A routine was good for someone recovering from anything. While in the hospital Hinata made herself a routine and now that she was out she still wanted to follow her routine.
Following the morning of her first night out from the hospital, Hinata woke up first before Naruto and Sasuke. She was successfully able to slip out without waking her two lovers and made it to the shower with no problems. Being in the comfort of their own home proved to have Naruto and Sasuke less on edge and the two were able to relax more and enjoy a good night of sleep.
Hinata was happy to see them finally relaxed. She felt like she'd put so much stress on them and made them worry so much.
In the shower Hinata enjoyed her water hot. She loved the feeling. She felt like it was healing her bruised and battered skin and it also was a major difference than the cold swamp. She was upset that the swamps still was a vivid memory in her mind. Hinata spoke to Lady Tsunade about this and was told that the swamps was a point in Hinata's life that she realized what she was.
Hinata was confused what the Hokage was trying to tell her at first. Realized what she was? What did that even mean? She was Hinata. From the Hyuga clan from the Hidden Leaf Village. She was a former heiress and she formerly worked in ROOT. She worked under Lord Danzo as an assassin and as reconnaissance. She now worked back under Lady Tsunade and the Konoha ninja ranks. She knew who and what she was.
That's what she thought at least. Until Tsunade pulled a chair up to Hinata in the hospital and gave her a serious look.
'What you're saying Hinata sounds so professional and sharp on paper. Yes? Until you laid in the swamps for hours, days and weeks on end and realized you were equivalent to Zetsu. And what exactly was Zetsu? Hmm Hinata?'
Tsunade was met with silence from Hinata.
With the silence Tsunade looked at Hinata with a sad grin, 'Exactly.'
In reality Hinata thought Zetsu was a monster. A manipulative, vile, snack. Worse than Orochimaru. Zetsu was scum that hid in the shadows and waited for its opportunity to strike. Zetsu had no morals, no loyalty and no heart. She clearly saw it had no heart. Everything an honorable ninja would hate to see was what Zetsu was.
She was Zetsu though. Four over four years that's what she was. In the swamps it just became clear to her that's what she was. A monster.
Hinata couldn't shake it either. This was a skill she LIKED. She was good at it and she ENJOYED this skill. How could she admit this to people without getting a bad reputation and appearing down right rotten? She didn't really know at this very moment. She would deal with it when that moment arrived.
For now Hinata enjoyed hot showers. After her shower she would drink her morning tea. She only made enough for herself because she figured leftover tea would get cold by the time Sasuke woke up and she would just make more later. After her tea she sat in the middle of her small living room, on the floor after moving the coffee table, and she meditated.
Sometimes during her meditative state she would go so deep into her subconscious. Like at this moment right now. She was so far into her mind frame Hinata didn't hear the shower being turned on by someone. All she could focus on were her memories.
'Hyuga. Your Byakugan is useful here. You have excelled in finding the target and gathering information from the target. You have to do more. You cannot keep relying on another team to eliminate YOUR target. You need another skill. Your chart shows that you have no real experience with your elements, but you have experience in the water element. Which is a shame, you should have experience in EVERYTHING. You should have perfected fire and lightening before even touching water. You're a Hyuga, you should be better. Show me BETTER.'
Hinata said nothing at this. Continuing to stand at attention in front of Danzo. He threw a book at her feet before speaking again.
'A medical book. The human anatomy. Show me you are useful and find something in that book that will make me want to keep you around. I'm not your father, I will not throw you away so easily. Unlike your father I am not asking you to please everyone in a clan. I am asking you to make just me proud…I…have faith in you.'
Hinata studied. It took her weeks of reading the book. Flipping through it until she knew what every page was talking about. She would spy on training sessions Lady Tsunade had with Sakura and Ino and would pick apart information that was beneficial to her.
However, a growing jealousy sprouted. Why was Sakura and Ino picked for this? Why was the toad sannin so nice to Naruto and why was Uchiha picked by Orochimaru? What was she lacking? Why wasn't Hinata ever worth saving or worth anyone's time?!
She wasn't aware that she was taking deeper breaths and that a figure was standing in front of her.
When Hinata showed Danzo her chakra wires and how she could pinpoint and connect it to the human heart, it brought her some type of joy that he was so impressed. She couldn't recall the last time she came across someone that was proud of her.
'This…this is beyond what I thought you were capable of Hyuga. The distance you can do this attack is remarkable. People doubted you. I had faith in you and look what you were able to do.'
Hinata stood in shocked silence when she felt Danzo put a hand on her head. It was warm. It was enduring. She really did something right! She wasn't a failure here.
'Wire. You are no longer Hyuga Hinata. You're Wire. Be proud of that name. You earned it.'
She did earn that name. She worked hard for what she had. She was glad Lord Danzo didn't pity her like everyone else. Everyone else pitied her and casted her aside. Thought her too weak, too timid, no real talent other than the fact she was a Hyuga and her own family thought her an absolute waste.
Lord Danzo believed in her.
Now he was DEAD. By her. By what he named her after. She betrayed him.
Like what Zetsu did to Akatsuki. Obito. The Uchiha clan.
Would she stoop that low. Did she stoop that low already against Lord Danzo? What if he was right? What if they couldn't accept her? Especially when they found out everything horrible thing she's done. What if Naruto couldn't be with her because of her past? If he just took Sasuke and left her alone. She'd be all alone again in this frost bitten world and that alone terrified her.
Her breathing was picking up and Hinata forced herself to open her eyes before she sunk any deeper. Meditation was needed. She needed to confront these dark thoughts. These memories. Her victims, her targets, what she had done. This was healthy and all at the same time it was so painful.
Hinata opened her eyes and looked up. Meeting a pair of bright blue eyes staring back at her.
Naruto was leaning against the kitchen counter and was staring at her with his head tilted. He had on black pajama pants, that Hinata knew was Sasuke's, and no shirt on. He smelled fresh and clean like he just took a shower and brushed his teeth. How did she not hear any of this?
Naruto didn't say anything and waited for Hinata to speak first. Still looking at her with curious laid back eyes. They looked innocent, but Hinata could tell he was bearing a hole so intensely at her to explain herself.
Hinata got her breathing under control and looked off to the side before telling Naruto what felt like a sick secret to her, "I miss him sometimes. Lord Danzo. I miss him."
Naruto took a deep breath and thought about his words. He gripped the counter a little tighter and started to lightly tap his fingers along it. "You shouldn't."
Hinata closed her eyes and laid back on the floor, "I understand how you feel."
Naruto walked up to her feet and continued to look down at her with a curious gaze and his head still tilted. Still masking his true frustrations. Even though he knew Hinata could see through his mask and could see he was holding in his frustrations, he still kept his cool to not jump to conclusions. "But you do not agree. You don't agree that you shouldn't miss a man that was going to kill you?"
Hinata didn't answer Naruto's rhetorical question. She opened her eyes and looked at him and could see his mask was starting to crack because he looked completely frustrated. "Why is that Hinata? I want to understand. Tell me why?"
Naruto was also generally curious. He was always curious over the hold Danzo had over Hinata. That led her to pretty much be his dog that he'd let off a chain to accomplish his most corrupt missions.
He watched Hinata very carefully, he wanted to see any signs of deceit if she tried to lie to him. Or he wanted to see if she would actually try to express herself for once. He was met with an interesting look from her. Her eyes looked angry. While she didn't frown or anything he could see a couple of key expressions from her bottomless eyes surprisingly.
Anger. Grief. Loneliness and jealousy.
"Lord Danzo-"
"Danzo."
Naruto lowered himself until he was sitting on his bum on the floor beside Hinata and gave her a serious look. No more of this 'sama' and 'lord' talk. He was done with her looking at Danzo like he was…some sort of good person.
This part Naruto would not let slide and let Hinata just continue to do. Danzo was a horrible, selfish man. He was trying to take Sasuke AND Hinata out this world. Naruto would be alone if Danzo had it his way. Honestly Naruto HATED Danzo. He wouldn't say such a thing to Hinata's face to push her further into a mental struggle, but him knocking the reincarnated Danzo's head literally off his body should had been a clear indication on how he felt about the older man.
Hinata frowned at him. Her jaw clenched and she wanted to look away from Naruto's intense gaze. Naruto placed his hand on her thigh and gave it a little squeeze. He reached over and took her hand and played with it, encouraging her to go on.
Hinata took a deep breath to calm her nerves, "He believed in me Naruto. He helped me with my chakra wires. He's the reason I have this skill. Why I earned the name Wire. He made me see that I wasn't worthless when everyone gave up on me."
Her lips thinned when she spoke, and she couldn't stop the jealous feeling she felt earlier from creeping back up. Naruto gave her a curious look again, "Earned huh? Well I can agree with one thing. It is a skill that probably no one else has. Something worth teaching our children. I can give credit where it belongs on that case, but Danzo taught you for his own benefit not your benefit."
Hinata looked confused for a moment. Naruto could see the gears turning in her head before she looked off to the side and slowly nodded her head in understanding. "And why are you jealous? Who are you jealous of Hinata?"
Hinata eyes widened at him. She felt exposed and open at the moment and was not liking being called out like this. She attempted to take her hand away from Naruto, but he wouldn't let her. He continued to give her a curious look, even more curious now that she was reacting this way. Proving that his assumption was right.
Hinata started to look everywhere but him because she knew Naruto's 'curious' gaze was really Naruto growing frustrated and wanting an answer. He wanted her to be blunt and honest and that was hard for Hinata to do. Always has been. "Naruto."
"How did you learn to mold your charka wires with a person's body like that? Seems…medical. Hinata, talk to me."
It was like she just threw up everything at once.
"Naruto. Ispied. I watched Lady Tsunade train Sakura and Ino and Lord Danzo gave me a medical book and told me I had to make myself useful. That I couldn't keep relying on people to eliminate my targets. You know what I just could never understand?Why? Why was Sakura chosen? Why was Ino even there? I could have done the same thing! I was a good ninja. No one gave me a CHANCE. They justLEFTme! I would have been an excellent choice for ANY Sannin! But no. I couldn't even get my father to see me worthy to train. Like I wasn't good enough for anyone."
Now having a clearer understand, Naruto kept looking at her with a genuine calm, curious face. "So you were going to be good enough for Danzo and show everybody what they missed out on."
Hinata's eyes widened in enlightenment, "Yes! Exactly."
Naruto slowly nodded his head and gave Hinata an understanding look, "You were going to make people hurt like how you were hurting."
He smiled when Hinata's mouth hung open and she tried to pull her hand back again. He had a tight hold on her though. She wasn't going to run off on him.
Hinata was lost for words at the moment before she was able to speak in a somber tone, "That's not what I said."
Naruto pulled her close to him in a flash. His eyes became sharp and he was grinning at her, "But that's what you WANTED Hinata. You wanted people to hurt because you were hurting. I get it. You don't have to dance around the issue. Danzo knew this too. He was able to see your weakness. Your anger and your jealousy and make something out of it. He made Wire. I know now that you didn't have much of a choice in anything back then Hinata. So choosing to hate and be angry came easy for you. You welcomed the feelings."
Hinata looked absolutely offended, "Don't talk like that Naruto. Don't make it seem like I'm some sort of monster."
Naruto almost laughed, "I'm a monster Hinata. We all have our dark sides that peak out of us from time to time. We're all monsters in some type of way. I'm happy to know back than you really weren't so…nice. You weren't this walking push over that Neji and everyone else took advantage of. You did have real thoughts. You really did feel anger and jealousy and hate. Everyone's monster comes out at some point. Danzo pulled yours out."
Naruto's hand tilted Hinata's neck and he started to lay light kisses along her smooth skin, "I'm jealous he got to see your monster before your monster became mine."
Hinata gasped at this and closed her eyes when she felt Naruto push her back to the ground and hover over her, "It's a beautiful thing Hinata. To show your true colors."
Hinata whimpered at this and pulled him into a desperate kiss. Her arms circled around Naruto and pulled him tight to her like she was scared he was going to leave.
She felt dizzy. Admitting such things made her feel light headed and not herself. Hearing Naruto say words that she secretly wanted to hear. That he was accepting of her twisted way of thinking. It was enduring to her. Made their love for one another stronger. Like when she reconnected with Sasuke. How they spoke to one another last night and how the passion reignited all over again.
Her hands roamed his body and her nails would leave evidence that they were there. Hinata was in lounge shorts and a black loose sweater and she could still feel him stiff against his pajama pants. She separated from the kiss and arched into Naruto. She spoke with a heavy breath, "I love you Naruto."
Naruto looked at her with the same breathing pattern as her and couldn't help but smirk at Hinata as he grinded down into her sex. "Yeah? You love me or you want me? Even I know there is a difference Nata."
Hinata leaned over and kissed Naruto's neck all the way to his ear making a sweet groan come from him. "I mean it in both ways Naruto. Please don't make me beg."
Naruto's smirk grew at this. His hands went up under Hinata's shirt and he was relieved to feel she wasn't wearing a bra. "What's wrong with a little begging? Now I want it. I want you to beg. I love you Hinata and you love me.Beg for me."
He lifted one of her legs up and continued to grind into her. He lifted her shirt up and attached himself to one of her breast. Pleasuring the perfect nub the same way he pleasured her with his tongue last night. Hinata arched her body into Naruto and her whimpers grew louder, "Naruto. More.Please."
Naruto sat up a bit to look at Hinata face as he slipped a finger in her shorts. She was so warm down there and already coated his fingers. He played with her clit and watched as her eyes became clouded with lust and desire. She unconsciously started to grind into his hand and held on to his forearm for leverage. She was trying desperately to get his fingers to slip inside her.
She needed relief.
Hinata was rarely frustrated. Especially since leaving ROOT. She normally had a lot of patience with Naruto and Sasuke. However, at the moment she was not liking Naruto's teasing. Naruto loved to tease. He'd tease Sasuke countlessly if he got the Uchiha in a sexually frustrated situation. He was typically lenient with Hinata.
Hinata bit her lip in frustration. She sat up and Naruto sat up with her. The same devious grin plastered on his face.
Hinata went to touch his chest, which he allowed, and her hands started to slide down to his pajama pants and attempted to slip inside but Naruto stopped her. Hinata attempted with her other hand to move his hand and Naruto just stopped her again. Hinata in a bold move was able to yank her hand from his grasp and Naruto started to laugh a little at her rough housing with him.
The pair soon was rolling on the floor going back and forward with one another on who was going to touch who. Hinata couldn't contain the amusement she was feeling and was actually laughing with Naruto. He was such a lucifer.
Having his fill of play time Naruto threw his hands up in defeat against Hinata and let her pin him down on the ground. He looked at her with a big smile showing his pearly whites and Hinata couldn't help but ache for him.
Naruto picked up on Hinata's light grinding and took her bottoms off her and he slid his pajama pants down. Hinata was still feeling desperate and she wasted no time in taking him in her hand and guiding him in. She leaned over on his chest for a moment to get her bearing.
It felt so good. The two couldn't help but moan at the feeling just now. Naruto filled her completely and at the position they were in she almost felt like he could reach her throat if he wanted to. She was in such heat at the moment. The way she bounced and grinded on him. Moaning his name. Telling him her secrets.
"I'm poison Naruto. Why do you want someone that would drag you down?"
"I don't know. Why do you want a demon that could kill you right now? You know I haven't controlled the nine tails completely yet. You know I have this dark twisted demon version of myself inside of me. Yet you still want me. You still want me to have you as mine. So tell me Hinata-"
He pulled her down to him. Hinata laid flat on his chest and his hands caressed through her hair. His eyes danced as he looked at her with a crazed smile, "Who do you belong to?"
Hinata whimpered as he pulled her hair slightly so his hot tongue could run up her exposed throat, "Naruto.YouNaruto."
His voice was so hot as he whispered in her ear, "All of you belongs to me. Your perfection all the way down to your sins."
Hearing him accept her and her flaws as he would hold her hips and thrust into her made her scream.
Naruto's type of sex was a sensory overload. Hinata never felt like she could think right when he was in her. Sasuke was a calming feeling that washed over her. Made her feel tranquil and relaxed. A nice sexual release. Naruto woke her up and took all her energy at the same time. He made her say incoherent things. Admit things that she would never say not even while heavily intoxicated.
Hinata was sure they woke Sasuke up. He could watch. Even better he could join. At this moment she was fine with anything.
Naruto went under Hinata's shirt and massaged her soft breast. Clenching his teeth as he felt Hinata start to clench around him, "That's my girl." He sat up and held Hinata to him as he continued his rhythm. Hinata leaned over and bit his shoulder hard. She could feel herself ripping skin, but she couldn't force herself to stop. When Hinata came it was everything she needed at that moment.
She continued to grind on Naruto and whimper, "Naruto too. I want you to finish too Naruto."
Naruto smiled at her. He nudged her with his nose until she moved to kiss him. Hinata bit his bottom lip and Naruto growled at this before starting his deep thrust again. Hinata's arms went around Naruto's neck and spoke dirty words in his ear that she only spoke for him and Sasuke. Only him and Sasuke have heard Hinata talk so un-lady like AND they would be the ONLY ones.
Somewhere in the mix Naruto heard, 'cum', 'wet', and he swore he heard 'pussy' and that caused him to burry himself deep inside Hinata and bust. He covered his groans against Hinata's lips in a kiss and the two road out the orgasmic wave together.
Naruto had a silly grin on his face as the two gave each other light pecks on the lips, giggling between one another for no reason what so ever.
"That bite is going to leave a nasty bruise."
The connected duo turned to see Sasuke leaning against the wall closest to Hinata's doorway. His arms were crossed, and he had an amused raised brow. "Did you get the 'awake' Naruto you missed out on last night Hinata?"
Hinata gave a nervous smile and hid herself a little in Naruto's chest, "It wasn't like that I swear!"
Sasuke made his way to boil some water and get some fresh hot tea going, "It's no big deal. I figured Naruto was going to wake up and immediately want to make up for last night. Care to explain what caused you such distress earlier? I felt the chakra shift between the both of you earlier. I assume before you two made up."
When Sasuke had everything situated on the stove he turned around to look at the two. They were now decent with Hinata's bottoms back on and Naruto's pajama pants (His pajama pants he'd like to add) pulled back up. They were still sitting on the floor and were looking up at Sasuke. Naruto looked at Hinata encouraging her to express herself, he knew it was something she always struggled to do.
Hinata looked off to the side for a moment with slightly puffed up cheeks before looking at Sasuke, "I like to meditate in the mornings. I work well when I have routine. Sometimes my meditation is good and sometimes, like today, they aren't so good. I sometimes think about Lor-"
She paused and cleared her throat, refusing to look at how Naruto was giving her a sharp look. "Sometimes…I just miss him. I miss the order. The routine. The accomplishments. Being successful."
Sasuke walked in front of the kitchen counter and leaned in front of it. His arms were still crossed, and he continued to look at Hinata with a raised brow, "Danzo? You miss Danzo sometimes? You miss the structure of ROOT and how you were seen there. Right?"
Naruto made an awkward face that showed his teeth and like there was more to the matter, "Think a little darker Sasuke. Just like sprinkle everything you just said with crazy."
Sasuke made a face like he almost didn't want to really know, "Do you miss him on a sexual leve-"
Hinata got red in the face, "Oh NO! No Sasuke!"
Naruto's hand went to scratch the back of his head and he gripped the nap of his hair, "For fucks sake teme! Not like that! The man was old enough to be her grandfather. She's more like…you. Ya know?"
Sasuke had a 'are you serious' face before looking at Hinata, "Really? Little Hinata wasn't just a mindless tool for Danzo?"
Sasuke crouched down to Hinata's level and sent her a devilish grin, "You liked the power high huh? Once you proved yourself, you just kept going. I get it. It's like you couldn't stop. Your initial goal just morphed into something else."
If anything, Sasuke knew all about how something like that could happen to a person.
Sasuke stood up and looked at Hinata with a smoldering look, "Get over it Hyuga. The nightmares. They won't stop. What you've done, it won't go away. The people lives you fucked up will keep fucking with you in the back of your head. Trust me. It only gets tolerable the more you try to heal. Talk about it. Not saying with everyone. You don't have to scream your troubles to the world. I speak to my brother mainly about it. Itachi, Kakashi and Naruto. If you want to do it with just Naruto that is fine, you can talk with me too. You're doing good with your routine though, that's a good start."
Hinata looked at Sasuke like she was thinking about everything he said. She tilted her head to the side and looked a bit guarded, "I…I have never heard of your demons Sasuke. You never opened up to me about this."
Sasuke had went and made the three of them some fresh tea and brought it to Naruto and Hinata on a tray. He leaned against the kitchen counter as he thought about Hinata's words. "I am sure you have witnessed my demons, Hinata. All except the Uchiha massacre."
Hinata took sips of her hot tea, looking up at Sasuke over the brim of the tea cup. "Yes. You're right, but I didn't know how it made youfeel. I have witnessed a lot of things with my eyes. I just want to…feel now. I think I deprived myself for so long on how to feel. I just want to know how it all made you feel."
Sasuke nodded his head and shrugged his shoulders, "Let's get some training in today. Introduce you back into it after three months. We'll let some steam off. Get some dinner in our stomachs and maybe some alcohol drinks. Then tonight we can bounce off each other to see who's more fucked up. Sounds good?"
Naruto and Hinata both smiled at the date night idea. How romantic.