Fitz sat in the private suite at a hospital in Rio. Lily, Isabelle, and Daisy had finally gone to sleep and all three of them were cuddled in the hospital bed. It took a while for them to calm down but the sun was coming up and after a catastrophic night, once they stopped crying, they quickly fell asleep.
Sonia was sitting on the couch close to the bed, dozing off against the cushion. Theresa was beside her. Lucky's son was asleep but Theresa was awake and staring off into space.
By the time they were air-lifted to the hospital, Lucky had lost a significant amount of blood but he was still responsive. Olivia fell in and out of consciousness multiple times before they arrived but even when she was awake she never really seemed to understand what was going on.
More time passed until sunlight began to peer through the windows. That's when the neurosurgeon, neurologist, and ob/GYN knocked on the door quickly before opening it. He stood.
They walked a few feet inside the room and Fitz walked to them. The neurologist spoke English but the neurosurgeon did not. Fitz stepped outside and they followed.
"Mr. Grant," he began, "your wife is stable and resting. She was lucky there was no need for surgical intervention. Dr. Ribeiro had to," the neurologist stopped and seemed to search for the word he needed in English, "stitch her head wound so we could control the bleeding. There is swelling but we are watching it."
Fitz nodded, "what happened to her?"
"She had a basilar fracture, that's a fracture at the base of her skull. She will need to be watched very carefully for the next few days because it's considered severe but luckily the bone didn't shift, there is only a crack in the plate which means she should have a fast recovery."
"Is she awake?"
"She is sleeping and she will sleep a lot for a few days." The doctor motioned to his under eyes, "she will have dark under eyes or black eyes and running nose and eyes but it will go away."
"What about the baby?"
"Your son is healthy, it seems. He is still in the early stages of development but after our examination, we're convinced he's just fine," the ob/GYN interjected.
"We're having a son?"
"Oh-" the doctor said, "my apologies- I thought you knew- I'm so sorry."
"Don't worry about it-" Fitz said. "When will you bring her to the suite?"
"We're bringing her to a different suite where we can observe her more closely while we watch for any more symptoms but you and your daughters are free to stay with you- it's just the room you're in right now is a VIP guest room and it's not equipped for patients."
"Okay, I want to see her as soon as possible so let me know when you transfer rooms. I'll take my daughters over."
The doctor nodded, "of course Mr. Grant, we'll have some hospital staff escort you over."
Fitz nodded, "and what about my friend, Bonifacio Hernadez, how is he?"
"We aren't sure because he is being treated by another team but we will update you as soon as we know something."
"You have to tell us something, his partner is in there and she doesn't know what's going on. At least let her know if he's stable."
"We will Mr. Grant, I'll try to get that information to you as soon as possible."
Fitz nodded and headed back inside the room.
"Did they say anything?" Theresa asked.
"They don't have an update on Lucky as yet," Fitz said.
She closed her eyes and sighed. Fitz walked over to the girls to check on them as they slept. Fifteen minutes later, a nurse knocked on the door and then entered.
"Mr. Grant," she called. Fitz turned around to her. "Your wife's room is ready," she said.
When Olivia tried to open her eyes, they felt swollen and it took some blinking until she could see through them.
"Baby, take your time," Fitz said softly.
When she looked over, he was sitting in a chair right beside her bed with Lily sleeping cuddled in his arms. Fitz moved closer. Olivia turned around and looked around the room. It was dark outside the blinds by the window. Sonia slept on a couch across the room. When she looked slowly to her opposite side, there was another hospital bed joined to her with their twin girls sleeping under a blanket.
"Oh, my poor girls," Olivia said hoarsely. "How are they doing?" she said as she turned back to Fitz.
"How do you feel?" Fitz asked, deliberately leaving her question unanswered.
"My head is pounding," Olivia said.
Fitz pressed the button to call the nurse.
"No, don't call them-" Olivia said. "How are the girls-"
"Can we make sure you're okay first?" Fitz said. "It's the first time you're actually aware of what's going on."
"Fitz-" Olivia pleaded.
"They're not good. The twins aren't eating or talking. I had to call an anesthesiologist in here to sedate Lily to put her to sleep. She's been screaming and crying for the past three days and peeing herself." Fitz pressed the call nurse button as she finished speaking then stood with Lily in his arms and walked her over to the bed with the twins.
Olivia tried to sit up in the bed. "Can you bring Lily over here?"
Fitz moved back the sheet and laid Lily beside the twins then covered her under the blanket.
"Fitz?" Olivia said again as she began to push her blanket back.
"Olivia, the nurse is coming, do not get out of bed."
"I feel better-"
She watched as his breath became heavy then short and quick as he began to hyperventilate. "Dammit-" he said angrily as he headed towards the exit and stepped out of the room. It wasn't until after Fitz stepped outside in what seemed like an intense panic attack that Olivia realized Sonia had woken.
"How long has that been happening?" Olivia asked Sonia.
"Since the first night," Sonia said, "it's been happening a lot, maybe 5 times a day…when I'm awake and paying attention." She stood and walked over to Olivia's bed. "You need to take it easy," she said. "You can't help anyone if you don't heal first."
Sonia tucked back her sheet and fixed the pillow behind Olivia then helped her lean back.
"He said the girls aren't doing well-" Olivia said. "And he's obviously not okay either."
"He's just scared for you and for them," Sonia said. "So at least try to make it seem like you're taking your health seriously."
"I am-" Olivia said tearfully, "but-"
"But nothing," Sonia said.
The door opened and Fitz walked with the nurse and a team of doctors.
She wiped her eyes quickly and took a breath.
"Mrs. Grant, I'm your neurologist Dr. Sampaio, how are you feeling?" he said as he sanitized his hands and then walked to her. He pulled a flashlight from his lab coat pocket.
"It's the first time I've felt clear-headed since the incident."
"That's good news," he said, then leaned over and flashed the light in her eyes. "Eyes are responsive," he said then Olivia saw a nurse jot down notes. "Do you remember what happened?" The doctor asked.
"I remember hurting my head, not much else about how I got here or what I've been doing up until now."
"Withdraw ketamine," the doctor said to the nurse.
Another doctor was examining a chart.
"You said your head was pounding," Fitz interjected.
"It's stopped now," Olivia said, she reached her hand under the hospital blankets to feel her belly.
"What about my baby?" she asked.
The ob/GYN stepped forward, "healthy as a horse," she said. "Everything looks good for the stage of development."
Olivia nodded."When can I leave?"
"We'll have to perform a ct and based on the results you might be able to be discharged soon."
"Can we do it now-"
"We want to tread lightly here. You've been unresponsive for days which is longer than we anticipated even with the ketamine we administered. Your injury was severe and it's taking you a bit longer than we expected to heal. Now we suspect that might be because you're pregnant so your body is a bit more stressed but we don't want to rush. We'll need you to be alert and responsive for at least a few days before we feel comfortable sending you home regardless of how good the CT results might be."
Olivia nodded, "of course. Can I try to walk around and stretch my legs?"
"Not yet," her physician said. "Baby steps, maybe try sitting up first, with the help of your nurse."
"Can I eat and drink as normal?"
"Of course."
The team of hospital staff left shortly after leaving Fitz and Sonia.
"What happened earlier?" Olivia said. "You had a panic attack?"
"I'm fine," Fitz said.
"Fitz if you're having panic attacks-"
"Olivia, you're sitting here with brain damage and you're worried about a fucking panic attack?"
"How many have you had?" Olivia asked, ignoring his attempt at deflection.
"A couple."
"A couple?" Olivia asked skeptically.
Fitz shrugged and sat in the chair by her head once again.
"I feel so much better," Olivia said. "I wouldn't lie to you about this."
"Yes you would," Fitz said.
"Okay but I wouldn't lie if it was really serious," Olivia said with a chuckle. She reached out for his hands and Fitz took her hands in his. "I promise, I'm feeling better."
"How does your head feel, physically?"
"Tender," Olivia said, "at the back but that is the only place where it hurts."
Fitz kissed her hands and then pressed them against his cheek. Olivia remembered Lucky and gasped, "How is Lucky?"
"He had surgery but he's fine now."
"Really?
Fitz nodded.
"He literally stood in front of a knife for me. I have to thank him."
"You said you remember what happened?"
She nodded, "a good chunk of it but some of it's a bit blurry."
"That's better than a few days ago. You weren't remembering much then."
"Okay so tell me about the girls again. What's going on with them?"
"They're traumatized. I don't know how else to put it. Once they see that you're awake and you recognize them I think they'll calm down a little but the last few days have been hell."
"Specifically, what's going on with them, individually, so when they wake I know."
"Daisy and Isabelle aren't speaking or eating. I can't get them to tell me how they feel or what they want. There's just nothing. Lily is much worse, she's not sleeping, and she bursting into fits of anger. She slapped Daisy because Daisy took one of her toys-"
"She slapped her?"
"Slapped her hard in the face and pulled her hair," Fitz said. "She pushed Isabelle into a wall. She's not eating and she's been peeing herself because she won't go to the bathroom. I put a pull-up on her because she kept pissing all over the room."
"You said they sedated her?"
He nodded, "yes, they had to. She was out of control and I think she was going on two days without barely more than a nap."
"What happened to them? In the room?"
Fitz sighed, "Lily got the brunt of it…I guess. The guy that was there grabbed her up and held a pistol to her head. All the screaming woke the twins and when I did finally get him to let go of Lily, they saw me shoot him. In fact, he was right beside Lily and some of his blood was on her hair and back I didn't realize until we were at the hospital."
"I mean, have you talked to her-" She mumbled while choking back tears.
"She won't talk to me, the only thing she cares about right now is when you'll wake up. She's not listening to me or Sonia."
Olivia's eyes filled with tears and she pulled her hands from Fitz to wipe them. "Come on, don't cry-" Fitz said, sad and frustrated.
"I just hate that they went through that, they're too young and I look at you, you're having these panic attacks and you're not even-"
"I don't know why I'm having them," Fitz said. "I don't know-they just happen and then they stop but honestly that's really not a priority right now-"
A team of nurses and Olivia's doctor walked in.
"Ready for that CT scan," he said. "Mrs. Grant."
"I'm ready," Olivia said, wiping her eyes.
"Is everything okay," the doctor asked.
"Everything is fine," Olivia said then she turned to Fitz, "can you try to nap while I'm gone? You look 20 years older with those duffle bags under your eyes."
He smiled, "just hurry up and get back."
"Fine," Olivia said, then she turned to Sonia, who's returned to her seat on the couch. "I'll be right back," Olivia said to Sonia. The team of doctors wheeled her out of the room and disappeared behind the door.
It took Olivia almost two hours to have the scan performed after they spent some time examining her away from Fitz. After overhearing their conversation it was obvious they were at least intimidated by him if not afraid. As the nurses wheeled her down the hall towards her room she could hear screaming the closer she got. It was Lily.
She didn't hear the twins but she wondered if they were awake as well. Moments later, one of the nurses opened the door and pushed her bed into the room. It was just after almost 3am. She didn't see Lily as she entered the room but she heard screaming coming from the private bathroom.
"We'll be right back to remove your diaper," one of the nurses said.
Olivia nodded and then looked over to the twins, they were still sleeping, miraculously.
A minute later, the screaming had quieted and the door to the bathroom opened, Sonia walked out then Lily and Fitz.
"Lily," Olivia called.
Lily gasped and sprinted to her. "Mommy," she screamed.
"Come here, my girl," Olivia said to her with her arms outstretched for Lily to climb on the bed. Olivia sat up to help Lily up but Fitz was there just a second later to lift her onto the bed. Lily grabbed onto her and began to sob immediately. Olivia hugged her tightly and kissed her forehead, "oh my darling girl, I missed you so so much."
Lily's sobs grew deeper as she buried her face against Olivia's chest.
"Lily," Olivia said as she tried to raise her up to look at her, "Sweetheart, talk to me. What's going on?" Lily didn't answer, she just continued crying, so hysterically that it brought tears to Olivia's eyes witnessing her almost 6-year-old daughter in so much distress.
"Lily, honey, you're gonna make me cry," Olivia said tearfully and before she knew it she was sobbing uncontrollably as well as she held her and tried to comfort her.
Fitz couldn't watch, he had to walk out and when he did Olivia didn't say anything. Lily calmed after a while and dozed off against Olivia's chest. Olivia resolved to wait for Fitz. During that time the nurses came and removed her adult diaper. They left and after a while, she fell asleep as well thanks to the ketamine that was still lingering in her system.
When Fitz returned everyone was asleep, including Sonia. He went into the bathroom and showered and then sat back on the chair beside Olivia's bed. Soon after, he dozed off as well even though sunlight had already begun to peek through the windows.
Olivia woke first at almost 9am. Lily was still cuddled beside her and the twins were still asleep. Sonia woke up next and she asked her if she could call one of the guards in the room. When she did, Olivia asked him to go to McDonald's to order food for Fitz and the girls. Shortly after she sent him away, Isabelle woke.
"Hi Isabelle," Olivia said with a smile.
"Mommy," Isabelle called. She stood on the bed but didn't move.
"It's okay sweetheart, you can come to me," Olivia said.
Isabelle carefully stepped over Daisy and climbed beside Olivia on the opposite side of Lily. Olivia kissed her gingerly.
"I missed you, Izzy, so much," Olivia said as she kissed her again.
Isabelle smiled shyly but said nothing.
"Are you hungry?" Olivia asked.
She nodded.
"Well guess what? I asked the guards to buy McDonald's, they'll be here with it soon."
She smiled wider but still didn't speak.
"Isabelle, can you tell me all the feelings you're feeling right now? Olivia asked.
"Not good," Isabelle said.
"Not good," Olivia repeated, "why, my darling, can you tell me?"
"You were sleeping and you wouldn't wake up."
"I was a little sick so the doctors gave me some medicine to make me sleep for a long, long time so I would get better faster, and guess what?"
"What?" Isabelle said.
"I'm so much better," she said. "Do you feel anything else?"
Isabelle looked down at Lily, "Mad."
"Why?"
"Lily was being mean to me."
Olivia gasped as if she was shocked, "She was?"
Isabelle nodded, "she pinched me and she pushed me over there," Isabelle pointed then started to cry.
Olivia hugged her and kissed her, "oh Izzy. That should've never happened to you and it wasn't nice of your sister to do that at all. I'm so sorry, my sweet girl. When Lily wakes up, we'll talk to her so she knows that it's not okay to hurt you even if she's upset."
Isabelle smiled and nodded.
"Is there anything else your feeling?" Olivia asked.
Isabelle smiled, "Happy."
"Why?" Olivia asked with a smile.
"Mommy's not dead anymore," She said.
Olivia laughed, "honey, I wasn't dead, I was just asleep."
"Lily said you were dead," Isabelle said. "She said that's why you didn't wake up."
"I'm not," Olivia said, laughing, "I was just very, very, sleepy."
Isabelle giggled and laid her head against Olivia.
"I hope you're hungry and you'll eat all your breakfast," she said. "Will you?"
Isabelle nodded, "I'm gonna eat it all like a hungry monster," she said.
When Fitz woke there was noise in the room. It was the kind of noise he was used to, giggling and laughter, the chatter of little girls. He smelled food and when he opened her eyes Olivia was sitting up on the bed with all three girls and they were eating breakfast. He saw Mcdonald's bags all over the room and his stomach audibly growled.
"I have your favorite," Olivia said as she handed him a brown paper bag, "cold, disgusting Mcdonald's, dig in."
Fitz took the bag and opened it and began eating the cold hash brown and breakfast sandwich. All three girls were in good moods. What had surprised him most was Lily, she had done a complete 180 in her behavior.
"Fitz, Daisy says I look like a raccoon? Is that true? I don't believe them,"
"It is," he said.
"What? No, I don't believe you either," she said playfully.
Lily was practically laying on Olivia's stomach. The twins were laying on each leg. He didn't say anything and tried to not seem annoyed as he ate the breakfast Olivia had gotten for him. Just as he finished eating Olivia's team of doctors knocked and then entered the room. Her CT scan was clear and showed she had healed well enough to go home but in an abundance of caution, they would keep her for an additional few days before discharge. She was allowed to walk around to stretch her legs and use the bathroom as long as she had an adult close by.
It was later in the afternoon after the girls had miraculously fallen asleep for their nap that Fitz decided to voice his concern.
"Olivia, you need to be careful."
"What?" she said.
"You've had them jumping on you and riding you all morning. You're still not healed and you need to take it easy."
"Fitz," Olivia said, "I don't get to pick and choose when I'm a parent. I can't just do it when it's /easy and convenient."
"It's not about it being easy and convenient. You had a skull fracture and you're pregnant- do you not understand that? You were basically unconscious for three days?"
"Fitz, you can't keep doing that- you're being a hypocrite because if you literally had a fucking knife going through your neck and you knew that stopping for 5 seconds to console our kids would make them feel better you wouldn't hesitate to do it so why can't I do that same."
"That's not the same and you know it-"
"No, it is the same. It's exactly the same-"
Fitz stood and stepped closer to her, "the difference is that I can't live without you. I wouldn't survive if you died. If I died, you'd survive, you did it before but I wouldn't," he said angrily. "So if you don't mind doing me the small favor and talking it fucking seriously when you get her head smashed in I'd appreciate it."
Olivia reached out to hold him but his breathing suddenly became heavy. His chest rose and fell. He was having another panic attack.
"Fitz wait-" she called as he pulled away from her and headed towards the door, hyperventilating. Olivia tried to get out of bed to catch him but he was already through the door.
She tried easing Lily from her body so she could go outside to Fitz but she could feel Sonia's glare.
"Oh my god, don't tell me you're on his side?" Olivia complained.
"You need to take it easy," Sonia said.
"I am taking it easy," Olivia said, "but Fitz wants me not to do anything at all while my daughters are traumatized."
"I'm not saying don't do anything Olivia but if you know he doesn't want you to exert yourself then just take it easy."
Olivia rolled her eyes petulantly, "I thought this was me taking it easy."
Sonia smiled, "as I said, he's just scared. He'll calm down."
Olivia nodded and waited for Fitz to return. It wasn't until almost 20 minutes later that he walked into the room again.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
"That was your fault," he said. His face was straight but his voice was playful.
"Sonia is on your side in all of this," Olivia said, "so I'm going to do even less than I am right now."
"I'm not telling you not to parent but earlier Lily kneeled in your stomach and it's like you didn't want to tell her to get off even though I saw you wince. Just tell them to be careful because you're not well yet. That's all."
"Okay," Olivia said then she smiled, "can I get a kiss."
"No."
"Why not?"
"Look at you? Why would I want to kiss you when you look like that?"
Olivia gasped, offended. "What?"
Fitz smiled then pulled his phone from his pocket and turned the camera on then brought it to her face so she could see. She gasped again and locked the camera immediately.
"Why the fuck wouldn't tell me I looked like this the entire time?" she said as she slapped his arm lightly.
"I thought you knew?"
"So when I was wondering why Lily called me a raccoon, you couldn't explain that half my face is black and blue?"
She had large purple-ish bags covering her under eyes and eyelids.
"I'm sorry, I thought you knew."
Olivia frowned."How did this happen? I don't remember being punched in the face."
"It's your injury, a basilar skull fracture which is what you have, that usually causes this."
"Fine, it still hurts my feelings that you won't kiss me. You've kissed me when I've looked worse."
"We can kiss and do anything you want when you get better."
"Fine," Olivia said with a dissatisfied sigh.
The two days passed quickly and immediately after she was discharged, they flew back to Los Angeles. Fitz still hadn't told Olivia about the sex of the baby and strangely she never inquired about it. She seemed too occupied with the girls.
They arrived late in the night but all three girls were still awake. He carried Olivia up to their bedroom while the girls walked beside him. Sonia was still with them and Lucky and his girlfriend had parted ways at the airport and headed to their home with some guards.
He laid her in bed and then removed her shoes. She was still awake.
"I'm gonna put the girls to bed," he said.
"No," Lily objected in a panic. "We want to sleep with you!"
Fitz turned to Lily, "sweetie-"
Olivia interjected before he could start. "Of course, you can but Daddy still has to help you get washed up and your teeth brushed and then all three of you can sleep with us tonight."
Lily smiled and nodded. Fitz took them to their bathroom and took new toothbrushes out of the supply closet before he helped them to brush their teeth and wash their hands and faces. They changed into pajamas and then he took them back to his bedroom. Olivia was out of bed when he returned.
"Come on girls, climb into bed," he said.
"No, we're waiting on mommy," Lily said.
"Your mom will be right back, she's in the bathroom right now but I need you to hop into bed and wait for her to come back."
"I want to go to her-" Lily said as she stepped off.
"Lily," Fitz said. "Remember when mom and I talked to you about taking it easy on her because she was hurt and she needed time to feel better?" Fitz asked.
Lily didn't respond as she walked around him and walked to the bathroom. Isabelle and Daisy followed their big sister. Lily opened the bathroom door and let herself and her sisters in then closed it. Fitz waited in the room and a few minutes later Olivia emerged from the bathroom with them.
She walked over to the bed and allowed the girls to climb on before she joined them.
"Are you ready to go to bed?" she asked them. All three nodded."Alright, give mommy kisses, it's late."
Olivia leaned over and kissed all three girls and then she tucked them under the sheets. "Now give daddy kisses."
Fitz walked to the bed and leaned over and kissed all three girls. Olivia puckered her lips for a kiss but Fitz ignored her even though he saw her. It hurt but she decided not to say anything since the girls were still awake. In between his bouts of panic attacks he'd been more irritable than she knew him to be. They hadn't yet really spoken about what happened that night on the island. She didn't know how they managed to get there or who exactly was responsible though she had some ideas.
Fitz headed to the bathroom and a while later she heard the shower start.
She waited in bed and spoke a made-up fairytale story to the girls and they fell asleep shortly after the story ended. She quietly stood from the bed and headed to the bathroom to Fitz.
He was still in the shower when she opened the door and walked to the vanity and stood waiting for him. She was sure he could see her through the clear glass of the shower but he didn't increase his urgency.
After a while, he turned off the faucet and stepped out. He dried himself with a towel as Olivia watched him. His thick, long, flaccid cock hung from the tuft of brown hair on this groin. She felt a tingle between her legs and squeezed her knees together.
"Are they asleep?" he asked.
Olivia nodded.
He walked to the vanity and proceeded to brush his teeth as Olivia waited and watched him. When he finished he turned to her.
"What are you going to do tomorrow when they want to sleep in our bed again?"
"Let them sleep in the bed," Olivia said. "They're scared right now but they won't be scared forever. We can transition them back to their bedroom when the time is right?"
He shrugged.
"You didn't kiss me?"
"I don't have time for this-"
"You're not sleeping and you're stressed out about your fucking panic attacks on top of everything else that's happening. Can we have a conversation about that or will you just keep being an asshole?"
"Can I go?" Fitz said.
"What?"
"May. I. go?" Fitz said, frustrated.
Olivia pursed her lips together angrily but didn't respond. Fitz walked into the closet and changed into his pajamas then left. When she returned to the bedroom he wasn't there. She lay in bed staring at the ceiling until she finally succumbed to sleep. When she woke it was from Lily's screams.
"Daddy?" she bawled out.
She jumped up and saw that Fitz was on the other side of the bed pulling Lily closer to him. She hugged him and cried on his shoulder. Olivia turned on the night lamp. "What happened?" She said frantically. Fitz could feel her pajama bottoms were wet.
"The bad man was trying to take me away in my dream," Lily cried. "And I made an accident on myself."
"It's okay. No one is going to take you away from us," Fitz said to her softly as he kissed her and consoled her. "Not ever."
Lily hugged him tighter and wiped her face on his shirt. Fitz stood with her.
"Where are you going?" Olivia asked.
"I'm gonna change her and take her for a walk," Fitz said as he headed out of their room.
Olivia didn't want to wake the twins so she took towels from the bathroom to cover up where Lily peed on the bed. She waited for them and after a while when he didn't return she went looking for him. It was in the early hours of the morning when she went downstairs and found him deep in sleep on the couch in the living room. He was snoring loudly and Lily was sleeping on his chest. She smiled at the sight of them and leaned down and kissed Lily against her hair softly then she kissed Fitz on the lips. He was so tired he didn't stir from contact that usually woke him.
She turned off the lights and went back to bed.
When she woke in the morning, she was the only one in bed. She checked the time on her phone on the nightstand and it was almost 12pm. She sat up so quickly her head spun. She waited for the feeling to pass and then she got out of bed and went looking for Fitz and the girls. She heard chatter coming from the kitchen and found Fitz and the girls. They were sitting at the stools by the island while Fitz was behind the counter plating food for them. They were all in their pajamas.
"You're just in time," Fitz said with a smile.
"Mommy," all three girls screamed at the same time.
"Hi my girls," Olivia said as she walked over and kissed all three.
"Did you just wake up?" Olivia asked as she walked to the other side of the island where Fitz stood.
"Lily and I just woke up. Sonia had the twins for most of the morning, I just sent her home."
Olivia nodded then suddenly felt Fitz pull her into his arms and hugged her tightly. "I'm sorry baby," he whispered so the girls couldn't hear. "You were right, I was a dick."
"It's okay," Olivia said softly as she wrapped her arms around his torso. "You're under a lot of pressure."
"Yeah but that's no excuse because you didn't deserve it," he said as he hugged her tighter. "Can I get that kiss now?"
Olivia smiled and got on the tips of her toes as he met her lips with his. Fitz kissed her deeply, forgetting for a moment that his daughters were there.
"Ew," Lily complained as they kissed.
Daisy covered her face and Isabelle giggled.
"I love you," he said when he reluctantly broke the kiss.
"I love you too," Olivia whispered back.
"Daddy, we're hungry," Daisy said.
"Yes and I'm gonna eat all your food! How about that!"
"No," they all screamed in laughter.
"You ordered food?" Olivia asked.
He nodded, "have a seat."
As Olivia headed to one of the stools Fitz slapped her ass lightly. She laughed and continued walking.
Fitz finished sharing the food onto the plate and then served them. He'd ordered pancakes, eggs, home fries, bacon, sausages, toast, and fruit.
"Did you take your prenatal?" he asked Olivia.
"Oh bollocks…I think I left them on the island- I have a refill so I can get another at the pharmacy but I think Rumi has my refill paper."
"When is she coming back to work?"
Olivia shrugged, "I'm not sure but we can pick up some from over-the-counter ones in the meantime."
"Okay. I'll take you later." Olivia nodded and ate more of her bacon.
"So," Fitz began, "I'm guessing you don't know…because you never asked. I mean I didn't ask either, they kind of just told me."
"Told you what?"
"The sex of the baby," Fitz said.
Olivia gasped. "You know?"
He nodded. "Do you want to know?"
Olivia dropped her fork and covered her ears. "Don't tell me!"
He laughed, "fine."
She moved her hands from her ears, "wait- no- tell me- but slowly-"
"Okay," Fitz said. "We're having a-" he stopped and Olivia waited anxiously for him to finish but realized he wasn't going to finish. She threw a grape at him, "tell me!"
He laughed, "girls you're gonna have a little baby…"
"Fitz!" Olivia screamed.
"Brother."
"Are you serious?" she asked tearfully. "You're not kidding?"
"No, I'm serious, we're having a son."
Olivia smiled and wiped her eyes, "oh, I'm so happy." Fitz went over to her and hugged her and kissed her."You're done being pregnant after this right?" Fitz asked.
"So done," Olivia said with a chuckle.
He smiled and kissed her again and caressed her belly then he wiped her eyes. They finished eating and Olivia went back up to the bedroom to brush her teeth and wash her face before heading to the pharmacy for her vitamins. She remembered Lily peed on the bed and went looking for sheets in the linen closet. She headed back to the bedroom and moments after she began pulling the old sheets off the bed Fitz walked in with the girls. They were changed from their pajamas.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"I'm changing the sheet-" The look on his face made Olivia drop the sheets and climb off the bed.
"Okay, okay," she said before he even spoke. "I'll call Marta and ask her to come today instead."
Fitz gave her a dry sarcastic smile and headed into their closet to change from his pajamas. Olivia joined him and changed as well.
It was later in the night. she'd put the girls down for bed while Fitz was downstairs. After they were asleep she went to bathe and didn't realize Fitz was in the bathroom until he slid the glass open and stepped into the shower with her. He wrapped his arms around her belly and massaged her.
"Is everything okay?" she asked.
"Everything is just as shitty as it was before I went down," he said as he kissed her shoulder.
Olivia turned around. They were both drenched in water that rained from the ceiling of the shower.
"Well, you didn't have any panic attacks today so that's good," she said.
Fitz shrugged.
"You did?"
"A couple," he said.
Olivia was quiet for a moment, "can we at least talk about it?"
He nodded, "sure…just wait until we get out of here." Olivia nodded as he leaned down and kissed her lips softly.
"How do you feel?" Fitz whispered against her lips as he temporarily broke the kiss.
"Good," Olivia whispered as she pressed her body against his, "so good." She reached down and wrapped her fingers around his shaft and realized he was erect. Before she could stroke his shaft Fitz pulled her fingers away and broke the kiss.
"The doctor said we could," Olivia panted as she ran her hand up his torso.
"I am not having sex with you," Fitz said. "I don't care how hard my dick gets."
"Ugh," Olivia groaned. "How long are you gonna make me wait?"
"Until I think there's no chance it could hurt you."
"How would it hurt me?" Olivia asked, annoyed.
Fitz smiled, "are we really gonna debate the reason why it's not a good idea for us to have sex right now?"
"Yes."
"Fine," he said. "An orgasm increases blood flow to the brain. You just cracked your skull. I'm not a doctor but I don't think that's what you need right now."
"You're right…you're not a doctor but you know who is a doctor? Dr. Sampaio and he said that an orgasm is just fine."
"Okay, fine, turn around and bend over."
"Really?" she said excitedly.
"Of course not."
Olivia grunted angrily and opened the glass door and stepped out.
"I'm gonna finger myself," she said as she walked away.
"Olivia-" Fitz called.
When she didn't answer he turned off the faucet and stepped out, annoyed.
"Olivia," he called as he walked to find her. He went into the closet where he suspected she would be and she was naked and pulling a pink pair of underwear up her thighs. Once she had underwear on she turned to him.
"You do realize that you're insane right?" Olivia said. "If I wanted to finger myself would you really have stopped me?"
"There are some zip ties downstairs, I guess I could tie your hands behind you," he said playfully, realizing she was annoyed.
"I'm not even in the mood anymore but you do realize that at some point…it could be next week or next year or in 50 years but I will die. You know that right? And if I die before you, you'll just have to move on. I understand being scared when I'm hurt but you take it to an entirely different level. I got hurt 9 days ago and of those 9 days, I spent 7 and a half in the hospital, and the only reason they even kept me that long was because they were scared of pissing you off. You were getting annoyed because the girls wanted to play with me."
Fitz rolled his eyes.
"Am I wrong?"
"Oh you're such a hypocrite- are you giving me a speech about moving on after you die when you spent 4 and a half years not moving on after I was supposed to be dead."
"Okay I didn't move on and I was right because here you are."
Fitz smiled and then burst into laughter. Olivia rolled her eyes and began laughing too. Fitz walked closer and lifted her around his waist.
"Listen, you know I get protective when you get hurt, you're just gonna have to live with that. Give me a couple more days to get over this and I swear I'll give you all the dick, and clit licking and ass fingering you want."
Olivia smiled, "two more days of being obnoxious, and then we're back to normal."
He nodded then kissed her lips and let her down gently.
"I'm gonna finish my shower," he said, "and then there's stuff we have to talk about."
Olivia nodded. "Go fast before I get horny again."
Fitz turned to walk out then stopped and face her, "can we at least agree that you're a fucking brat? You just had a full-blown tantrum because I didn't fuck you..that's where you drew the line. You were fine with everything else."
Olivia grabbed a pillow from the sofa and flung it at his head and Fitz ducked out of the closet laughing. She laughed to herself and continued to dress as she waited for him to finish his shower.
When he returned Olivia was dressed and sitting on the sofa waiting for him. He slipped on underpants and deodorant then his pajama pants. He sat beside her on the couch.
"How long will you be gone?" Olivia asked before he started.
"A couple of days."
"Will that be enough time?"
"I think so…I hope so…I don't want to be gone longer than that."
"What did you want to talk about?"
"Your sister and Mellie are together."
"You know where they are?"
He nodded, "and I'm gonna kill them both and I know this will be a problem for us-"
Olivia attempted to interject but he didn't let her.
"-We fought about this in the past and after we both agreed to take care of Erin…you didn't like it after the fact."
"Fitz this was too far-"
"You said that last time."
"She planned this with Mellie?"
"She planned it with Mellie," Fitz said. "Taking Lily was her idea. Mellie wanted to kill me in my sleep but she knew that with all the guards we have she couldn't get enough men there to do it and she didn't trust him or two to finish me. So Erin told her that if they took Lily then we'd do anything to get her back even if it meant turning myself over to them and that Lily trusted her so she could keep her calm while she was there."
"How did they get to the island, those two men?"
"Roberto helped them. They wore fucking scuba suits and dragged behind the speedboat he uses the get to the island. The guards checked the boat that morning but they were hiding on the ledge in the water behind it."
"Roberto has been with your family for years- why would he do that?"
"He says they threatened him-
Olivia rolled her eyes, "we can't trust anybody."
"We can't," Fitz said.
Oliva turned to him, "baby, I promise I'm 1000% on your side. There'll be no fight, no resentment, and I won't change my mind. I know what you have to do and I want you to do it. Just make it quick for her."
"She has your face…I might have to fucking close my eyes and do it because I won't be able to look at her."
Olivia leaned against his chest and sighed, "you can peel Mellie like a fucking grape for all I care. Kill her slowly and then give me all the details so I can revel in it."
"Oh, I plan to."
"That bitch."
Fitz suddenly chuckled, "I did lock her in prison and then I forgot I locked her in there."
Olivia laughed, "that's such an asshole thing to do but she should have counted herself lucky she escaped and moved on."
Fitz kissed Olivia against her hair and sighed, "she can't move on and now we're fucking paying for it."
"Just make sure you come back to me," Olivia said. "I know I gave you shit earlier but I literally couldn't handle it if you got hurt."
Fitz smiled, "I'm coming back. Don't worry."
"Are we gonna stay in the panic room?"
"I couldn't leave if you weren't," he said. "And I'll be watching you in the camera every free second I have just to make sure you're all still there."
Olivia nodded, "and what about your panic attacks? Do you think they'll affect you?"
"I don't know."
"What triggers them?"
"I don't know…it just happens."
"If they're still happening when you get back, will you see someone?"
"They'll stop," Fitz said.
"But if they don't.."
"They'll stop," Fitz repeated.
Olivia leaned closer and kissed him, "but if they don't we're seeing someone. We'll have to take the kids to a therapist anyway. I want to start working on them as soon as possible so we can put this behind us."
Fitz nodded, "yeah, they definitely need to see someone."
"You too," Olivia added.
"What about you?"
"I've gotten my ass kicked plenty of times," She said. "I'm kind of used to it but if you think I need to see someone I'll go."
"Don't say that," Fitz said, even though it was true. He hated thinking about all the times she'd been hurt before and after they'd been together.
"Fine," Olivia said as she stood. "Let's get to bed."
Fitz stood and joined her. They headed to the bedroom after turning off the lights.
A/N - Sorry this chapter took so long. Taken is up next then. I've revised "find a way" and changed some parts of the story so it flows a little better. Let me know your thoughts.