Oneshot: Emily commits suicide when she comes out as gay because her mom isn't supportive
I had heard my parents arguing after I told my dad I'm gay, I can hear the yelling, my mom thinks I'm disgusting, dad tells her to just be grateful I'm healthy and am not on drugs or something
"I'm leaving to go see my friends" I say not even caring if they have a problem with it, I send out an S.O.S text asking the girls to bring their moms explaining I had come out to my parents and my mom flipped out and that I wanted to come out to the other mom's, just get it over with
I'm going to Spencer's we all met up there, I told the other mom's what happened as the 3 girls and I were downstairs with them surrounding me protectively, it is a really upsetting situation for me, I didn't want to have to explain 3 different times what had gone down with my parents, the other mom's were going to find out about my sexuality one way or another, surprisingly the moms all gave me a giant hug individually, I started crying, I didn't expect support like that from them
"Some people are just bigots there's nothing wrong with you being gay, it's not a huge deal, don't let your parents get to you honey, if you want to spend the night to take space from your parents your more than welcome here anytime" Mrs.H says
"I don't care if your gay, it doesn't change how I think about you, your always welcome at my house, I'm sorry your mom reacted this way and that your parents are against lgbt people, it really is pure bigotry, I was raised in foster care and had gay friends growing up, it never bothered me" Ms.M says
"We're not going to be bigots to you just because your gay sweetie, I'm Bi, I just don't talk about it for the most part, for the exact reason that some people are just bigots, your not alone Emily, we've got your back, your always more than welcome at my house, I care about you very deeply as one of my daughters best friends and as one of your teachers" Mrs. M says, I could tell she hadn't had the greatest experience coming out either by the look on her face
"Thank you, that means a lot, I'm just hurt by my mom, at least my dad didn't put me down" I say emotional crying I was really upset and for a valid reason, it was completely cruel what my mom was doing to me, she was supposed to love me unconditionally
"Well, as long as we're talking about it, I'm kind of Bi too, we're your friends you know we don't judge you or think of you any differently, you already told us" Aria says surprising me, she was with our English teacher "I figured you were Bi Aria, listen Emily, why don't you give it a day to cool off, you can spend the night with Aria, your mom may be more understanding tomorrow, and I'm going to call her and give her a talking to as an lgbt mom" Mrs.M says
"Yeah as long as we're coming out, I'm pretty much non binary, I was just afraid to say anything because of exactly what happened to Emily, I didn't want to get put down and rejected" Spencer says, no wonder she was kind of androgenous
"Spencer, you could of told me, I can't speak for your dad, I would of supported you even if I don't totally understand, If you don't identify with a gender that's ok with me, I don't mind, if you want me to start using "they" pronouns for you I'll adjust, you just let me know ok? I accept you just as you are Spencer and I do support you, your still my child honey and you always will be" Mrs.H says "Thank you mom for not disowning me, that means a lot" Spencer says emotional, she hugs her mom tightly crying
"Thank you, I think I'll take you up on the offer to spend the night Mrs.M, I don't really want to go home right now" I say being honest "Let me text Byron and let him know what's going on, do you girls want to hang out for a little bit?" Mrs.M asks "It's a little bit late, we really should all get going home" Hannah says
"Yeah we'll see each other at school tomorrow it's ok, you can go Em, get some rest" Spencer says "And remember we're here for you as your friends parents even if your mom's being an anti lgbt bigot" Veronica says "We don't want you to feel like you have no one to talk to or are alone, you have the girls and us ok?" Ms.M says
"I really appreciate everything you guys are doing for me, honestly I was afraid you wouldn't want me around your kids anymore" I say "Nah, we're understanding and supportive, come on lets get you back to my place, and you can call me Ella, I don't mind, you've been friends with Aria so long your practically family" Mrs.M says
I hug the other girls goodbye and leave with Aria and her mom, "Just to clarify I have a boyfriend mom, you don't have to worry about Emily and I doing anything" Aria says "I know, it's ok, you guys need to go to bed before 11pm though, you have school tomorrow" Mrs.M says letting us in the house "Your home, Emily I'm really sorry about your mom, she's being a real jerk to you, go on upstairs with Aria and get ready for bed, Ella is going to call your mom Emily" Mr.M says gently
"Thank you for letting me stay, if I'm being honest I felt like jumping off the bell tower after what I heard my mom say about me" I say bluntly "Well if you feel like hurting yourself please come to Aria or us ok? I can imagine what your going through my mom was a total bigot when I came out" Mrs.M say "I'm sorry you had a similar experience" I say genuinely feeling bad for her "Go on upstairs and get some rest, I'll handle your mom" Mrs.M says gently squeezing my hand
Aria and I went up to her room, she gave me one of her sets of oversized pyjamas to sleep in, I couldn't help but cry "It'll be ok Em, if your mom is that much of an asshole that she kicks you out, you can stay here with me and my family, I'm sure she'll come aroud after talking to my mom though, trust me she has a way with people" Aria says
She hugged me gently, I collapsed into her in tears "What if my mom completely disowns me? I don't know how to cope" I ask scared
"Then it's her loss Em" Aria says on some level I know she's right I could hear Mrs.M downstairs in a heated argument, she raised her voice at my mom stating that my moms behavior had made me suicidal and she needed to choose if she could tolerate a gay kid or if she'd rather have a dead one, Mrs.M was very blunt
My mom was being a jerk to Mrs.M, I think my mom was starting to get the message though, apparently my mom diidn't care if I died from what I could hear of the conversation which just hurt even more, she seemed to of at least apologized for going off on Mrs.M and acknowledged that she was really in a nasty mood
When the conversation was over Mrs.M came upstairs and checked on us, she hugged us goodnight and kissed us on the cheek "If you need anything Emily just let us or Aria know ok Emily? give your mom a little time she may come around, your welcome to stay here as long as you need" Mrs.M says "Thank you, goodnight " I say
Aria and I go to bed before I even know it, we have to get up and ready for school, I had to go home, change and get my books, Aria accompanies me, when I get home my mom is waiting in the living room with the cruelest look I've ever seen my dad looked at me sympathetically "Your mom is overreacting, I'm sorry Emily, I don't approve of your sexuality but your still my daughter, we talked to Ella last night she made her point, I don't want you hurting yourself over this" dad says
"Your not my child anymore, I'm kicking you out you don't live here anymore get your junk out of here after school or it'll be on the curb, I could care less if you live or not, go kill yourself for all I care honestly, I don't want you anymore, your going to hell!" mom yells I burst into tears "Pam you not kicking her out! if you kick her out I might as well leave too, I'm sorry but I choose my daughter over you" dad says surprising me
"Really, your going to tell me your ok with her being gay suddenly Wayne? she deserves to be disowned, she's disgusting to me" mom says coldly I burst into tears " your hurting Emily, she was over at my house crying last night because she was suicidal, if she hadn't reached out to her best friends for help she'd probably be dead right now, she was seriously considering jumping off the bell tower, I swear if she kills herself because of what your putting her through I will never forgive you, she's gay, you don't have to like it to accept her" Aria says defensively holding my hand
"I'm serious, Emily has been officially kicked out of this house, she's not allowed to live here anymore because she chose to be gay" my mom says "Pam, get out of this house, your the one getting kicked out I'm getting a divorce, I told you, I'm choosing our child over you" dad says mom stormed out in a huff "I'm done with both of you" mom yells
"Go get ready for school we'll talk when you get home ok?" dad says "Ok, I'll come home after school" I say heading upstairs with Aria, I change and grab my stuff for school
"Let's go" I say to Aria as we head out, getting in the car, we get to school, I only make it through half the day before I get overwhelmed with suicidal ideations, I go home knowing no one will be there, I search the medicine cabinets
I find a bottle of pain pills I pop the whole thing and go lie down, this was it, I had made the choice to die, I didn't want to live if my mom was going to be this way that was it for me, I was in too much emotional and mental pain, I knew I had support but I just couldn't do it anymore my own mom had disowned me
How was she going to feel when she finds out I'm dead? Everything starts to get fuzzy, my breathing gets shallow, I'm running out of oxygen, it all goes blank suddenly I'm floating outside myself, I see my dead body lying on the bed not breathing anymore
Eventually dad comes upstairs and finds me "Em! Emily! damn it please no, this is exactly what I was afraid of when the school said you missed the 2nd half of the day" He was crying, he got out his cellphone and dialed mom's number
"She's dead! she killed herself because of you Pam! I came home and found Emily in bed overdosed, dead, I will neve forgive you, we lost our only child, she was my child" dad cries into the phone "Good, I'm glad she's dead one less lgbt person on this planet, they make me sick to my stomach" mom says cruelly, dad hangs up he calls 911
They have to send CSU out and the coroner, my dad was a wreck, I hadn't realized how much it would affect him and everyone but my mom, he called Aria who immediately burst into tears and called the other girls who rushed over to her place, I could see them clear as day as they met up with each other at Aria's crying their eyes out, even Aria's parents were in tears "I can't believe she went home and killed herself in the middle of school, I should of checked on her when she didn't show up for English" Mrs.M says hugging Aria close, I could see how torn up Mrs.M is "We all should of checked on her after she just disappeared at lunch" Aria cries
"We lost one of our best friends, she was such a kind, sweet person, I'll never forgive Emily's mom, We're all going to miss her so much" Spencer cries "Yes, we are going to miss her forever, she left a hole in our hearts, we all loved Emily so much, like she was our family" Mrs.M says, the girls go home for dinner after talking and trying to console each other for hours, they were all so upset
I see Spencer walk in her front door in tears, her mom was home but her dad apparently was refusing to come home because of Spencer? I hoped Spencer didn't kill herself like I did "Emily's dead, she left school, overdosed and killed herself, I lost one of my best friends today mom, she was so important to us, I should of known something was wrong and checked on her, stopped her somehow" Spencer cries leaning against the wall nearly collapsing, her mom immediately rushes to hug her crying daughter, crying herself Mrs.H was visibly extremely emotional and upset
She wrapped her arms tight around Spencer holding the crying teen to her, who completely collapsed into her mothers arms clinging to her "Honey I'm so sorry, Emily was a good person, one of a kind, she can't be replaced, she will be deeply missed around here, her mom should feel like crap for pushing her daughter to commit suicide, promise me you'll come to me if your ever feeling like hurting yourself or talk to someone at least, especially with how your dads acting, I don't want to lose you too honey, the suicide rate with lgbt people is so high" Mrs.H cries
"I promise you mom, I will come to you if I'm ever feeling that way, I do feel a little suicidal but I'd never act on it I have your support, I see how much everyone's hurting from losing Emily, I don't want to put people through that, I can only imagine how devastated you'd be if that was me because of dad, who's not being supportive and left us" Spencer says
"If it was you that committed suicide I'd be completely lost Spence, I'd never forgive myself and would be completely heartbroken, I'm half tempted to divorce your dad over how he's treating you if he doesn't divorce me, pretending non binary people don't exist, I thought he would at least try to understand you a little better, at least I put in the effort and did research" Mrs.H says
Suddenly I see Hannah "I can't believe she's really gone, it feels surreal we were all there supporting her the other day, her mom deserves to have to live with the guilt, I know how close you and Emily were, she was a really kind, good person, I'm going to miss her around here, it is really tragic, if you need to talk I'm right here Sweetie" Ms.M says crying hugging Hannah who was still in tears "I'm going to miss her so much mom" Hannah cries
Suddenly I see a blinding light under a door, i open it, my grandparents and relatives who had passed on were on the other side of it "You had your whole life ahead of you, come in, I guess it's your time" my grandma says I entered the door, it was like a dream, I was sitting in her house watching my life flash before my eyes, then we all were talking, there was no sleep here, I guess dead people don't need to sleep
Suddenly I see the principal giving a lecture on lgbt people and explaining I was dead, he was offering counseling to anyone that needed it, even if it was because they were lgbt themselves, then I see my own funeral, my dad had me cremated, my friends are all gathered around crying with their parents, a lot of people came, including my dad who could barely get through the service without completely losing it, my mom wasn't there, no one had a bad thing to say about me
People we're really hurting though, I hadn't realized how much my actions would effect others, I didn't want to see my friends and their mom's heartbroken, everyone was distraught, part of me wished it was a bad dream and that I could take it all back, I know what I did though and I can't undo it, I'm dead now all because my mom disowned me over being gay, I let her behavior cost me my life, if I had just been honest with the girls, I'd still be here, they'd of never let go of me