
"oh-oh-mmm...I'm cum-wait...mmmm...-FITZZZZZ," she screamed as she closed her eyes and succumbed to her orgasm. Fitz came simultaneously, kissing, licking and sucking her soft lips as he did.
Even after her orgasm passed she clung to him tightly, breathing slowly, wrapped up in his warmth.
After a few moments of rest Fitz leaned up and lifted her then carried her up the stairs to the bedroom.
Later in the night, they laid in bed, unable to sleep but exhausted.
"So guess what?" he began as he ran his hand down her back slowly and rhythmically.
"What?" Olivia asked with her head rested on his chest.
"I found out why Lily was so upset about you leaving?"
"Why?"
"She was mad at me. She said that I was mean to you and made you cry?"
Olivia popped her head up so she could see him.
"What?"
"Yeah,
"I didn't say anything."
"Of course I know that," he said with a chuckle, "I mean she's really smart, I think she overheard us when we were in the closet."
Olivia thought for a moment.
"I don't think she did, I think she overheard me crying to Erin about you."
"Oh."
"I'm sorry," she apologized.
"No, don't apologize, it's okay, we talked about it and I think she's feeling a little better now, she was talking to me after our talk."
Olivia chuckled, "she's something else."
"Yes, very protective of you, that's good."
She smiled and leaned her head back against his chest.
"Don't worry, once she gets used to you, you'll be her favorite person." As she said the words she realized something. "I'm surprised you got Erin to babysit all night."
Fitz checked his watch.
"I was supposed to be back like an hour ago so I'm not sure either."
She chuckled.
"By the way, where did you get condoms?"
"Erin?"
"Erin, where did Erin get condoms from, it's not like she uses them?"
"I asked her to buy some for me on her way to the house."
"What?" she said, clearly amused.
"Yeah, well I wasn't gonna leave the girls and I can't fucking send the nanny to do it so I asked Erin."
"Wow, okay."
"What? I can't be back three fucking days before getting you pregnant again, I at least have to get to know my current children."
Olivia nodded with a smile.
"Yes, thankfully because I didn't get my IUD inserted."
"Yeah, I know."
Fitz wondered how he could bring up what happened with Huck. Every time he thought about it he felt like he was keeping some big secret from her. The best person to ask would be her because she would know if anything happened.
"So umm..I think it's probably the worst possible time to bring this up but I don't think there will ever be a good time…"
Olivia immediately felt her heart jump in her chest.
"When I was back at the base, Huck told me something. Remember I told you he developed something of an obsession with you over the years?"
"Yeah."
"So do you remember any instances where you lost time?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean he was drugging you, I think mostly at nights? So do you remember blacking out or missing time?"
She sat up and draped the blanket over her breasts.
"Um… there was a period after I gave birth to the twins where I just couldn't wake up but it wasn't every day, maybe it would be one a week of a few times. month. The doctor said I had hypersomnia but they never tested me for anything but after a couple of months it went away."
"That was him."
"How do you know, I mean..maybe he was just saying that to get in your head. I could've just been that I was tired, I had two infants and a large toddler, the doctor said it wasn't uncommon."
"Abby said it was him and uh...that's not all-" Fitz took a deep breath, "he was stripping you naked and massaging while you slept, he would go into the girls' rooms and kiss them good night-"
"-no." Olivia shook her head.
"Abby says he didn't do anything more I don't know, I think you would know."
"How does Abby know all of this?"
"She got him to stop I guess by threatening to tell me, they were both watching you."
She started to think back to that period to try to find clues.
"He was in the girls' rooms?"
Fitz nodded.
"I don't know, I think I would've known if he was raping me in my sleep, at the time I couldn't even have sex because of the complications from my c-section, I would have bled or something, I would've felt it."
Fitz hated that she used the r-word, to think that someone did that to her, broke his heart. His eyes began to sting with tears. When Olivia looked down she saw the look in his face and she knew what he was thinking.
"Stop it, it's not your fault."
Fitz smiled sadly, "saying that doesn't make it true."
"Do you trust me? To know what's going on with my own body?"
Fitz nodded.
"I'm telling you that I would've known if anyone was having sex with me in my sleep. Maybe he drugged me because there was a time were my sleep pattern was off and maybe even the massages but I don't think anything else happened."
Fitz nodded again.
"Is Abby still-"
"Alive yes."
"What about Huck?"
Fitz shook his head.
"Can I talk to her?"
"Are you sure?"
Olivia nodded.
"Okay, I'll see what I can do."
She laid back down.
"I'm sorry I sprung that on you, I didn't want to tell you but I just felt like I was keeping this huge thing that you should know even if it was horrible."
"Thanks for telling me but that's impossible, I would've known."
Fitz listened to her and felt relief, she sounded certain and be believed her.
"Maybe we should head back and let Erin go," Fitz said.
Olivia shrugged, "but this is so fun." She sat up, "you're right though, we have to go."