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Do you ever feel like you're just stuck? Like you can't move on from something? Well that's me at this moment. Maybe it's just cause of everything I had to process today but it's definitely affected me deeply. First Doc tells me that I'm mutating….but he doesn't know what into and then…Wolverine asking me to take Lynx under my wing? I mean I've always wanted a side kic-I mean partner- I mean…..sigh….but maybe it's a good thing.

I'm running out of time. After school had finished and the poking and prodigy from the Conners…I've been feeling off the entire day. Like things aren't as they should be. Internally speaking. Even my normal reflexes feel more…subdued. As if something is wrapping a cocoon around itself and preparing it's growth. God…What I wouldn't do for some answers….maybe it's best this way. Oh no Kitty…. Great going Parker. Got a lunch planned with a pretty girl and now you may have to keep it casual incase well…incase you become something monstrous. I whipped off my web and grabbed the wall of a building leaning against it.

"This blows…" I groan. "And I don't have any action tonight to keep my mind off this." I stood and stretched. "Maybe that's a good thing for the city…but not when I have a problem I need figured out. And the number of people I can contact for help…is drastically low." I climbed onto the tip of the roof looking around. "And…i'm talking to myself once again….good job Spider-Man." I commented to myself.

I looked around before I noticed something on a roof and slid down to it using my web to angle my descent till I stopped on it. "What are you?" I picked it up and it looked like one of those old school lucky cat statues you always saw. "Where did you come from?" I ran a hand over it pulling my glove away to discover that it was black paint on the inside of the other layer. "A black ca-" I grunted as a kick in my back sent me tumbling over the edge…..Really spidey sense? Had to be dull right now? I shot a web to catch myself and spun around whipping myself back onto the roof and my jaw dropped in my mask. "Cat?"

"Long Time Spider…." She thrusted her hands outwards, her finger tips having some kind of claw like design on them.

"Cat….I haven't seen you…"

"Since you left my father behind in prison."

"Your father guaranteed those criminals never got out!" I yelled. "And he still has to pay for what he did!"

"It was an accident!"

"It was everything to me!" I ran at her swinging and punching off a pipe before webbing after her as she sprung backwards. "Why can't you understand why I couldn't let him out?!"

"Because he's my father!" She used her grapple hook to spin back around at me, only giving me a nanosecond to truly dodge it before she rolled to her feet and flashed her claws."Wouldn't you do anything for your father?! What's even your reason for letting a man who committed an accident stay in prison? Why is your heart so frozen with rage!?"

"I don't have to answer that!"

She scowled. "You owe me it!"

"I owe you nothing!"

"I saved your life from the Goblin despite what you did that night!" She argued.

"And so you think that permits you to be in the know?" I glared with my mask pointing at her. "Walter Hardy deserves to rot away in that prison for the rest of his life….and I won't let him ever taste freedom!" I jumped at her as we fought back and forth. She got in a few more good hits than I'll ever care to admit to anyone.

"God your so insufferable! You won't even admit it wasn't his fault!"

"He took a life!"

"BY ACCIDENT!"

"WHY SHOULD IT MATTER?!" Emotions are rising…

"BECAUSE HE'S ALL I HAVE LEFT!" She shouted at me.

"...Cat…" I paused, unsure how to continue.

"My mother passed away from cancer… ... .so when I heard of a golden opportunity to get my father out…I took it." She explained it to me.

"Cat…I'm sorry I didn't know.." I walked over slowly toward her and placed my hand on her shoulder.

"Why didn't you help me…"

"I…can't tell you Cat. I wish I could, just so you could understand why I instantly couldn't help you, but if I do it puts everything and everyone I know at risk." I tried to explain.

"He hurt you somehow…" She stared at me as if coming to a realization. "That's why." She came to the conclusion and all I did was nod. "God I'm so stupid…I should have realized it." She sat down on the edge of the building and I sat down as well.

"I didn't know he was all you had left." I said as well. "I can understand that."

"Looks like we've both been stuck in a moment huh Spider?" She pulled one leg up and hugged it as she sat there. "You in whatever my father did and me…from that night….I hated you for what you didn't do."

"And I will never stop apologizing to you for it…but I wouldn't change what I did."

"I know you won't Spider…." She smirked. "It's what makes you so damned noble."

"Ha…haha….ha." I rolled my eyes behind my mask.

"Ya know it's not the only night I get stuck on…" She grinned a look of mischievousness in her eye that simply told me I should be afraid. "The night from when you wore that puuuuuuuurfect black suit and we went cruise busting."

I gulped slightly. "Ehehaha….that night huh?" I remember it in detail. It was the night I first used the symbiote. When the Chameleon, Tinker, and who would become Mysterio used my identity to perform crimes….It was also the night she had kissed me…not that we ever brought it up to each other again. Until now it seems.

"Yup…I am sad you ditched the black and white though. It looked good on you." She grinned a bit, biting her lip.

"Weren't you just trying to attack me a moment ago? And now your flirting?"

"What can I say, I'm multifaceted," Cat shrugged. "Though….I was curious."

"I hear that's dangerous for Cats."

" Was that your first kiss?" She asked plainly.

"I um what? No…" I stumbled out my words, taking off guard.

"I could tell."

"What was it bad?"

"No, just inexperienced." She leaned towards me causing me to stand and back up.

"What are you doing Cat?" I walked till I was against the wall and she pushed against me.

"Well….I figured we could try again…and this time….we stop hiding who we are." She reached for his mask as she grabbed at her own. "Just take off these silly things….and be who we truly want to be." She leaned in.

"Wow, hold up…" I grabbed her hand. "Easy there Cat. "

"Come on Spider. Can't you see we have a natural connection?" She expressed with her hands open.

"It's not that simple Cat." She sighed at my response and I looked down. "Especially right now.."

"Why?" She asked as she looked at me. "You do seem a bit different….and I don't recall you being instantly willing to go into a yelling and fighting match with me like you did tonight….and I got the drop on you too. Are you sick?"

"In a way…I'm trying to fix it but…It may be too late."

"Too late?" She asked concerned and reached for his cheek.

"It's complicated…maybe another night."

"We'll see. I'll be in town for quite a while." She expressed and pulled my mask up over my nose.

"Hey what are-" I mumbled as she kissed me.

"So Expect me to drop by from time to time to see you." Black Cat smiled at me. "And get yourself cured. I'm not done with you quite yet."

"I wish it was that simple." I admitted.

"Well why are you moping around? The Spider I know wouldn't give up…So why does it feel like you are?" She leaped off the side of the building firing her grappling hook and took off as I stood there and whistled slightly.

"Wow…." I leaned back against the wall a bit. "Now that….was something else." Wow what was I saying?! I had a lunch….thing….tomorrow with Kitty. I rubbed my mouth with my mask before closing it over my chin and back in my suit again. Black Cat was right about one thing though. I've been stuck in more than one moment. Ever since finding out today that there may be a chance I will not be myself I've been looking at everything in a very negative way today. But If I can train Lynx to be the next hero this City needs then even if it does go wrong New York City will have a brand new hero. Either Way…

I won't stop fighting! She's right I can't give up! I stood up from my perch in the moonlight and closed my fists determination rushing through my veins once again for the first time in what felt like a while today. This will not be my neogenic nightmare! And Black Cat reminded me of one final thing. Something I had forgotten from Uncle Ben.

I'm sorry I forgot that Uncle Ben….But I promise you…and Cat. I will never be stuck in a moment where I can't get out again. I shot a web and swung out to the city feeling myself ready for whatever challenges approached me….