saturday, december 22nd, 2012
iwaizumi knows he deserves some sort of award for surviving makki and mattsun during their first and second years in high school. and it's not because they're loud or annoying or irritating, because iwaizumi can handle all of that. after all, he is bonded to oikawa, who is the embodiment of irritation. but getting makki and mattsun to get together, to officially date after months and months of pining, had to have been some form of torture.
though he remembers everything vividly. from their first meeting to their first school dance together, to the dreaded matsukawa issei rut incident. but it was that incident that brought mattsun and makki together. mattsun and makki's getting together was dramatic, and hurtful- borderline painful- and draining.
and when kindaichi asks that dreaded question during a sleepover, ("how did matsukawa-san and hanamaki-san begin dating?") the four third-years have completely different reactions.
iwaizumi groans, throwing his head back as he falls against oikawa's chest. oikawa just snickers as he sends a devious look toward the couple. mattsun and makki, however, are in shambles. mattsun is a bright red, so much so that the tips of his ears are also red, and is moving to his knees in a shameless attempt to keep oikawa and iwaizumi quiet. makki's face flushed a shade similar to his hair as he brought his knees up to his chest and hid his burning face.
kindaichi stares at them with wide eyes, "should i not have asked that?"
"no, no, it's a great question! and one that you deserve an answer to," oikawa states, his grin widening.
mattsun quickly shuffled over to oikawa, grabbing him by his shoulders harshly, "please oikawa, i never ask anything of you, but please keep your mouth shut!"
oikawa only laughed at that. iwaizumi lets out a small snicker, "after everything you put us through our second year, tooru and i deserve to tell this story."
"the past is the past, let it go!" yells makki, now next to mattsun.
the third-years began to bicker, completely shutting out the other people in the room. kindaichi looks guilty, and kunimi is right next to him with an amused look on his face as he watches makki begin to choke oikawa. kyoutani is laughing at it too, practically cheering makki on when oikawa begins to make an embarrassing gurgle-like sound. yahaba is staring at them with a bit of disgust, looking at watari as if to confirm that their pack alpha is being harassed by makki and mattsun, and their pack omega was doing nothing but pushing them back with little effort. watari only nodded to yahaba, his arms crossed as he waited for the four of them to stop.
"do they always do this?" asks kunimi, now looking at the second-years.
yahaba just sighs, not looking away from the third years, "kind of. matsukawa-san and hanamaki-san find their getting together story embarrassing, but oikawa-san and iwaizumi-san find it hilarious and always want to tell people, but team rocket over there-" the omega points to makki and mattsun, who are now being pinned down by oikawa and iwaizumi, "try to stop them by any means necessary."
"and their story is a little…" watari starts, looking up at the ceiling as he tries to put his words together, "dramatic. i mean- yahaba, kyoutani, and i were there and even we were stressed by the whole thing."
"they were annoying," kyoutani adds, his once amused look gone while he turns to the first years, "i didn't even go to practice for the three weeks that they were going through that shit."
yahaba snickers beside the alpha, "that doesn't mean much when you're never at practice."
kyoutani practically snaps his neck at the speed that he turns to yahaba, "im at practice now! i stopped coming 'cause tim and moby kept causing shit for weeks!"
"okay-okay! im tapping out!" yells makki, grabbing everyone's attention. iwaizumi is on top of him, pulling the pink-haired boy's arms behind his back uncomfortably.
mattsun gasps dramatically right beside him, on his knees while oikawa has his arms wrapped around his neck, "did you really just give up on us like that!?"
iwaizumi lets makki go and gets off of him. makki turns around to lay on his back while he takes a deep breath, "you know they're gonna tell them anyway. and besides, i'm exhausted!"
mattsun groans as oikawa lets him go. the alpha slumps right beside makki, breathing harshly.
oikawa looks at the other people in the room, their pack mates, and smiles wide. kyoutani, yahaba, and watari just sigh as they know they're about to hear this story once again. though kindaichi seemed interested. kindaichi sits upright and waits for oikawa to talk, while kunimi just leans against him and stares at the pack alpha.
"now! seeing as we won-"
"we voluntarily quit, so you didn't actually win!" yells makki as he sits up, pulling mattsun closer to him so the alpha could lay his head on his lap.
iwaizumi rolls his eyes playfully, "we won, so now we tell the story."
makki just waves him off, a smile on his face. the omega just stares at mattsun, whose head now rests on his lap as he closes his eyes to pretend to be asleep. makki knows how embarrassing the story is for mattsun and how ashamed he gets when hearing iwaizumi and oikawa tell people about it. and while makki does get shy when hearing them retell it, he also likes hearing his best friends tell the story with such fondness in their voices. makki looks up to iwaizumi as he starts.
"it all starts in the winter of our second year, a couple of weeks before we get out for winter break. and mattsun is feeling a little off…"
friday, november 25th, 2011
it had been a whole three days with this sickness. and mattsun was growing irritated by it.
it wasn't even a bad sickness, he just felt weird. he was all snappy and irritated, but that was never directed to makki. never was any of mattsun's anger ever directed to the omega he liked since he first laid eyes on during their first year. in fact, it seemed as though all mattsun wanted to do was be near makki.
not that it was weird, his inner alpha was practically obsessed with makki, already declaring him his mate despite mattsun never confessing his overwhelming love for the omega.
but mattsun was practically looming over the omega. he wanted to be around him all the time and smother him with kisses, pull him into a strong hug where nothing could hurt him, and envelop him in his leather scent so much so that makki's candied berry scent was erased so all he would smell like was mattsun, and god- mattsun just wanted to be with makki. in any form or way. he just wanted to be around makki.
and even with mattsun feeling this way, he made sure he never crossed the line. not that there was ever truly a line to begin with.
makki and mattsun grew incredibly close after meeting in their first year. hugs, small kisses, and whispering quietly amongst each other was something they did regularly. which didn't help mattsun and his inner alpha feel as if they already had a mate.
the closeness was gradual. mattsun would hug makki tighter and would hold him longer. their playful little pecks on their cheeks and forehead grew closer, as mattsun would intentionally lay a quick kiss near makki's lips. and their quiet whispers would end with mattsun growling into makki's ear, making the poor omega flush a bright pink.
all this became noticeable by makki- of course. and he was over the moon with the changes.
makki would gush about the changes to iwaizumi, who would always listen but end their little talks by telling him to just confess to the alpha. makki would quickly stop iwaizumi there, claiming he could never ruin their friendship by confessing. iwaizumi would just scoff and tell makki that everything mattsun was doing was something oikawa would do to him.
"and you know the difference between you and me? i'm dating the alpha that was acting like that with me, because the minute i noticed oikawa acting like that around me, i confessed." iwaizumi would say, making the pink-haired boy flustered.
even oikawa would approach mattsun about it, calling him out on the changes. he sometimes even encouraged mattsun to continue, seeing as he knew about the alpha's giant crush on the pink-haired boy.
though at the same time, he was worried about mattsun. it had been over a year since he presented, and his next rut was coming up in january, so there was no way mattsun could be entering his pre-rut stages. and knowing that only made oikawa wonder. just what exactly was going on with mattsun?
it couldn't have been that he finally gained the confidence to pursue makki and confess. oikawa was there when mattsun and makki met, he was there when mattsun began to squeal over makki, and he knew mattsun would never act the way he was acting just to get makki. mattsun was a big softie at heart, so he would never get all alpha and protective over makki simply because he decided to tell makki about his massive crush on him.
"you sure you're not going into an early rut?" oikawa asked him one day, only for mattsun to roll his eyes at him.
"no oikawa, unlike you, i keep track of my shit. and im not due till mid-january."
oikawa would simply shrug, "if you say so, but you're being all weird around makki- not that you're never not weird with him- but you're all… lovey to him, more than usual."
"just drop it oikawa!" mattsun would yell and storm out, leaving oikawa alone with a shocked face.
still, oikawa knew this new mattsun could only mean one of two things. one, mattsun finally decided to act on his crush and approached the situation very weirdly. or two, mattsun was about to be hit with his rut. the alpha just shrugged it off and decided to focus on the positive. that his two best friends were finally getting somewhere after a year and multiple months of pining.
by the end of the week, mattsun was very public with his affection towards makki. and at the same time that week, aoba johsai was hosting their annual fall fair.
the four of them decided to go as a group of four, even with oikawa and iwaizumi dating. oikawa said it would be good for the four of them to grow closer and mattsun and makki weren't going to deny oikawa that.
the fair was fine, nothing extraordinary. but mattsun couldn't keep his hands off of makki. he was always holding his hand and gently caressing makki's knuckles. or hugging him and pulling him close to his chest. the alpha was even glaring and borderline growling at anyone who approached makki, alpha or not.
it made makki all flustered but he wasn't going to stop mattsun. not when he enjoyed having the attention of the only boy he's ever wanted. and iwaizumi and oikawa stayed happy for the two of them as well, even if they had a gut feeling something was up.
monday, november 28th, 2011
destruction came in exactly three days.
because of course, everything had to crumble down before makki and mattsun could get comfortable in what they assumed would be their new normal.
the two of them were walking home together after practice. the sun had set hours ago, leaving the street dark- only being lit by the moon.
makki and mattsun always walked home together, but in recent days it felt intimate. makki isn't one to complain, though. instead, he accepted it and began to look forward walking home with mattsun, with their hands intertwined and swaying gently in between each other. mattsun had even begun to lend makki his jacket. it was bigger than makki, making him all giddy and warm inside as he was enveloped in the alpha's leather scent.
it felt as though they were making progress. as if one day, mattsun or maybe even makki would confess their love for each other. because mattsun had to like makki with the way he had been treating him the past week. makki felt so lovesick that he had been strictly listening to his playlist filled with cheesy and corny love songs because for once in his life, makki related to such love-written lyrics.
even with makki still having the voice in the back of his head telling him that everything up to that point was fake and mattsun didn't actually like him, nothing had ever made him so happy.
and as makki looked up to mattsun, who seemed a little red and flushed, he knew this was the boy he was going to confess to. it was those beady black eyes that makki was completely distracted by that he didn't register mattsun was now looming over him.
"matts-" makki was interrupted as he was shoved harshly against the stone wall of a convenience store. makki didn't even register what was happening until he felt mattsun's hands grip his waist tightly as he dug his head into his neck, inhaling deeply.
"mattsun?" asked makki, voice trembling slightly, looking to the side to try to pull away, but all he did was grant mattsun better access to his scent glands. mattsun only growled, making makki flinch. one of the alpha's hands came up to tug his jacket off, pushing himself closer to makki.
when makki felt mattsun's teeth graze his scent gland, his mind went blank. makki wanted to panic, he wanted to cry out and yell and shove and kick, but he was frozen. mattsun began purring against the omega's neck. it was that purring that let makki know exactly what was going on. once he was hit with the alpha's strong and intoxicating scent of leather, it only gave the confirmation he was scared to receive.
mattsun had entered his rut.
"m-mattsun? please get off," the omega quivered, only to be met with a growl again. the alpha muttered something against his neck, completely muffled by how close he was to makki. the pink-haired boy tried to push mattsun away but mattsun just pushed his arms away.
"mine… mine."
what?
"mine… you're mine, omega." growled matsukawa, his teeth grazing makki's scent gland.
oh.
makki didn't want to panic. he liked- no loved mattsun- but this was not how he wanted to be bonded. a part of makki knew that mattsun would never hurt him. he was just a big, cuddly alpha that could never hurt him. but the other part knew that mattsun had entered his rut, and was not in his right state of mind. he knew that this was not mattsun, and instead, it was his alpha acting.
makki breathed out shakily, "you c-can't mattsun, you can't mark me. please… you can't forcibly bond me- or bond with an omega you don't like…"
mattsun stopped moving and looked up at makki, a look of hurt on his face. he had this deep frown and his eyes seemed to clear up.
the alpha shook his head, "i do, i do, i love you, i've always loved you omega, you're mine."
makki's breath hitched, and as he stared back at mattsun, he couldn't help but feel that he was being genuine. that despite mattsun being in his rut, he was being truthful. the omega's eyes filled with tears. and mattsun's hand came to gently cup his flushed cheeks.
"matsukawa!" someone yelled angrily, and mattsun was quickly pulled away from makki.
the pink-haired omega blinked his tears away as he looked at who had come. iwaizumi was right in front of him, calling out to him. makki couldn't hear him, dazed and confused. he looked away from the omega and to mattsun, who was being pinned down on the ground by oikawa. his breathing quickened at the sight of oikawa shouting at mattsun while the other growled. and looking to the side, he made eye contact with a yahaba and watari, who looked scared, and kyoutani, who seemed shocked.
"makki! can you hear me?" yelled iwaizumi, and makki looked down at him, nodding slightly.
iwaizumi sighed in relief, pulling makki's jacket back on him, "are you okay? what happened? did mattsun do anything-"
"no. no, he would never- he didn't do anything," makki replied quickly, eyes roaming from iwaizumi to the two alphas behind them.
iwaizumi gently grabbed hold of makki's face, making sure he didn't look at mattsun and oikawa. he yelled something to oikawa, who just nodded. he must have said something to the two first-year omegas, who were right beside makki in a quick second. iwaizumi looked back at makki and grabbed his hand, pulling him away from the situation.
"we'll walk you home, it's okay."
the pink-haired omega tried to yank his hand back, but iwaizumi had a firm grip on him. yahaba had even grabbed makki's other hand, intertwining their fingers together tightly, watari's concerned face peeking from behind his best friend.
"n-no! i have to- what about mattsun?" he asked, looking back to oikawa and kyoutani, who were now huddled around mattsun. oikawa had a vice grip on his shoulders and mattsun begrudgingly walked with kyoutani right beside him. iwaizumi huffed, letting go of makki's hand and cupping the taller boy's face, forcibly turning him away from the group of three.
"oikawa is going to take him home, from the looks of it he entered his rut early," iwaizumi said calmly, his scent of raspberry and amber relaxing makki.
the two omegas stared intensely at each other before makki gulped and nodded. iwaizumi grabbed his hand once again and the four of them walked to makki's house.
but makki couldn't stop thinking of what had just occurred. mattsun loved him? he said it with such a genuine voice that makki felt that deep down, mattsun was being truthful. that even though mattsun was in the very beginning of his rut, with his alpha very nearly taking over, what mattsun had told him was true. maybe mattsun really did love him.
monday, december 5th, 2011
exactly one week later, mattsun came back.
mattsun spent that entire week thinking of makki. his alpha was practically demanding mattsun to leave his room and find makki. but mattsun wouldn't let him dream for long, always shoving the thought of the pretty pink-haired omega to the back of his mind. because the last thing he would want to do is hurt makki, though it seemed as if he already did that, based on the conversation he had with oikawa on the last day of his rut.
"look mattsun, you have to apologize to makki. iwa-chan and i had this gut feeling something was gonna happen, and i already had this idea that your rut was gonna hit, and when we went to find you two, you were all over makki and were almost going to mark him."
mattsun had just groaned into his pillow, wanting to hang up on oikawa.
"i know you like him, and i know that your alpha was only acting on what it knew, which was that you like makki and you want him, but mattsun, holy fuck, you could have caused some serious damage to yours and makki's future by bonding him that night."
the black-haired alpha only groaned louder, "i know, i know! when i get to school tomorrow, i'll apologize. can't have makki knowing my feelings for him like this."
and that's exactly what he did. since the aoba johsai volleyball team didn't have practice on monday's, he had his work cut out for him. he went searching for makki throughout the entire school, but no luck. he had lunch with oikawa and iwaizumi, and makki would usually be with them, but they both said that he was talking with his physics teacher over some homework. though he finally would be able to talk to him upon finding out through oikawa and iwaizumi, they were meeting him at the club room after school. he walked with them there and had to endure iwaizumi's cold stares and fiery glares directed toward him.
upon entering the club room, they were met with the three first years and makki chatting. yahaba, watari, and makki were in a deep conversation about something. but the minute kyoutani looked up and made eye contact with mattsun, he groaned and threw his head back as if he was in pain. at that, the other three people looked up. makki practically squealed with excitement when he saw mattsun.
"you're back!" makki exclaimed, standing up.
"yay, you're back," kyoutani mumbled, irritation obvious, yahaba just scoffed and elbowed kyoutani in his ribs, mumbling something about respecting their teammates.
mattsun just chuckled awkwardly, scratching the back of his neck while turning away, "yeah, im back."
the past week had been grueling for makki. just as mattsun wanted to see makki, he wanted to see mattsun. he spent the days whining to iwaizumi, who was at his limit of hearing makki talk about the black-haired alpha. he spent the days counting down to mattsun's arrival and was mentally preparing himself to finally confess to mattsun because now he knew the alpha's true feelings.
makki stood in front of mattsun, arms open to give the alpha a giant hug. but mattsun just took a step back and looked down to the floor.
makki visibly deflated at that, lowering his arms and moving them to hug himself. mattsun coughed and looked up at makki. but his eyes never once looked back at makki's desperate ones..
"can we- um, could we talk outside?" he asked, seeming very uncomfortable.
makki cleared his throat and smiled wide, "yeah! of course we can."
the two moved outside, closing the door to the club room. and they stood right in front of each other, neither of them speaking first. the silence was deafening, and quite literally suffocating. mattsun was standing tall as if he was on edge being around makki. and makki didn't like that. the omega looked around, waiting for mattsun to talk.
makki didn't know why this was happening. he and mattsun were never awkward or uncomfortable around each other. and even if they didn't talk all the time that they were together, their silence was never like this. it was never suffocating. it never made makki feel scared, or worried.
but this was different. that's all he felt. his stomach was fluttering with butterflies, but not in a good way. it felt like moths were trying to eat their way out of his stomach with how nervous makki was.
mattsun looked up to the omega, "makki, im so sorry for how-"
"it's okay mattsun, you didn't hurt me!" makki let out an airy giggle, trying to get mattsun to relax. the alpha's shoulders were tense, and he stood up straight, not like his usual slouched look. even his scent was tense, his once relaxing and cool leather scent now dull.
mattsun groaned, bringing his palms up to his eyes, "no it's not! i basically attacked you, and i probably made you so uncomfortable with what i said-"
"mattsun, it's fine!" makki said, moving to get closer to mattsun. but the alpha only took a step back once he removed his hands from his eyes and noticed makki was inching closer, seeming uncomfortable.
the omega was beginning to panic. why was mattsun so… different? he didn't want to be near makki, and he was all tense and he seemed to be irritated. at makki? no, he couldn't be mad at makki. mattsun never got mad at makki. this was too much, it was making makki begin to doubt himself and everything he had thought up to that point. why did mattsun not want to be near him?
"mattsun…the past weeks with you have been great, and the truth is-" makki started, getting ready to just blurt out his true feelings- his love- for mattsun. his cheeks were flushed a pretty pink, matching his pink hair.
at the mention of the mattsun's actions the weeks prior, he looked up at makki with an annoyed look on his face. he seemed so… disgusted at the mention of everything that happened between him and makki.
"no makki, it was just my rut talking. all that i said, and did, and how i acted the past weeks, it was just my rut and you can't be okay with that! you had to endure that, and for that im so fucking sorry."
makki could feel his heart shatter.
mattsun had grabbed his heart and ripped it out of his chest, discarding it without a care in the world.
the omega's breath hitched, eyes still locked on mattsun, who was just so upset.
"what?" he whimpered, locked in place by the look mattsun had given him. makki had never been under an alpha command or had even heard an alpha use their alpha voice, but he assumed this was what it felt like. being frozen in fear of upsetting the person dear to their heart, the very person who put them in that position.
"my alpha grew attached to the closest omega, which happened to be you, and i just started being all affectionate towards you, which was a big mistake. and all that i said and did that night- fuck hiro - that was the worst and by far the biggest mistake of my life. i went all alpha on you, my best friend, and im just so fucking sorry." mattsun sighed, hands coming up to tug at his hair.
makki looked down to the ground, his brown eyes filling with tears.
"d-don't worry about it mattsun, you're fine," makki mumbled, hugging himself tighter, "what a mistake that would have been huh? being stuck with me…"
mattsun sighed, "it would have ruined you and me, hanamaki."
hanamaki? makki could feel his omega wither in pain. he was grateful he had scent patched on because makki's true feelings would have been exposed right then and there.
makki let out a wet cough, "good thing nothing happened between us, huh? l-look mattsun, i have to go-"
mattsun nodded, "again, im so sorry. i'll see you tomorrow?"
the omega just shook his head, moving around mattsun and towards the stairs. he never once let go of himself and instead wrapped his arms tighter around himself. he knew that once he let go, he would officially be alone- and makki hated knowing that.
was he such an idiot to even believe for a split second that mattsun would ever return his feelings? that mattsun would have actually liked him? that mattsun would actually want makki as his boyfriend? as his mate? as his omega? he had to have been. after all, mattsun had even confirmed that even attempting to bite makki was the biggest mistake of his life.
his omega was a mess, and makki could feel it. because he felt the exact same.
mattsun doesn't want us?
'no, mattsun thinks everything about us was a mistake.'
boyfriend?
'not even.'
mate?
'never. mattsun would never want me.'
makki could feel his breathing tremble, and his eyes stung with unshed tears. he had nowhere to go. nowhere to cry and yell. he felt so stupid, and he had no one to blame but himself.
as makki turned and entered the school, walking in the direction of a restroom, he felt someone grab his shoulder. he flinched, turning around and making direct eye contact with iwaizumi.
"i-iwaizumi?" he mumbled.
"makki, i've been calling you since you got down here. you didn't hear me?" said iwaizumi, his hands resting on top of makki's.
makki sniffled, shaking his head. it was then that iwaizumi took a good look at him. the omega's pretty brown eyes were dull and glassy, and he had a frown on his face, unusual for makki since he was always smiling and laughing. iwaizumi frowned, moving his hands to cup makki's face, his thumbs softly caressing his cheeks.
"what's wrong makki? mattsun-"
the omega's frown deepened, and the dam broke. his tears fell as he leaned forward and laid his head against iwaizumi's shoulder, heavy sobs racking his body. he let go of himself and brought his hands to clench tightly at the dark-haired omega's uniform blazer. iwaizumi stayed frozen for a second, before bringing a hand up to rub makki's back while his other hand gently ruffled the omega's short pink hair.
"o-okay, how about we go to the bathroom?" iwaizumi mumbled, and makki nodded.
the two walked to the nearest bathroom, iwaizumi looking around, making sure no one had seen or heard them. when they finally arrived, makki broke off from iwaizumi. he shuffled towards one of the stalls and slumped against the door, moving his hands to cover his face. his tears didn't stop, nor did makki think they could stop. iwaizumi just stood to the side, gnawing at his lip while he watched makki break down. the minute he heard makki choke on his sobs, his figure racking even harder, iwaizumi knew he had to intervene.
he approached makki, gently laying his hand on his back, "makki, you need to breathe, you're going to hurt yourself crying like this…"
makki just whimpered, heavy sobs making him breathe unevenly, "n-no- i c-can't- he…!"
"what happened, makki? please just talk to me," iwaizumi frowned, trying his hardest to calm makki down.
makki turned to iwaizumi, his eyes peeking through his fingers. he went to wipe his eyes while his body still shook and trembled.
"m-mattsun, he…" makki whimpered, his red-rimmed eyes brimming with tears once again, "everything was a m-mistake, iwa- everything! he didn't, he never…"
makki's voice tapered at the end as he buried his head in his hands again.
at the mention of mattsun, iwaizumi grew tense. as much as he loved mattsun, makki was one of his closest friends, and he'd fight for makki any day.
"what about mattsun? what did he tell you?" iwaizumi asked, but his eyes narrowed, "what did he say?"
makki sniffled, removing his hands from his face, taking a deep breath, "iwa, e-everything that i thought- the way he had been acting- it was j-just his rut… he said he was only acting like that with me because i was an o-omega and he was near his rut- that's it!"
iwaizumi's eyes widened, his scent of raspberry and amber burning with rage, and he hissed out, "what?"
"he said e-everything was a big mistake- the biggest mistake of his life!- and that b-being with me would have r-ruined his life!" makki bawled, moving closer to iwaizumi and wrapping his arms around him tightly. iwaizumi stood there stunned for a second before hugging makki back, trying to comfort makki as much as possible.
"but mattsun likes you! he does! why would he- why would he say that?" iwaizumi wondered aloud, catching makki's attention.
"the idea of being with me disgusts him. being with me would ruin him!"
makki had never cried that hard. nor had he ever cried that much around iwaizumi. there's a first for everything. and that day was makki's first time getting his heart crushed by the boy he'd fallen for all those months ago.
wednesday, december 14th, 2011
it had been over a week since makki and mattsun talked, exactly 9 days, and everything had gone wrong.
mattsun had left makki assuming everything would be fine the next day. he had apologized to him for almost biting him, and for how he had been acting, and now he could officially begin getting closer to makki without the omega thinking he was only going after him because he was an omega. mattsun knew how terrible it is for an alpha to forcibly bite an omega, and mattsun swore he would never do that to makki. he would never hurt makki, his best friend, and the only boy he's ever crushed on this intensely.
but the day following their talk, mattsun noticed how… off makki was acting. they usually walk together to morning practice, with mattsun picking him up from his home in the morning and dropping him off after practice. despite all that, despite that being their routine for over a year, mattsun was left in the dust after makki's mother told him that he had already left.
he tried to talk to makki during practice, but it seemed like they were never paired up, or close. when changing in the club room, mattsun was only entering when makki had finished and walked past him. during their stretches, makki paired up with iwaizumi. when practicing, makki was partnered with iwaizumi. when playing a 3 v. 3 match, makki wasn't on his team like he usually was.
the whole day felt off. makki didn't say hi to him, didn't look at him, and seemed to be actively avoiding him. during lunch, which the four second-years would always spend together, makki and iwaizumi were nowhere to be seen, and oikawa didn't seem to want to tell mattsun.
at the end of the week, mattsun had grown agitated. he knew for a fact makki was ignoring him- avoiding him at all costs- and he had no idea why. the tension in the team grew, so much so that the first years had started to also steer clear of mattsun. kyoutani grew tired of it all and stopped coming altogether.
then, a whole week passed. a whole week of makki ignoring him. and now they were nearing another full week of makki ignoring him. he didn't look at him, and that hurt. it hurt more than mattsun would let on. he thought everything was going so well. sure, his rut caused a scene where he almost hurt makki and ruined their lives by forcibly bonding makki, but he was sure that they would move on and mattsun would finally confess. all that went down the drain when makki started ignoring him- with the help of iwaizumi nonetheless!
mattsun was just about ready to burst, and anything could tick him off.
it just had to be oikawa that poked the bear. the two were walking to the clubroom after school, still inside the school building, and oikawa just had to say those simple words.
"so, what'd you do to make makki ghost you?"
mattsun growled, glaring at oikawa.
"i don't know! i don't know what i did or said! or what i could have done for makki to ignore me the way he is! it kills me knowing i hurt him, but i can't even approach him before he runs away from me! i thought after apologizing for what i almost did to him during my rut would erase any tension, but fuck- after our talk, he stopped speaking to me! he fucking hates me and i don't know what to do about it oikawa!"
oikawa stood in the middle of the hallway, dumbfounded. his eyes were filled with concern but he just sighed.
"i don't think he hates you," said oikawa, crossing his arms over his chest, "but iwa-chan and makki talked, and i know what the issue is, but all i'll say is makki doesn't hate you."
mattsun's eyes widened, "there's an issue? i did something? to makki? and you know? what- what did i do?"
oikawa just opened his mouth and closed his shut, letting out an awkward chuckle, "i don't think i was supposed to tell you that."
the black-haired alpha huffed and stormed over to oikawa, "no! you have to tell me now, oikawa!"
"i can't say, i love iwa-chan, but he might literally castrate me if finds out you even know there's an issue-"
"i don't care what iwaizumi does to you! tell me oikawa!" yelled mattsun, almost begging.
oikawa bit his lip and looked around, making sure no one was around. he sighed, muttering a string of curses to himself, before grabbing mattsun harshly and yanking him into an empty classroom. oikawa pushed him inside and slammed the door closed. the brown-haired alpha slouched against the door.
"look mattsun, i know what happened- i know you didn't mean it that way- but fuck, mattsun, you couldn't have said it any better?" oikawa said, a look of disappointment evident on his face.
mattsun raised an eyebrow, looking at oikawa with a confused look, "what do you mean?"
"you like makki, right?" started oikawa, continuing when mattsun nodded with a blush on his cheeks, "then why would you tell him everything was a mistake- that being all intimate with him was a mistake?"
when mattsun didn't answer, and still had that puzzled look on his face, oikawa rolled his eyes dramatically as he stared at the ceiling.
"mattsun, do you not remember? when you talked to makki last week? what you told him? do you not remember a single thing you told him?" oikawa pried, trying to get him to remember.
"w-well i do remember, but is that why makki is ignoring me? because i apologized for not forcibly bonding with him?"
oikawa snapped his head towards mattsun, eyes wide.
"no! no that's not what this is about! it's about how you said that stuff to makki!" yelled oikawa, growing frustrated.
mattsun was feeling the exact same, his irritation growing as he shouted, "what did i say!?"
oikawa snapped, "you told makki that everything was just your rut and alpha talking! you told makki you only acted like that with him because he was the closest omega! you told makki that being affectionate with him was a mistake! and that the night of your rut was the worst mistake of your life- despite you telling him that night that you loved him! you told makki that being with him would have ruined your life! that's what you said mattsun! that's why makki is ignoring you!"
mattsun was left silent. his eyes were wide and his mouth was left agape. but oikawa wasn't finished.
"and you didn't even notice how crushed you left makki! hajime found him in tears minutes later, and when he tried to talk to him, he just started sobbing! you tore makki down and didn't even notice!"
"b-but why-" mattsun stuttered out, but was interrupted by oikawa.
"why is he so hurt? mattsun, think for just a second! why would makki be so hurt by you telling him that all the affection you gave him was just your rut and the biggest mistake of your life and that being with him would ruin your life?"
when mattsun stayed quiet, oikawa huffed in anger, "he likes you mattsun! he likes you too! he's liked you for so long, probably just as long as you've liked him! and you hurt him! that's why he's ignoring you! because you hurt him by basically telling him you would never want to be with him!"
oikawa was left huffing after that, browning as he flopped against the wall. mattsun was standing still, his hand covering his mouth.
"i didn't even realize…" mattsun muttered.
"we assumed. but you have to fix this mattsun. makki is so hurt, and im not trying to make you feel bad when i say this, but mattsun, makki has been so close to a drop these past couple of days. his omega is so dejected, that hajime fears makki might drop at any minute."
mattsun felt like such an idiot. like the dumbest person on earth. but he couldn't feel bad for himself, not when makki was in pain. not when the person he swore to never hurt, was hurt because of his idiotic actions.
friday, december 16th, 2011
mattsun had spent the entire day yesterday trying to talk to iwaizumi, who was very adamant that he did not want to talk to him until he fixed his mess. which mattsun understood, but he eventually got iwaizumi to talk to him, even if it was humiliating. mattsun ended up on his knees right in front of iwaizumi, forehead on the floor, as he begged and begged that he listen and help him.
iwaizumi begrudgingly accepted and the two talked in the hall, where iwaizumi ripped into him and almost slapped him. mattsun had explained to him what he wanted to do and say- seeing as the last time he spoke to makki he caused this mess- but after all of it, iwaizumi agreed to help him.
"fine, but if makki isn't all giddy and happy by the end of the day, i'm castrating you as well, matsukawa," iwaizumi threatened him, and the glint in his eyes made matsukawa cower.
so there mattsun was a day later, standing at the back of the gym in the middle of december after practice was long over. he had his jacket off and a bouquet of hyacinths, hydrangeas, and tulips tucked underneath his white jacket. mattsun now knew he wasn't good with words, so hopefully the bouquet said what it needed to. he paced around, waiting for makki to arrive.
and when he heard that voice he missed dearly, muttering something about oikawa being an idiot for forgetting something, he stood tall and confident, hoping makki wouldn't be able to tell just how nervous he truly was.
then, makki came into view. still as beautiful as ever.
makki didn't notice him immediately, only looking up when he was just a couple of feet away from mattsun. his pink hair was as gorgeous as ever, but looked a little unkempt, as if he hadn't been bothered the past couple of days to brush it. when their eyes locked, mattsun could feel his heart ringing in his ears. though, makki seemed to be terrified of being near mattsun. his eyes were dull, and his eyebags were darker than usual- an obvious sign that he hadn't been sleeping well. his cheeks were flushed from the cold wind, but even mattsun could tell they were tear-stained. and his bubbly scent of candied berries was so dull and so dejected.
makki practically flinched when he realized he was face-to-face with mattsun. he looked away, arms coming to wrap around himself, and ready to run back to iwaizumi and oikawa. and mattsun knew that.
"w-wait, don't leave," mattsun said, breaking the uneasy silence, "please?"
the omega looked back at mattsun, nodding slowly. he stared down at the ground, waiting for mattsun to talk, just as he had done over a week ago.
"makki, i know the last time i told you sorry it got us into this mess. i know i fucked up, and for that im so sorry," mattsun started, but when he noticed makki about to speak up, he continued, "and don't say it's fine, makki."
makki closed his mouth, wanting to joke at the fact that mattsun knew what he was going to say, but that joy left as quickly as it came.
mattsun sighed as he tugged at his hair, trying to remember what he had rehearsed.
"the week of my pre-rut, and the night of my rut, weren't a mistake, makki. when i said that it was just my rut talking, and that my alpha grew attached to you because you're an omega, that was a lie! my alpha likes you because i like you, makki. i grew more affectionate with you because my rut-muddled mind knew that you were who i wanted. being all affectionate to you, treating you the way i treated you all those weeks ago, made me so happy because it gave me a glimpse of what it would be like to be with you, makki."
makki stared at mattsun, eyes searching for something to tell him that mattsun was lying. his lips were quivering and his eyes soon turned glassy.
he let out a shaky breath, "matsukawa-"
"i'm not done, makki, please, i've had this rehearsed for over a day," mattsun said, closing his eyes to rack his mind over once again.
he opened his eyes and stared directly into makki's, determination visible in his beady eyes, "i only remember one thing about the night my rut started, and that's me telling you i've always loved you. i can't remember anything else. and makki, please understand me when i say that that night wasn't the biggest mistake of my life because i told you that. when i said that, i meant that the possibility of hurting you, of marking you without your consent, of forcibly bonding you to me without me even telling you my feelings, was the biggest mistake of my life. because i would never, ever, want to hurt you makki. but confessing to you like that, even if it wasn't how i wanted to tell you, was never a mistake."
makki felt a couple tears fall, but he didn't look away from mattsun. he shook his head, a deep frown on his face.
"how can i trust you m-mattsun? you told me all of that h-hurtful stuff- you told me that being with me would have r-ruined you- and i've never felt so b-broken…"
the bouquet of flowers grew heavy being hidden behind mattsun's back. the alpha pulled the flowers out, removing his jacket from on top of them. the white and blue flowers sprung alive, the wind making them ruffle against each other. makki very faintly gasped at the sight of them.
"i know i hurt you makki, and i'll beat myself over it for as long as i live. and i know i broke your trust. but know that i'm being completely genuine when i say that im sorry- about everything i've said and done. i could go for hours on end talking about how i feel about you, how sorry i am about what i said, and how sorry i am that it took me so long to finally talk to you, but you don't have to forgive me. being around you is a privilege makki, and one that i took for granted the minute i broke your heart," mattsun's voice tapered out at the end, handing the flowers out to makki, but not moving an inch towards the omega.
makki took a step closer to mattsun, gently grabbing hold of the bouquet. he toyed with the petal of a blue hydrangea.
"you wanted to confess to me?" asked makki, his voice soft while he continued looking down at the flowers.
the alpha flushed a deep red, "of course, makki."
makki nodded, letting go of the flower and looking up to mattsun.
the pink-haired boy took a deep breath, "i forgive you mattsun, but just know i'm only doing so because i've m-missed you so much, and because my omega is depressed when you're not around, and because i know now that you're bad at words, and i know that you would never intentionally hurt me."
mattsun nodded, but stayed still, not wanting to touch makki without his permission. makki only sighed, moving to rest his head on mattsun's chest. yet, mattsun still didn't move.
"you can hug me, asshole," makki grumbled, moving the flowers so that they weren't in between him and mattsun.
that was all it took for mattsun to throw his arms over the omega. he pulled him closer, resting his head gently atop makki's pink hair.
"i missed you mattsun… so much," makki mumbled against the alpha's chest, relaxing against the alpha's hold.
"i missed you too, makki," mattsun hummed, hugging makki even tighter. the alpha moved his head before laying a gentle kiss on the omega's forehead. makki tensed for a second, but he then smiled against the black-haired boy's chest as his cheeks blushed a pretty pink.
makki had missed being around mattsun. though they were never officially together, his omega began to view mattsun as his mate. makki had been separated from mattsun for much longer than that before with no issues. but seeing as makki's omega felt as though he had been rejected, makki had to live those 11 days on the brink of a drop. it didn't feel good at all, and now that he had mattsun again, makki could rest.
and makki never wanted to leave this place. he felt so giddy just being in mattsun's arms again. and he missed the little pecks mattsun would leave on his face. he missed everything about the alpha, and now that he had him again, makki never wanted to let go.
it also helped that mattsun had unofficially confessed to him again.
saturday, december 22nd, 2012
"even after all that, they didn't start dating till a week later, on the 24th," joked oikawa, making mattsun grumble in irritation.
it had been over two hours since oikawa and iwaizumi started the story, and ironically everyone was completely absorbed in the story. yahaba was in between watari and kyoutani, and the two of them flopped against him. watari was lying down, his head resting in yahaba's lap. yahaba had his head on kyoutani's shoulder, who, funnily enough, had his head resting on top of yahaba's. kindaichi sat with his legs spread out, kunimi resting his back on his chest, gently playing with the young omega's silky black hair. oikawa and iwaizumi were sitting side by side, both having taken turns speaking.
stan and kyle, on the other hand, were all flushed. makki was still sitting with mattsun now having buried his face in makki's shirt, trying his hardest to ignore the pack.
watari lifted his head and turned to the two first-years, "dramatic, right?"
kyoutani just scoffed and looked at kunimi and kindaichi, "it was annoying, that's what it was."
kunimi just smiled, turning to the four third-years, "i would have skipped practice as well, sounds like a lot to handle for 3 weeks."
kyoutani nodded, receiving a harsh pinch near his ribs from yahaba.
kindaichi only laughed, "i thought it was cute! even if matsukawa-san isn't good with his words."
makki snorted at that, "he wasn't, but he made up for it near the end."
kunimi stared up at kindaichi, and once the young alpha noticed him and looked down, the omega spoke, "if you ever said something like that to me, i wouldn't be as nice as hanamaki-san, and forgive you, got it?"
kindaichi audibly gulped, nodding.
mattsun quickly pulled himself away from makki, pointing to his seven packmates in the room, "you guys don't have the right to pick on me! i fucked up but in the end, im dating takahiro, so who's really winning!?"
watari rolled his eyes jokingly, "wrap it up bert and ernie!"
makki gasps, placing his hand on his chest. in mere seconds the room is filled with yelling. mattsun's reaction mirrors that of his boyfriend. kyoutani is telling draculaura and clawd to quiet down while yahaba, once again, elbows him to show some respect. kindaichi and kunimi just watch as their seniors began to verbally attack each other.
iwaizumi watches too because this is his pack and he loves seeing them so carefree. it takes just minutes before oikawa tells them to stop and they do, shuffling over to their original positions.
and iwaizumi smiles, because, from the looks of it, it seems that everyone who survived the dreaded matsukawa issei rut incident deserves an award. though all that doesn't matter when iwaizumi looks at makki and mattsun cuddling together because he knows that that's his award.