Four times before

by staceycity

In this one shot, the times I imagined Eric and Calleigh made love before they went finally official and became a couple. It happened four times before...

It wasn't the first time that it happened, it actually happened four times before. The only difference is that the other times Calleigh and Eric made love before today were on different circumstances than the one they found themselves in now.

The first time that it happened, their friendship was still quite fresh. Eric had been smitten by the Southern Belle the moment he laid eyes on her and well Calleigh wasn't that far off either. She had been intrigued by the Cuban the minute he flirted with her, putting that wicked grin of his on full display. She could still remember the way he had smiled at her, the way he had asked her for her number even before he knew her name. She had shaken her head later that day as she thought about that moment but the truth is that he had gotten to her. It had been love at first sight and neither one of them was aware of it at the time.

But when Eric started working as a CSI and became part of the team, Calleigh's and Eric's friendship had blossomed even before it did with Tim Speedle. Eventually Eric and Speedle had become good friends, best friends...buddies, and the three of them had become the three musketeers, always hanging together. There was never anything except for good friendship between Calleigh and Tim, they had become more like a brother and sister but when it comes to Eric, Calleigh could not say the same. She liked him, she felt a connection to him...a pull, and even if she pretended to not feel anything for him, deep down she always knew that was not entirely true. Deep down she hated every girl he ever dated, got jealous when he started dating Natalia, in fact she had pulled away from him, got distant from him because the last thing she wanted was to know every little detail that was happening between them, and when they thought that he had gotten Natalia pregnant, Calleigh had been heart broken even if she didn't want to admit it. It had been a false alarm and Calleigh was never more relieved than she had been at that time...but Eric never knew...she never told him.

The first time that it happened was after a night out just the three of them...Calleigh, Eric and Speedle. They had been playing with fire really. They had been going out frequently, hanging out just the three of them and more often than not, they ended up alone as Speedle would leave earlier, needing his sleep after having too much to drink. The way their eyes would lock on each other, they way they had started getting handsy, always needing to touch a part or the other whether it was the arm, shoulder, hand or hips, it didn't matter as long as there was that physical connection. They both seemed to need it. It had been one hell of a night. The three of them had gotten a little drunk at one of the local bars that happened to be quite close to Calleigh's apartment at the time. Speedle had decided to head home a little bit earlier than both Eric and Calleigh wanted to. They had been enjoying themselves, drinking, laughing, being in each other's company and as Calleigh and Eric sat next to each other, they had often leaned on one another. Now as Calleigh thought about that night, she was sure Tim had left early on purpose. They had been sitting next to each other and with every little thing that made them laugh, Calleigh would lean into Eric and Eric would lean into Calleigh...one of the hands was always touching the other...whether it was his hand or her thigh it didn't matter. At one point Eric had even pushed a strand of hair behind her ear and Speedle had whistled jokingly breaking the spell they were in as their eyes locked on each other forgetting momentarily that they were not alone, which made them laugh even harder. Not long after Tim had excused himself and told them that a headache was coming and he needed to sleep or otherwise it was going to be one hell of a day the following morning. They had simply said bye but did not attempt to move from their spot not until another hour later, when Eric realized that he had forgotten his keys at work so he couldn't get home and since they had gotten to the bar together, there had been no way of knowing before. Calleigh had offered him to sleep over at her house, not sure what the hell she was thinking or maybe she did and Eric had thanked her with a kiss on her cheek and the lucky stars for the opportunity. He had lingered a little too close, feeling her heat, her breath on his face, his heart pounding hard in his chest and then he pulled slightly away but his chocolate brown eyes had settled on her green ones for a moment before he pulled away realizing that they were threading dangerous waters.

Somehow they had made it to her apartment, clearly more drunk than usual and as Calleigh had attempted to help him sit on the couch after he had stumbled into a piece of furniture, he had pulled her down with him, making her fall on him. Her hands had landed on his chest, her face inches apart from his, her blonde hair cascaded framing her face as his arms settled around her waist, her eyes had settled on his lips and when she had finally looked up to meet his chocolate orbs, she saw the lust...the desire...the fire...the intensity in them mirroring her own. His eyes had shifted to her lips, his hand massaging her waist and before he knew it the little distance was no more between them. They had no idea who moved first but their lips met, his hand moved to the back of her head, his long fingers vanishing in her golden locks while the right hand moved to her back. Parting his lips he invited her in and Calleigh found his tongue beginning a dance neither of them wanted to finish as she practically climbed on him, straddling him. Leaning slightly his head, Eric deepened the kiss and Calleigh moaned in his mouth. She had no idea what had gotten into her. In her right state of mind, she would have stopped this, probably gasped out loud and slapped his chest for kissing her, but tonight she had a little bit more to drink than usual, and the attraction that had been building since they met, the desire to taste him and feel him all around her, feel his chiseled muscles had taken over, not to mention all the build up tension at the bar tonight and Calleigh didn't want to stop this. Maybe she would call herself stupid in the morning but right now she was in his arms and Calleigh wanted to stay there for as long as possible. Eric was living his dream. A part of him, the rational part was afraid that she would regret it in the morning. His mind was telling him to stop this insanity...the part that was scared that their friendship would be ruined but the other part had wanted to be like this with her since the first time he saw her in that garage and there was no way in hell he was going to end this now not until they were both naked and screaming each other's names loud and clear in the middle of the night.

They had broken the kiss and Eric had taken the opportunity to bury his face in her neck, finding that perfect spot that made Calleigh moan loudly in his ear making his body shiver, goosebumps covering his body and ask him to take her to bed. Getting there had been tricky, often stopping to ravish each other, ending up against the wall, pressing into each other while they disposed off their clothing and by the time they reached the bedroom, a trail of clothes had developed like the yellow brick road but to Calleigh's bedroom instead of the Wizard of Oz, finding their own kind of magic there.

Seeing each other for the first time had been something special...breathtakingly monumental and Eric had cherished every part of her body, had kissed and touched every corner, every luscious curve. The way she had arched her back feeding herself into him, the way she had moaned and whimpered, the way she had cupped his face and crushed her lips to his...there was just something about the way she was kissing him, the way she was looking at him. It was like she was letting him see inside her heart and Eric was pretty sure he was letting her see inside his. The words that he was uttering...it was like he had no control of his brain and mouth.

'You're so beautiful Cal'...'God you taste so good'...'You feel so good' he whispered as she had turned them around and Calleigh was cherishing his neck, her hands moving up and down his side. He let her take the lead for a while, knowing how much she loved being in control, plus there was just something so beautifully sexy having her on top of him. The way her golden hair cascaded down her face and when she lifted her hand and threaded her fingers into her hair and then pulled it to one side, Eric just wanted to kiss her, so he reached up and took a sitting position, crushing his lips hard against hers. God the way he had kissed her...he had almost knocked out all her senses. Pushing her on her back then, Eric needed to be inside of her. Kissing her eyes, he tangled their fingers together and raised them above her head, whispering all kinds of wonderful things in her ear, he made sure to look her in the eyes, making that forever connection that ruined them for anyone else and then buried himself inside of her. They made love for the longest time, like they both wanted to drag this moment forever, knowing that it probably won't ever happen again.

But it had...it did. It did happen again.

It did the day Speedle was killed. Their lives had been shattered in a heartbeat the moment their dear friend was killed on the job. It was a harsh reality to face...a reality that drew them back to each other's arms. Eric had been held with the case as a little boy was missing and could not rush to be by Speedle's side and it was tough to handle, tough to continue working as if nothing happened but Calleigh had to go on sight and test his gun. She saw the pool of blood where his body had been. She had to work like it was a normal case when it was anything but. For Eric, it had been difficult not being there, but for Calleigh, it was difficult being there, testing his gun, when she already knew what the results were going to be, not to mention having to face Stetler. That was the cherry on top of the sour cake, and at the end of the shift, Calleigh and Eric somehow did not meet. They had no idea who left first from work nor how they made it home after that miserable day but somehow Calleigh found herself knocking on Eric's door later that evening not really sure how she had gotten there, but she did, knowing that he had to be a terrible mess as much as she was and that he needed her and as soon as Eric opened the door, he pulled her into his arms as she wrapped her arms around his waist, burying her face against his chest, letting the scent that was Eric fill her and Calleigh broke down in his arms. Feeling her body shattering into pieces as he held her, Eric sobbed hard against her head as they held onto each other for dear life both feeling like their lives had been suddenly drained. But when they finally pulled slowly apart Eric cupped her face with both hands, his red rimmed eyes looking straight into her soul as her green eyes mirrored his...red rimmed and searching his soul until his eyes moved to her lips and his trembling thumb caressed her lower lip.

'I need you Cal...I need you so bad' he whispered his forehead resting against hers. His voice pleading, trembled with emotion and restraint as he tried to control himself from simply crushing his lips against hers, even though he knew that if he did she wouldn't push him away. He knew what he was asking her. He knew they had said that it was best to never let it happen again for the sake of their friendship because it was too important to fuck it up, but at the moment he needed to know that she was alive, he needed to feel alive because everything inside of him felt dead and Calleigh was his only hope because only she could understand what he was going through.

'About last night...' Calleigh started saying as she tightened the robe to make sure she covered as much of her skin as much as possible and sat down on the edge of the bed next to him. Eric was still lying in bed, the bed sheets covering from the waist down, her eyes trying not to trace the lines of his chiseled front area. His heart stopped, not wanting to hear her say that she regretted being with him.

'Cal please don't...' Eric started telling her but she smiled at him and stopped him, knowing what he must be thinking she was about to say, tangling her fingers with his, her thumb caressing his knuckles.

'Eric I don't regret what happened between us. That was not what I was going to say' she started telling him, smiling at him and Calleigh could see that he visibly relaxed. His shoulders weren't stiff anymore and even the frown on his face had disappeared 'I was just going to tell you...that as beautiful and wonderful as this was...it can't happen again...The last thing that I want is to ruin our friendship. Eric you mean the world to me...your friendship means so much...I don't want to mess things up and risk losing you' she told him.

He smiled at her and reached out to push her hair behind her ear, letting his fingers caress her cheek 'I understand...' he started telling her. He was smiling at her, giving her that look that Calleigh could swear was melting her from the inside, and all the wanted to do was throw caution to the wind out of the bloody window and lock her lips with his again, feel his hands on her body again but no. No. She couldn't do that 'For what it's worth...you were amazing Cal...It was the best I have ever had' Eric told her and Calleigh smiled at him 'I will never forget last night Calleigh' he whispered.

'Neither will I Eric' Calleigh told him. Eric moved into a sitting position, reached for her, kissed her once on her lips, placed his forehead against hers, feeling her hands on his face and then they moved into a hug, her arms wrapping around his neck, her palms resting on his back, her cheek against his as his arms wrapped around her waist, as they held each other close...

'Eric' she whispered blinking her eyes. Her heart was torn into million pieces at the moment but she knew what he meant, how he was feeling and she understood what he needed because the truth was that she needed it too. She needed that connection between the two of them...she needed to feel the connection that she could only have with him, and Calleigh knew that so did Eric. She could see tears in his eyes as she made contact with his brown orbs and Calleigh just couldn't deny him...couldn't deny them what they needed right now, so instead of fighting it...instead of thinking about the bloody consequences, she let go and closed the little distance there was between them. Maybe people wouldn't understand if they knew, how two people can have sex in such a moment, but they could because at that moment a part of them had died with Speedle and their only hope was to cling to one another.

Their lips meshed together and Eric immediately inhaled her deeply as he intensified the kiss, their lips immediately parting as their tongues started a long awaited dance. It had been more than a year ago that this had happened. There was nothing sweet and beautiful about it this time round though. Things heated up quickly as Calleigh found herself between the door (he must have closed at some point because she couldn't even remember when that happened) and Eric and their clothes started flying everywhere. To anyone from the outside looking in, it would have looked as a passionate moment between two lovers and maybe to some extent it was but the reality was it was pure grief sex. Two people trying to find comfort in each other, trying to hold onto something that remained after a precious piece of them had been lost.

Pulling clothes off in an urgent manner, they stripped each other off the offending garments and reached for each other, letting themselves get lost in the comfort and passion being drawn from one another. Moans and whimpers, ooohhhss and aaahhhsss filled the air, as heavy breath filled the air. Moving from the door past the kitchen and the living room, reaching the corridor to his bedroom, he pressed her against the wall and was very tempted to have her right there and then, but maybe some sense still remained in his foggy brain, and as rough as this round of grief sex was heading, he didn't want to just fuck her and that's it because she deserved better than that, so he took a moment to feel her body pressed between him and the wall, feel her breast press against his chest, her sex rubbing against him, her heat driving him crazy, his mouth assaulting her mouth before making its way to her neck. He felt her hand cup the back of his head as her nails scratched the area as well as his back, and Calleigh moaned loudly in his ear, enjoying what he was doing to her. This was crazy. Dangerous and she knew it...but she couldn't stop it. She couldn't stop it if she tried. She had spent the best part of last year trying not to think about what had happened between them, and most of the time she succeeded but then, there were moments when their eyes would lock on one another and she would get lost in them, and it was like flashbacks of that heated encounter would pop up. Speedle had noticed something had shifted between his two friends and colleagues and had tried to find out what happened...if what he thought had happened had actually happened, but they had agreed to keep it between them, and no not even Tim could know about what happened. Actually, the fact that he didn't know, but kept him wondering made that night even more special...more thrilling, because it was their own little secret.

At the end, they ended up in the bedroom with Eric lying on top of her, losing himself in her as he cherished her and for a moment that grief was forgotten and replaced with bliss and pleasure, embracing a connection they never had with anyone else. There was no time for foreplay or dragging it out to savour the moment. It was to the point, rough and pure need filled with a lot of passion and lust because at the end of the day, they both craved each other. He touched her hard, fucked her with his fingers hard and kissed her in a way that he thought he was going to bruise her lips, but Calleigh gave him everything back as she scratched his back, the sweat now covering their bodies burning the red marks covering him, and when he pushed inside of her, they both cried out at being one again. It was only in that moment that they stopped to look each other in the eyes acknowledging what they were doing, before Eric leaned down and captured her lips kissing her with all the mixed emotions but pure passion that he felt for her as he pounded hard into her. Moans, whimpers, grunts and cries filled the room as he slid in and out of her time and time again until they both felt their release rock their world and when that moment ended and they just laid there in each other's arms, they cried their loss until sleep claimed them.

Things changed a bit after that then. For the next few days it was hard dealing with losing Speedle and what happened again between them, and just like she knew best to do, her walls went high up, trying to keep Eric at arms length, knowing she couldn't deal with what was happening between them and when Eric tried to defend her against one of the criminals they were dealing with, they ended up arguing. Eric knew she could handle herself but at that moment all he cared about was making sure she was protected. Maybe what was happening between them was clouding his judgement, but he couldn't care less. He was not going to just stand there and watch that son of a bitch tower over her. In his eyes, he needed to step in, because if he couldn't be there for Speedle to protect him so he sure as hell was going to be there for Calleigh. Later they stopped and talked about his intervention and what had happened between them because Calleigh was feeling like it was starting to come between them and once again they tried to promise each other that that was the last time that it happened.

Growing their separate ways, Eric ended up finding comfort in other women now having to deal with losing Speedle and Calleigh in a different way. He needed to stop thinking about her because she was not ready to admit that there was something happening between them, something that made them more than just friends so he had to do something to lock his feelings for her away while Calleigh started dating John Hagen in hope of getting past the feelings that were emerging for Eric. She thought the detective wasn't so bad and thought trying out a new relationship would make her forget those moments with Eric. What she didn't think of was how it was going to affect her friendship with Eric.

He did not like Hagen and had to admit that he was jealous of him. The thought that he had Calleigh, that he was having sex with her pained him but he knew better than to say anything about that although Calleigh did know he did not approve of who she was dating. She couldn't blame him; she did get jealous seeing Eric with other women. It was hard trying to keep their friendship platonic when they both knew there was so much more going on between them even if they never really addressed the issue. What they had talked about was a moment of weakness where they both needed each other emotionally and physically and that was that, but they refused to talk about the feelings that were obviously coming to light.

They never talked about it and instead they both focused into their own lives growing somewhat apart. Apart but never that far that they wouldn't confide into each other if they needed to and when Hagen had asked Eric to overlook evidence he had to tell her. He knew how professional Calleigh was and knew she would not tolerate anyone overlooking evidence. She confronted him and apparently dumped him. It took Eric by surprise but he couldn't deny that the news made him happy when it reached him. It had been a hard day for her with the case and breaking up with John and then her father getting drunk because of the case he had been handling and Eric couldn't help but be there for her.

She had smiled at him and let him comfort her. He was hesitant at first but then pulled her into his arms and held her tight as she wrapped her arms around his waist and stayed there, enjoying the feeling of finally being this close to him. She could hear the sound of his heart beating against her ear, could hear him breathing, feel his chest rise and fall and Calleigh had to close her eyes and just revel in this unexpected moment. She thanked him for always being there for her as she slowly pulled out of his embrace but with her arms still on his hips, even if there were times when she didn't deserve it. She certainly didn't feel like she deserved it now. He had pushed a strand of hair behind her ear, leaned in and kissed her forehead, lingering there for a while as he closed his eyes, before pulling slightly away and smiling softly at her promising he would always be there for her.

He kept an eye on her from a distance and when someone put a gun to the back of her head, Eric helped her to try and identify who attempted to kill her, and then when later Hagen shot himself in firearms, Calleigh was distraught and Eric stayed with her until they removed his body.

'Calleigh look at me' Eric whispered as he cupped her face with both hands 'I have to go, H needs me in the field but I will come over later to you okay?' He asked her trying to look in her eyes. There was nothing. Complete emptiness and Eric was worried but he had to leave. He kissed the top of her head and left.

Later that night, Eric went over to her place and cradled her in his arms. He was worried about her. He never saw her like this. Not even when Speedle died because at least she was crying. At least she was showing a form of emotion but today she was just numb, staring at nothing and blaming herself for Hagen taking his own life.

'Cal...talk to me please' he told her. This silence was killing him. Seeing her like this shattering into million pieces in his arms feeling completely helpless, it broke his heart. He hated Hagen for putting her through this. He never liked the guy but he didn't think he would put her through something like this. He should have known damn it. He looked unstable. He should have said something to her. Maybe it wouldn't have made any difference and maybe they would have argued and she would have sent him to hell for speaking his mind, which she probably wouldn't have, but he didn't want to seem like he was intruding in her personal life or that he was the jealous guy that couldn't have her, plus he had his own baggage to deal with as well.

He felt her fingers moving next to his side, as her head rested on his chest. His fingers were playing with her hair, slowing caressing her head, letting the blonde strands slide between his fingers. He found out he loved doing that. Her hair was always something that astonished him, so fine and golden...he loved her hair and since the first time they made love or had sex whatever anyone wants to call it, he found out that running his fingers through her hair was something he enjoyed doing. It felt sexy...intimate and Calleigh seemed to enjoy it as well. He felt her head moving, and then she looked up at him and her lips were impossibly close as he looked down in her eyes. He could see the green of her eyes coming alive and Eric knew what she was thinking. He could feel his heart beginning to race, her own heart pounding hard in her chest as her eyes shifted to his lips. He knew this was dangerous after they had promised twice that it won't happen again, but having her this close feeling her warmth against his, her green eyes looking at his lips was not helping the case.

'Cal' he whispered trying to warn her that she was charting dangerous territory as he swallowed hard, but Calleigh placed her finger on his lips silencing him as she looked in his eyes.

'I...I need you Eric' she whispered, her eyes first on his lips and then locking with his now dark brown eyes.

'Cal' he whispered cautiously like trying to remind her what they had promised each other.

'I know' she whispered 'I feel numb Eric...this emptiness I feel is too much right now. Take it away...please...I...I can't take it anymore' she pleaded with him.

Hearing her pleading with him to take her pain away was his undoing. He just couldn't take seeing her like this and God help him, he hated Hagen even more now if that was even possible after he put a gun to her head as he found out earlier and then killed himself in firearms...in her sanctuary. At the moment, she had nothing left...just him.

Looking in her eyes, his large hand cupped her cheek, feeling the softness of her skin against his palm and very gently pressed his lips against hers. He felt her hand wrap around his neck pulling him closer to her as she tried to deepen the kiss immediately, trying to feel something else than the emptiness she had been feeling since the gunshot sounded in her ear. Parting their lips, their tongues danced together as Calleigh started demanding more of Eric. He was trying to take it slow knowing she was fragile at the moment but she was making it incredibly impossible. He wasn't sure they should be doing this especially after they had promised the last time it happened that they shouldn't be doing it again. He didn't want her to think that he was taking advantage of her, even if she was the one asking him to do it.

With his hand moving up her side, Calleigh moaned in his mouth breaking the kiss as she felt his hand cupping her breast. She was moving fast wanting him...needing him out of his clothes as she started pulling his shirt off him breaking the kiss and then threw her own shirt off her head. His eyes grew darker as he watched her taking the lead momentarily undressing them. Who would have told them when they made love the first time that it would happen again and again.

As they laid there half naked on the couch, Calleigh moved quickly kissing him hungrily, as she climbed on top of him. Her hands were framing his face, her lips pressing against his, her tongue tangling with his as she pressed her now naked chest against his. Eric ran his fingers through her hair as she shifted slightly her head to pull her hair to one side, feeling the other hand moving up her bare back, as he pressed her body closer to him. She broke the kiss then, dropping her head back, guiding his mouth to her neck. Wild sensations travelled across her body, her already swollen lips parting in a silent 'oh' at first until a loud moan escaped her mouth practically in his ear and Eric growled possessively. The thought that he was the one making her moan like that was driving him crazy and making it incredibly hard to maintain the control he was trying to keep.

'Bed' she whispered..

Eric cupped her face in both hands and looked straight in her eyes 'Are you sure?' he asked her.

'Take me to bed Eric' she told him her eyes and voice full of lust...thick and deep. So Calleigh got off him and took his hand in hers helping him up and Eric cupped her face again with both hands and crushed his lips hard against hers as she wrapped her arms around his neck. He hoisted her up, his arms supporting her weight from under her butt as he walked them slowly towards the bedroom. She was rubbing her sex against him letting him feel the heat and Eric almost tripped at the thought, supporting the fall against the wall. She felt him press his erection against her and Calleigh broke the kiss as she moaned loudly. All thoughts of Hagen and all the shit that went down that day forgotten for the time being. She was lost in him, in them, in everything he was inflicting on her. She was finally feeling something again and damn it, it felt so good.

'Forget the bed' she said letting her head drop back as Eric burried his face in her neck, his hands massaging her breasts 'Take me here' she told him as her hands ran on his head and back.

Eric growled at those words as his hand slid into her pants from behind grabbing her ass 'Jesus Calleigh...you're driving me crazy' he admitted the words slipping out of his mouth. It was easy to forget that they weren't a couple when they were like this. Calleigh whimpered at those words, feeling goosebumps covering her body which did not go unnoticed by Eric. He smiled against her skin as his lips continued to kiss where they could reach.

Letting her feet touch the ground momentarily, he disposed the rest of their clothing, now both completely naked.

He cupped her face with both hands looking into her now dark green eyes, taking a moment to let himself drown in them, before he closed the distance and kissed her passionately. There was just something in his eyes when he looked at her, something about the way that he was holding her face in his hands. Lifting her up, she wrapped her legs around his hips and arms around his neck as Eric centered himself against her opening and pushed himself inside of her. She cried loudly at the feeling of finally having him inside of her, whispering his name out loud. She arched her back, let her head drop back, pulled her hair to her right exposing the left side of her neck and Eric took the opportunity to cherish that spot he loved so much as he started moving in and out of her and when they finally came, the climax was out of this world just like the other two times they did it. His legs felt like jelly but somehow they held them both up temporarily before finally making it to bed. She climbed on the bed and Eric climbed after her, pulling her in his arms. At first she was quiet, and then just like that she burst into tears and Eric rocked her gently, his hand rubbing her back and his lips pampering the top of her head until she calmed down and then finally fell asleep and Eric held her through the rest of the night and woke up with her when she heard the gun going off again. He took care of her, been there for her, held her hair and rubbed her back when she ran to the bathroom to throw up after having a vivid nightmare of Hagen blowing his head off.

It was like they couldn't catch a break. It was one thing after the other, and when Eric lost his sister, Calleigh knew she needed to be there for him. She had been with him when Horatio called him. She wanted to tell him to go and be with his sister, that she would figure out all the clues and close this case on her own, but this was personal to him, so he had stayed, not that he had a choice with Horatio staying with Marisol himself. She had given him some time, knowing he needed time to grief on his own but then later, she had gone over to his place. She had knocked and then used her key to enter the dark condo. She found him exhausted...a complete mess on the floor. The condo had gotten tarnished with papers and cushions on the floor...all sorts of things looked out of place, but she didn't say anything. She had expected it really, that's why she had given him some time alone. She walked over to him, went down on her knees and cupped his face with her hands to make him look at her, before sliding her hands into his 'Come with me' she whispered and Eric didn't say anything. He just followed her. He watched her, leading them into his bedroom and knew what was coming. If he wanted to be honest, he didn't think about it. He only hoped she would come over simply because he wanted her company. He just wanted to be in her arms at the moment. That was all he wanted, all he was looking for...all he hoped for...but now as he watched her leading them into his bedroom...God he needed this. He knew she would make him forget the heartbreak momentarily and that would be enough. She would take his troubles away for a while and then she would hold him for the rest of the night just like he did when Hagen killed himself.

Entering the room, she pushed him to sit on the edge of the bed and moved between his legs and started undoing his buttons. He was watching her, his hands on her thighs moving up to her hips and down again. He watched her push her hair behind her ear and when the buttons were all done she started pushing his shirt off.

'Cal' he whispered and she looked at him 'You don't have to do this' he told her even if he really wanted her to. The last thing that he wanted now was for her to stop even if it wasn't in his plans at first but he had to tell her.

'I know' she told him 'But I want to. I want to be there for you just like you were there for me' she explained.

'I just don't want you to think that I was expecting this' he told her sincerely.

'I know Eric...let me take your mind off things' she told him as she let her hands roam up his chest and then she leaned down and captured his lips. She kissed him slowly but intentional...letting the gates to her heart open, letting him feel what she keeps locked away. The passion started pouring, his hands started moving up to her ass, up to her back pulling her closer to him. It didn't take much to get him into it. The kiss quickly intensified, their tongues picked up the dance as his tongue roamed in her mouth making sure to trace every corner. She felt him cross his legs at his ankles around her legs, practically trapping her as one hand moved to her head and Calleigh smiled because he loved doing that. He told her the first time they did this 'God I love your hair Cal...I love putting my fingers through it'. He had told her while they had been kissing like this and he had interrupted the kiss to tell her. She had smiled just like she did now, and bit on his bottom lip and sucked on it and Eric growled at the action.

She broke the kiss and he looked at her, his eyes dark with lust now as his hands moved to her hips and God how she loved the feel of his hands on her hips. It felt intimate in a way. His hands just fit so perfectly well. There was just something about the way that he touches her like that. She pushed him on his back and started undoing his pants, and when that part of clothing was taken care off, she took care of him. In the past three times that they had sex or made love or whatever, she had never went down on him. She touched him sure, how could she not, but she had never touched him, and Calleigh realized it has always been more about her. Well the second time they didn't play at all, just straight to the point but it still had been mind blowing. He watched her touch him, watched her take him in her mouth, and Eric had to try and keep control of himself or he was going to embarrass himself just like a teenager having sex for the first time would. His hand had moved to her hair as she sucked on him and God knows he was never going to forget his moment as he made sure to watch her at least for a moment, needing to have this memory locked away.

'Cal' he whispered huskily as he reached out to her.

She let go of him, crawled on top of him and he captured her in a fierce hot passionate kiss that almost left her breathless and when she moaned in his mouth, he turned them around and Calleigh let him take control of the situation then, knowing that now he was into, his mind was into and nothing else. He removed the rest of her clothes, leaving her just as naked, fingered her and then went down on her, and God that had been incredible. She just couldn't keep quiet, couldn't stop moaning and when she came she screamed his name and then he had crawled on top of her, captured her mouth again and finally joined their bodies as he rocked them and pounded hard and fast and as much as he wanted to drag this out, as much as he wanted more, he just needed to reach the finish line. His mind focused on her body, on every place her hands were touching, on her sounds, her body and God Eric just couldn't control himself anymore.

'Come with me' he muttered as he reached between them to get her closer.

She let go not long after and he came and it was wonderful.

It was wonderful then and only God knows how they both felt now as they were about to do it for the first time as official lovers. She had just gotten the all clear from the doctors after the scare they had when Eric had to rush her to the hospital after inhaling a lot of smoke. She had terrified the hell out of him and Eric could still see how her face had turned red, the panic in her eyes when she couldn't breathe, how her body felt. He closed his eyes and tried to push the damning images away from his mind. Now was not the time but Calleigh noticed and she smiled at him as she broke the kiss.

'Hey...I'm right here' she told him.

'I know...I just...you scared the shit out of me not too long ago...I'm just so grateful to be holding you in my arms now' Eric told her.

'I know...let's just not think about that now' she told him. Her green eyes were sparkling as she looked straight in his eyes and Eric let his fingers trail down her beautiful face 'Make love to me Eric' she told him and Eric groaned as he let his forehead rest against hers.

'God Cal...you have no idea how much I've dreamed of hearing you say those words to me' he muttered.

'I know' she whispered as her hands moved up his chest. At the moment, he was standing in just a towel wrapped up at his waist as he had forgotten to take a boxer shorts in with him. She had surprised him as soon as he walked out of the shower and found her in a silky lilac nightdress waiting for him. He had stopped dead in his tracks, staring at her because he was pretty sure that was not what she was wearing before he stepped into the bathroom.

'Cal?' he asked before swallowing hard, his brown eyes growing dark as he took her in. She was sitting on the edge of the bed, one leg on the other, looking divinely breathtaking.

She smiled wickedly as she approached him and her hands went up his torso, up his chest and Eric chuckled nervously. She cupped his face and kissed him senseless ending the kiss by biting playfully on his lower lip 'I want you Eric' she whispered, her arms round his neck now, his hands on her waist moving gently up and down.

'Calleigh what about...?' he started asking her.

'I'm fine Eric. The doctors gave me the go ahead...if I can go for my usual jog, I sure as hell can have sex' she told him and Eric growled at the word, swallowing hard. She had wanted to do it three days after she got home from hospital but Eric had insisted they wait until she had the okay from her doctors because he was not going to do anything that might send her back to that place. She had pouted and Eric had chuckled and muttered how cute she looks when she does that and Calleigh had threatened to kill him if he ever used that word on her again, and Eric had burst out laughing and pulled her in his arms kissing her forehead.

And now that she was fine and the doctors had given her the green light, Calleigh wasted no time. She undid the towel letting it drop to floor, leaving him in all his glory and started pampering his chest with sweet soft wet kisses. She could feel his body tremble slightly under her touch, his heartbeat picking up pace. His hand had immediately found his favorite spot on the back of her head and Calleigh smiled.

'Tell me' she whispered.

'Tell you what?' he asked her as his hand moved to the side of her face so he could look at her.

'Tell me how much you love trailing your fingers in my hair' she told him. Usually she wouldn't dare, but with Eric she was always different...did things different...felt empowered being vocal with him. The man simply gave her strength while he left her in control and independent.

Eric smiled at her 'Oh I see...it turns you on does it?' he teased.

'Mmhhmm' she hummed.

He let his fingers trail into her hair, feeling her silky golden locks find its way between his fingers, bent down and buried his face in the crook of her neck, finding that spot that always made her shiver and weak in the knees 'God I love your hair Cal...so beautiful and silky' he muttered and Calleigh moaned 'You have no idea...how many times...I dreamt of running my fingers through your hair' he muttered against her neck.

'Oh God' she whispered 'Tell me...tell me what you dreamt' she told him.

Eric chuckled 'Something kinky' he replied as he lifted his head to look at her an amused look on his face.

'Eric' she whispered feeling his words turning her on and Eric was really enjoying this side of her. He had no idea she could be turned on by this. She could only imagine what he dreamt and then she had a thought. She could tell that he was enjoying this, and well two could play this game 'Well I tell you what...' she started telling him and then she reached for his head and lowered it so she could speak in his ear 'Well one day I'll surprise you and you can do whatever you dreamed of' she told him and Eric groaned at her words. He was already imagining her in sexy lingerie and him pulling her hair.

'Jesus Cal' he replied and Calleigh laughed only until Eric claimed her mouth, kissing her hungrily now. Deepening the kiss, as they angled their hands, Eric pushed Calleigh slowly on top of the bed, his mouth still on hers, as he crawled over her, keeping his weight off her as he supported himself on his hands. Shifting only slightly, she felt one hand move down her side and back up again, landing on her left breast. She felt him massage it for her, his thumb rubbing over her pointed nipple. She could feel her body respond to his touch and Calleigh whimpered as he exposed her globe and took it into his mouth. She arched her back and cupped the back of his head, holding him right there, as Eric continued to kiss and tease her breast, his other hand now finding the right one. He shifted between the two globes and Calleigh could feel the fire building in the pit of her stomach. She whimpered as Eric continued focusing on her breasts, knowing how much it turned her on, the attention to her breasts as he shifted from one globe to the other.

Apart from that, she could feel his tip brush against her flesh, teasing her and suddenly she wanted him lower, so she placed her hand on his head and started pushing him to move lower. Eric got the hint and started on his way, pressing wet kisses along the trail, and when he reached his destination he hovered and licked his lips and a moan escaped her mouth. She watched him press his lips against the inside of her thigh, and Calleigh could feel her juices seeping out.

'Eric' she whispered in a plea and Calleigh thought he was going to make her wait but instead he licked her and Calleigh couldn't help it 'Aaahhh' she cried as she arched her back. She was on fire today. She had ached for him for so long...wanted to make love to him since his confession at the hospital but her health held her back. Wanted him since the last time they had sex almost three years ago, and God how did she survive not being with him like this for so long?

The sound of her moan ringing in his ear, made him growl, his fingers pressing into her thighs and Eric dove right in, his tongue licking her, as he flicked and sucked her bead in a rather fast pace. There was just no holding back anymore. No more teasing. He wanted to make her cum, wanted to make her cry and shout his name, wanted to watch her fall over the edge again, again and again. His tongue dove deep inside of her and Eric could see her fist the sheets. Her breathing was starting to get heavy so he continued but reached out for her breast and altered his tongue between flicking and sucking, hard and fast and then she went over the edge and screamed his name.

Her release was still echoing when Eric pushed two digits inside her heat, pumping in and out of her with a quick pace as his thumb rubbed her clit and damn it she came again, and Eric just wanted to be inside of her now. He had wanted to take things slow, drag this out but with all the moaning she was doing, it was just impossible to do. He crawled on top of her, captured her lips into a fiery kiss, centered himself and pushed inside of her. She grabbed onto him, kissed him hard, scratched his back and continued to moan and cry his name. Every time he pounded into her she cried 'Ooohhh...oh God...aaahhh...Eric' and damn it, it was too hard to keep control of himself. He assaulted her neck and hammered himself hard and fast, in and out and Calleigh took every bit of it, enjoyed every trust and then she was cuming and screaming his name and Eric lost it. He let himself go as his release broke through and Calleigh held him, feeling the ripples of his release, and God it felt so good.

He fell by her side then, panting hard while Calleigh ran her hand through her now sweaty hair 'Wow...that was...wow' she said with a satisfied grin on her face.

'Jesus Cal...you were on fire' he muttered still catching his breath.

Her smile only grew at that remark and Calleigh turned on her side, popping her head up on her hand, her elbow on her pillow 'That good huh?' she teased and Eric laughed.

'You have no idea' he replied letting her having it. He could see the satisfied look on her face, and Eric was just happy to be the one putting it there.

'Well you're not so bad yourself Delko' she told him and Eric chuckled at that name calling.

'Come here' he told her and Calleigh snuggled into him while Eric pulled the sheets up to cover them. He kissed the top of her head and Calleigh smiled happily.

'Finally' she muttered.

'What?' he asked a chuckle escaping his mouth, not sure to what she was referring.

'I've been wanting to make love to you again since the last time it happened' she told him, her fingers dancing between the lines of his abs.

'Well that makes two of us then' he replied pressing his lips to her temple 'I don't know how we managed to wait so long' he said.

'We missed one' she blurted out and Eric looked at her realizing to what she was referring. They had always had sex when something bad happened, well except for the first time that it happened.

'Mmm...that one was too close to home' Eric whispered.

'Yeah' she said feeling her mind drifting to that time. It was why she had run into Jake's arms instead of Eric's. The emotions she had felt during that period were just too much...they scared her. They were too complex to analyze and Calleigh was just terrified to go down that rabbit hole, but damn it now that she has landed...it was just wonderful.

'Doesn't matter now...What matters is now. We are right here' Eric told her.

'Right were we should be' Calleigh told him and with that she kissed him, snuggled further into him and for the first time she was right were she should be...with him.