Solitary confinement was an evil, wicked thing that the Hokage could have done to Hinata. She would have rather been locked up with the most vilest, disgusting human beings on the planet than be locked away to something worse then that.
Her own thoughts.
Being locked away in absolute silence were you could just do nothing but THINK. That was the worse punishment she could have gotten.
Just like Hinata had thought. Lord Danzo came to her aid and got her from lock up. It took about 8 hours, and while that isn't exactly a long time to be locked up. That is a long time to be left to ones thoughts.
Just…thinking. About everything.
Is Lord Danzo really what everyone says?
Why is this so hard for her to comprehend? It is obviously clear the man has been lying to her. Pushing negative agenda's and propaganda inside her mind for probably years. She knows that he was the one to place the order for Itachi to attack the Uchiha clan. She knows all the things Lord Danzo has done behind the Hokage's back. She KNOWS that he cannot be trusted.
Yet why?
Why was this so hard for her to accept and take ownership to her part of working for him. For working under a murderer. An evil, evil man.
Simple. She wouldn't be able to look herself in the mirror ever again without seeing the people she was assigned to kill looking back at her. What if those people were literally innocent people. That had wives, children, husbands, lives.
Hinata was in deep. She hated to admit this, but she was beginning to feel that she fucked up. Four years too late. That maybe she would have been better off fighting off the politics of the Hyuga clan or even being sealed.
No. Never that.
True. She did what she did to have her freedom. So her sister could have her freedom. She basically was okay with vanishing off the face of the earth just so her and her sister could be free.
Now look at her. A mess. An absolute horrible MESS.
Just the idea that she made a mistake in joining ROOT and Lord Danzo, who equivalent to the Devil, and that Uzumaki Naruto was RIGHT…it made her want to vomit.
This couldn't be her life right now. If everything Lady Tsunade was saying about Lord Danzo was right…than she was bailed out of lock up and placed into custody by the very man that supposedly wants her dead.
This was horrible. This is why she didn't want to be wrong and this is why she didn't want to be left to her thoughts.
Something in her mind…just keeps telling her to ignore the outsiders. That they are lying and that Lord Danzo is a good man. That he is right. That he is ALWAYS right.
The voice in her mind was maddening.
Was she brainwashed? Did he brainwash her and do something to her mind? If he did, than when did he do this?
She's known in the past that Danzo is no stranger when it comes to doing such a thing, but would he do that to her too? Hinata didn't know. She was so confused and at the same time so numb. She pushed out the thought that this man had four years to do what he pleased with her fragile, 'daddy issues', angry mind.
OR, maybe her way of escaping guilt of being loyal to Lord Danzo was to make up the accusation that she was brainwashed by him.
How pathetic. She was losing her mind. She was being pathetic right now.
"You seem troubled Wire."
Hinata made no motion to really acknowledge Danzo other than her usual nod of her head. She was back in her usual ROOT gear with her mask on and she was thankful. She'd be mortified if Lord Danzo saw how…disheveled she looked right now. She didn't want to put an image out to him that she was probably breaking or something.
Whether that was true or not. Someone that was probably in the mist of having her killed was not who she wanted to show her weakness to right now.
"This Hokage. I know she says wicked things about me Wire. That I cannot be trusted. That I am an evil, vile man."
They sat in an empty room, nothing was in the room but Hinata, Danzo, two uncomfortable silver chairs and a metal silver table that separated the two.
Danzo was met with silence from Hinata.
"You know a lot of things Wire, but you do not know everything. You do not know how DISGUSTING those Uchiha's were. Did you know they were planning to coup the village. They were planning on betraying the Hidden Leaf Village."
This caught her attention and she turned her head from looking down at the table to looking at him.
"Uchiha Itachi was assigned the task to annihilate the clan. It would seem that he didn't finish the task for his brother was left alive. Now look. Look at all of this chaos he has caused as a result of it. What an evil breed of human beings."
Evil, Disgusting, chaos.
He's using certain words while talking to her for a reason. She wasn't new to this. She had seen him perform his mind games flawlessly.
"Do you see why I have done the things that I have done now Wire?"
It wasn't her place to give her opinion, she was trained that way. This was all rhetorical. "Yes Danzo-sama."
She could make out the slightest smile from the corner of his mouth twitch at her reply. She knew she wasn't resisting whatever he was going to do to her. She knew she was weak when it came to him.
"Now let me tell you about the vile things of the Hyuga clan and that Demon's brat."
Eight hours. She was locked up for EIGHT HOURS.
Naruto should know. He sat there outside of the prison and waited. He wanted to see. He wanted to see if Danzo really personally came and got her and he wanted to see her. He just wanted to see her demeanor. How she acted. How she looked.
He wanted to see Hinata.
A growing sick and odd fixation of his.
Why did he care what she was doing? All she did was lie. She played mind games and she happily accepted being a pawn to an evil sack of shit.
If he could think this realistically about Hinata, why couldn't he do the same for Sasuke? Why couldn't he leave either of them alone?
Fuck! Now his mind was crossing over into dangerous territory. He sat against a tree that was hidden from the hideout that Danzo had taken Hinata into. Naruto was sure he got the one up on Danzo, he was sure Danzo had no clue he was out there watching them.
Hinata on the other hand. He just KNEW that she knew he was there. She knew he was watching, and she didn't say anything about it. Did she want him to be there? Did she want him to sit there and just think about her and Sasuke?
That was a stupid notion for him to come up with in that foggy brain of his, but here he was thinking about the two. He always thought about the two and sometimes he felt ashamed about his thoughts.
'And you're in denial for thinking Sasuke is any different than Hinata!'
He had gotten mad when Sakura said the two dark haired troubled teens have almost the same situation going on. In his mind it wasn't the same!
Sasuke lost everything. His mom, his dad, his CLAN. He has nothing left, but a brother that killed his family. Sasuke was alone. Naruto understood how it felt to be alone. Naruto understood how it felt to be the only one. He could be Sasuke as a rogue-nin, it could have happened to him.
Hinata had everything. She had a big ass house. A family. A fucking personal guard for God sakes. An awesome team that has always been solid for her and a really nice and comforting sensei. That is how he often thought about Hinata, nice and comforting. That was what he thought about when he used to think about Hinata when they were younger.
She was nice. Comforting. A relaxed person andstrong. She wasn't a quitter! She was like him. She had the same ninja way and she trained super fucking hard on her own and she was always open for help and advice.
This made him pause in thought. Now that he thought about it. Hinata never really said much about her family. He learned bits and pieces from the Chunin exams, but she was pretty tight lip about her family. Only adding in that Neji was pretty much on the same level as being a brother to her and at one point they had a strong bond.
Neji did more so the talking, or he'd like to say insulting in the past. Another thing Naruto thought was amazing about Hinata. She forgave. Neji did and said some harsh, unforgivable things to her and she forgave him. She was amazing.
Was.
Naruto wondered if her mother was still alive. He had only seen Hinata's little sister and her father. He's sure that he heard that her mother passed away when Hinata was a kid from being sick. That's pretty rough, because her father Hiashi seems like a Class A douche at times.
He spoke to Hinata's team once and heard that Hinata at some point was sent to be trained under her sensei because her father didn't want to train her anymore. Another reason her father was a douche. Who would give up on their child like that?
Which was bringing Naruto to more rational thoughts. Yes, Hinata was given 'options', but honestly, those had to be the worse fucking options in history. Who would put a 13 year old through such trauma? What kind of fucking clan would do that? They were barely teenagers at the time for fucks sake. Out of hearing all the times Sasuke would boost about the Uchiha clan, he had never heard about clans being so…fucked up.
Naruto could admit that a lot of his friends that were in clans weren't treated how Hinata was. How could they do that to her, she was so young, innocent and PURE. He missed seeing her pureness so fucking much. He'd do anything for her to make another lunch for him that looked oddly like himself. He MISSED that!
He was beginning to make excuses for her like he did with Sasuke. It was something about the two of them that just got under his skin and he felt like he could never reach them. He could never help them because they were just so stuck in a dark place that him himself barely got out of at times.
This hate and disdain that he has for Hinata, he remembers having a while back for Sasuke. He couldn't stand looking at the guy or the ground he walked on. Now Sasuke was someone he thought about heavily, and Hinata was someone he was thinking about heavily, and he KISSED Hinata.
The feelings he felt for Hinata and Sasuke were so equal. Did that mean? He wanted some type of intimate and emotional relation with Hinata? Then that would mean he wanted the same relations with Sasuke too?
He covered his face and had to hold in a yell so he wouldn't be exposed. This was too much. This is why he didn't want to be left to his thoughts. He blamed Hinata. She knew he was here watching, and she just let him SIT here. Somewhere in his fogged up mind, that excuse man SENSE.
"You look as if you're about to have an panic attack."
If he didn't know the voice as being Kakashi-sensei then he would have done more than slightly jump at his voice. Other then that Naruto made no movement. "What are you doing here Naruto?"
Naruto was sure Kakashi knew what he was doing there. What a silly question. "I thought we were supposed to be keeping an eye on Hinata."
Kakashi leaned against the tree and continued to look down at Naruto, "Hmm, I would more so be keeping an eye on the Hyuga clan in case Hinata slipped from your sights around here and snuck off to the Hyuga clan at night. Last I checked you aren't really equipped with eyes that can pretty much help you see at night."
Naruto didn't say anything but took his head out his hands and looked ahead towards the hideout Hinata was taken into.
"But, I'm sure you're little crush on Lady Hinata has taken you this far to stalk the hideout she's in."
Naruto didn't say anything at first. He ignored how his heart was starting to have missed beats and how he was starting to breathe deeper. "Is that what this is all called? A crush? So I like her, and I don't really…hate her? That's why I'm acting like a total asshole?"
Kakashi looked off into the distance at the hideout before looking back at his student, "Sounds about right. It's not always sweet sayings and puppy dog eyes when you have feelings for someone Naruto."
Naruto bit his bottom lip and narrowed his eyes in frustration, "It doesn't make sense though. I…it just doesn't make sense."
Naruto heard Kakashi sigh and he looked up at him to see his sensei roll his eyes off to the side before looking back at Naruto. "Yes it does make sense Naruto. Just because you say you like Sakura, doesn't mean you like Sakura on that level. You can say it until your face turns blue. Sakura does not get you this riled up like it seems Hinata does…or Sasuke. So yes Naruto, it does make sense. You can feel this way for Hinata AND Sasuke. It is fine. It is normal. No one is going to shame you for liking both and if they do, then they aren't really someone you want in your life."
At that Naruto finally lit up like a flame all over and his face burned red. He felt so exposed. So caught and left open in that moment. "Wha?! What! No, no, no! That'snotwhat it is. Are you CRAZY? Don't say things like that sensei!"
Denial. He had denial bad about this.
Kakashi clearly was frowning as he gave Naruto a sharp look, "I don't like liars. Don't lie to me."
Naruto clamped his mouth shut and while his face was calming down from the fire red it was moments ago, he was still at a turmoil. He was still exposed. Kakashi knew. He couldn't lie to him.
"Thisisn'tNORMAL. Kakashi-sensei."
"Why? Because you think so? Or because you think they both hate you and will reject you?"
The heavy silence left was all the answer that Kakashi needed. "You're blind and a little stupid Naruto. Not stupid-stupid, more like immature-stupid. Along with socially inept. However, I think I'll leave this up to you to figure out on your own. I've done enough emotional support for the day. However before I go, word of advice Naruto. People like Sasuke and Hinata, they understand emotion. They know what it means to 'like' or 'love' someone. They just don't understand why they deserve to have someone feel that way about them. If you take my advice, calm down and stop being a loud mouth ditz, everyone and everything will turn out fine."
Naruto gave Kakashi a bewildered look as he watched his sensei leap away into the trees.
The term 'easier said then done' crossed Naruto's thoughts, and made him frown. If anything, things just got more complicated in his mind.
Sasuke knew that Karin would be needed when he went to Konoha, but her involvement would only be miniature. Suigetsu wasn't needed and honestly he didn't care if him going back to Konoha was a one-way suicide mission or not as long as he got to get ahold of Itachi.
It was like everyone just wasn't GETTING IT. No one understood the loneliness, the darkness that consumed him every fucking day. The mental images of his family, the blood on the walls, the DEATH. Death that always seemed to follow him, whether his eyes were opened or closed. He'd see his families death every single moment.
He HAD to avenge them.
Itachi couldn't walk away from this still breathing.
The darkness and loneliness he experienced he honestly didn't think anyone in this world could understand how he felt. That was until he really got to know that fucking blond moron.
Naruto understood. The messed-up part was Naruto didn't have to tell him he understood. Sasuke could just SEE it.
Depression is a real thing in their time of living. Especially in the lifestyle and profession they have chosen. So maybe it was easy for people to ignore the obvious depression coming off from the dobe.
Still, living under the conditions that Naruto lived under was a scream for help. True, he didn't have the home training that he and Sakura possessed, but still, it was as if Naruto just didn't CARE. Why would he? No one was coming to see him. No one really came to give him the proper attention on a daily. He was just given the basics to survive.
In everyone's eyes Naruto was a monster. He was the nine tails, not the jailer of it. He was the one all those years ago that killed innocent people. It was such a DUMB concept for people to categorize him in. Him and Naruto…they were all just KIDS when the world turned evil to them. When people turned evil against them.
Emotional trauma struck Naruto way before it hit him though.
Yet, Naruto just…the idiot just doesn't give up. He was like this fucking star, this bright, warm star that flashed and warmed everyone, but everyone just picks, and takes his light for granted. Naruto was a star that was reaching his peak and Sasuke didn't want to admit this, he'd go out on a date with Karin before he admitted this, but he was almost afraid that if Naruto just kept GIVING to those fucking leeches. If Naruto kept on giving than he'd reach his peak and have a supernova breakdown and he wouldn't shine anymore.
Whenever Sasuke thought about those people in the village he once called home for some reason he'd grow agitated. Certain people rubbed him the wrong way, the way they expect things from ninjas and had no real care about them. Then his mind would float to her.
That dark haired.
Ghostly eyed.
FUCKING DEVIL.
For some reason in her soul she cared about nothing but one thing, and that was to kill him. She was that much of a puppet that she wanted nothing more but to kill him. He barely said a mumble sound to the girl ever in their whole life of seeing one another. He knew absolutely NOTHING about her except that she was a Hyuga. A lesser Hyuga than the male Hyuga, Neji.
Well. That's what he thought of her, until she almost took him out this world way before he was ready to go. She actually put a fear in his body that he didn't know he had. He's been in plenty of near-death experiences with Team 7, but to be in a near-death situation alone. Knowing that there was a chance he couldn't avenge his clan and that he did all this BETRAYL for NOTHING.
That he hurt his teammates for nothing.
Disappointed his former sensei for NOTHING.
Hurt Sakura for nothing and put Naruto through all of this for NOTHING.
It would have given him the worse death at that moment and that miserable Hyuga almost made him go through all of that. He hated her.
The hollow look in her eyes. The bags that were under her eyes that weren't there before when they were younger. Her porcelain skin that looked soft and untouched because she probably perfected being an assassin and killing in the dark, so she barely got into combat altercations.
Everything about her screamed dark, deadly and void.
Still. He could see through her just as easily as he saw through Naruto, and he barely knew her.
She was acting like a mindless robot that just did what she was ordered to do. However, what this Hyuga girl didn't know was that he listened very intently to his teammates in the past and he knew for a fact that Sakura said multiple times that the female Hyuga had some serious feelings for Naruto.
To have feelings for Naruto meant you were just as empty as Sasuke himself. That you wanted salvation, that you wanted that warm light. She saw Naruto's warm light probably before he did, and she craved it just as much as he craved it.
She broke character when she was aiming to kill Sasuke. She let Naruto get under her skin and she showed that she still cared for him by showing any type of emotion towards Naruto at all.
It hurt her to treat Naruto the way that she was treating him. Sasuke could see that under her rough exterior. Something in Sasuke made him wonder if Hinata really wanted to kill him? Is she really wanted to fulfill this mission.
He wanted to know if the Hyuga girl was just as broken up about killing Sasuke as she was for hurting Naruto. Did she care about him or was he really just a target for her? Some of the things she's said to him was far too personal to seem as if he was just a number.
He really pondered this. He didn't want to, but the way she sawt him out to inform him of things and just made this mission of assassinating him so personal. It made him wonder. Maybe Sasuke was just so used to the female population giving him affection that he couldn't believe that this female truly hated him. Sasuke had never been on the 'dislike' end of the stick when it came to the opposite sex, so every time he thought about the Hyuga girl he would get into deep thought.
The rational side of his mind was glaring at him asking him why he even CARED. He shouldn't give two shits about her. He didn't know why he was having such…toxic thoughts about Naruto and the Hyuga at the moment. He was healed now. He was in perfect shape to go and pursue Itachi. He had no time for affection, constellations and hopes. He had no time for that at all. He had to leave now.
"Oh Sasuke! Before you leave, did you want to know some interesting things about why that Danzo man really wants you dead? It has to do with your brother."
Sasuke frowned as he looked at the Akatsuki man. What was this man's name again? Tobi?