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Red hair and a hand-me-down robe. You must be the Weasleys. - Draco Malfoy
Prologue
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"I don't care, Ronald!" Hermione snaps, her voice sharp as a whip, echoing off the walls. Her eyes blaze with frustration, cheeks flushed, and hands clenched tightly at her sides. "I'm exhausted, and I don't have time for this right now!"
She shoots him a final, withering glare before spinning on her heel. Her curls bounce with the sudden movement as she storms off, the hem of her robe swishing behind her. Without another word, she disappears down the hallway and toward their shared bedroom.
"Hermione! Don't just blow this off!" Ron's voice thunders through the room, rough with hurt and disbelief. "You can't just go getting drinks with another guy when you're supposed to be with me!"
The words strike her like a slap, freezing her mid-step. Her spine stiffens. Slowly—almost too slowly—she turns on her heel, curls whipping around her like a storm brewing on the edge of control. Her eyes lock onto his with a fury that simmers for months, and now, all that pent-up frustration surges to the surface.
It circles her like a tempest, five months of swallowed arguments and quiet disappointments building into something volatile, something sharp. The tension in the room crackles like static as she faces him fully, jaw clenched, lips parted—on the brink of unleashing everything she's kept buried.
"Me? ME?" Hermione's voice rises, raw and incredulous, echoing through the room like a spell cast in fury. Her chest heaves as she points at herself, her eyes wide with disbelief. "You go out every night, sometimes not coming home until sunrise—reeking of firewhiskey—and you have the nerve to turn this on me?"
Her voice cracks with emotion, but her stare remains steady, burning. "You don't even ask why I went out, you just assume the worst. You know nothing, Ronald. You're an even bigger hypocrite than I ever imagined."
Ron's face flushes crimson, his jaw clenches so tightly it looks like it might snap. His fists shake at his sides, and before Hermione can blink, he snatches a porcelain vase from the fireplace mantle. With a roar of frustration, he hurls it across the room. It shatters against the wall, mere inches from her head, the shards exploding like glass rain.
The silence that follows is deafening.
Without another word, he storms out—his boots heavy on the floor, his breath ragged—and the door slams shut behind him, the final click reverberating through the house like thunder after lightning.
Hermione stands frozen for a heartbeat, then lets out a long, slow breath. Relief seeps into her bones, dragging down her shoulders. With a flick of her wand and a whispered "Reparo," the vase mends itself, floating gently back to its rightful place on the mantle.
She turns away, a sigh escaping her lips—wearier this time—and pads toward the bedroom. The tension still clings to her like a second skin. As she begins changing into her nightclothes, her mind spins with everything that unravels between them lately, each memory pressing heavier than the last.
It's been five long months since the war ended, and the world is still struggling to stitch itself back together. The echoes of spells cast in desperation, the scent of smoke and blood in the air—it all lingers like a shadow over the wizarding world. Lives are lost, families torn apart, and the ground itself feels heavier with grief.
When Harry destroys Voldemort—shatters him into nothing more than a dark memory—there is no cheer, no celebration. Just silence. A stillness that settles over the survivors like ash. The moment the battle is over, the weight of it all—the deaths, the trauma, the unbearable loss—crashes down on Harry like a tidal wave. And that night, without a word, he vanishes.
Not even a note. Not a trace.
No one has seen him since. Not one owl, not one whisper of magic. It's as if the boy who saves the world simply dissolves into mist.
Hermione, always his anchor, is gripped by worry ever since. She throws herself into her new position at the Ministry of Magic, hoping that through official channels, archives, and contacts, she might uncover a clue—a trail—anything to lead her to him. But Harry, as always, is maddeningly good at disappearing when he doesn't want to be found.
And Merlin, how she misses him.
Every time she gets close—just the faintest flicker of his presence, a rumor in a far-off town, a distorted magical signature—he vanishes again, as if the world itself conspires to keep him hidden.
Tonight is no different. She goes out once more, chasing another lead, meeting someone in a dim corner of a pub who claims to have information. But it's another dead end. Another evening of false hope slipping through her fingers like sand.
And with each passing day, the emptiness he leaves behind grows louder in her chest.
With a weary sigh that seems to echo from her very soul, Hermione steps into the bathroom, her movements slow and deliberate, as though each step carries the weight of the entire day. She reaches for the tap and turns it on, the pipes groaning softly before a rush of water pours from the showerhead. Steam begins to curl up into the air, ghosting over the mirror and wrapping around her like a whisper of warmth.
She undresses in silence, peeling away her clothes piece by piece, each layer sticking slightly to her skin after the long, tense night. Her fingertips linger on the buttons and seams—not out of hesitation, but fatigue—until at last she stands bare and vulnerable in the rising mist.
As the glass fogs over and the first beads of condensation roll down the tiled walls, Hermione steps beneath the stream. Hot water cascades over her skin, drawing a soft gasp from her lips as it strikes the tension coiled in her shoulders and neck. The heat seeps deep into her muscles, coaxing out the ache rooted in her bones, melting the exhaustion that clings to her like a second skin.
She closes her eyes and tilts her face up toward the stream, letting it wash over her—rinsing away the night's disappointment, the lingering frustration, and the heaviness that follows her home like a shadow.
For a moment, she simply stands there, letting the water carry it all away.
After what feels like an eternity beneath the comforting cascade of hot water, Hermione finally reaches for the bottle of jasmine-scented shampoo perched on the shower shelf. She pours a generous amount into her palm, inhaling the delicate, floral fragrance before working it into her chestnut curls. Her fingers massage her scalp in slow, methodical circles, trying to ease the tension still lingering like knots beneath her skin.
She leans back, allowing the water to rinse away the suds, watching as they spiral down the drain—like pieces of her unraveling calm being carried away.
Next, she grabs her bar of vanilla soap, its sweet, warm scent blooming in the steam. She rubs it over her arms, her collarbone, down her legs—small, deliberate motions meant to soothe rather than rush. The simple act of cleansing feels almost sacred now, a moment to reclaim some sense of control amidst the chaos swirling through her life.
After a few more minutes wrapped in the haze of heat and scent, she finally shuts off the water. The silence that follows is thick, broken only by the soft patter of droplets falling from her hair and the hum of her breath. She steps out carefully, reaching for a plush towel to wrap around herself, another to twist into her curls. The cool air of the bathroom kisses her damp skin, making her shiver.
Padding barefoot across the tiled floor, she stands before the mirror, fogged with steam. With a tired sort of determination, she picks up her toothbrush and begins her nightly routine, each motion automatic. Brush. Rinse. Spit. Repeat. There's something oddly grounding in it.
Once finished, Hermione makes her way to the bedroom, the soft cotton of the towel brushing against her legs. She slips beneath the covers, letting the warmth of the blankets chase away the chill that lingers in the air. The bed feels too big, the room too quiet. Her eyes drift to Ron's side of the bed—still untouched, still cold.
A tight knot twists in her chest. Without warning, a few tears escape, trailing silently down her cheeks before soaking into her pillow. She doesn't sob, doesn't break down—just lies there, blinking through the quiet ache.
Only five months. That's all they've had together. And already, it feels like they're falling apart. Fighting more than talking. Hurting more than healing.
She pulls the blankets tighter around herself, hoping sleep will offer some kind of peace.
THE NEXT DAY
Hermione lets out a long, weary sigh as she wipes a bead of sweat from her brow, the parchment beneath her arms smudging slightly with the sheen of her skin. The day has been endless, each hour stretching into the next like a never-ending corridor of tasks, meetings, and urgent memos. The Ministry is always buzzing with activity, but today has been particularly brutal. Cramped office spaces, loud voices echoing down the halls, and a particularly tense negotiation with a centaur delegation have drained what little energy she has left.
Stacks of parchment lie scattered across her desk like a paper battlefield—correspondence with magical creature representatives, permit requests, field reports, and evaluations. The Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures isn't glamorous work, but Hermione cares about it deeply. It means something. She's made real progress over the last few months, pushing for fair treatment, stronger protections, and clearer legislation.
Still, even noble causes don't keep the exhaustion at bay.
With practiced efficiency, she shuffles her papers into organized stacks and places them carefully into their folders. She slides them into her leather satchel and slings it over her shoulder, wincing slightly at the weight. As she approaches the office door, she pauses, then cracks it open and peeks her head into the hallway.
"Goodnight, Julia," she calls softly, offering a tired but genuine smile.
Her assistant—an older woman with streaks of silver running through her otherwise dark curls—looks up from her own pile of documents and returns the smile. "'Night, Hermione. Don't work too late."
"I won't," Hermione lies with a small laugh, pulling the door shut behind her.
She leans against it for a second, her smile fading into something more wistful. Julia has been her assistant for months now—efficient, reliable, and one of the few people Hermione trusts to keep up with the pace she sets. But Julia has recently accepted a position in another department—one that comes with better hours and fewer late nights. Hermione has supported her wholeheartedly, but the news still hits like a sting.
It means interviews. Applications. New faces. It means letting someone else into her trusted space, into her work.
And she is not looking forward to it.
Pushing the thought aside, she turns away from the door and moves across her office toward the fireplace nestled in the far wall. The greenish glow of the embers pulses gently, waiting for her. With a practiced flick of her wand, the flames roar to life, shifting into the familiar hue of Floo magic.
She steps in, the comfort of home only a few heartbeats away.
Hermione steps toward the ornate clay pot resting beside the hearth, its charmed surface etched with ancient runes glowing faintly in the firelight. She dips her hand inside and retrieves a small handful of glittering Floo powder, the grains catching the flicker of the emerald flames.
With a steady voice, she calls out her address—"10 Laurel Glen Lane."
In an instant, the world around her spins into a whirlwind of green fire and rushing air. The familiar tug behind her navel makes her stomach flip, and before she can blink, she's stepping out onto the hearth of her own fireplace.
She stumbles slightly—just enough to mutter a tired curse under her breath—then quickly straightens, brushing soot and ash from the hem of her fitted black pencil skirt. Her crisp white blouse clings to her skin from the lingering heat of the flames, the buttons slightly askew from the journey. She exhales slowly, the silence of her flat wrapping around her like a weighted blanket.
Without much thought, she sets her satchel down on the small table in the center of the room, the leather giving a soft thud against the glass surface. Her wand follows, along with her ring of keys, which jingle lightly as they scatter across the tabletop. She bends slightly, slipping off her polished black heels and leaving them beside the table, toes flexing gratefully as they meet the cool wooden floor.
The living room is still and dimly lit, only the dying fire and a flickering enchanted lamp in the corner offering any light. It's quiet—too quiet, perhaps—but for Hermione, it's a momentary sanctuary from the demands of the world outside.
And for now, that's enough.
The soft thud of her heels left behind, Hermione pads across the floor and makes her way into the kitchen, the cool air brushing against her flushed skin. She tugs open the stainless steel fridge, the door releasing a soft hiss of chilled air. Reaching inside, her fingers curl around a frosted glass bottle of water. Condensation trails down her wrist as she twists off the cap and takes a long, much-needed sip. The cold liquid soothes her parched throat and grounds her, if only for a moment. Her shoulders slowly begin to lower from where they've been tensed all day, and her mind—always ticking—starts to unwind.
That is, until she hears it.
A faint sound, distant but distinct, comes from down the hall.
Hermione's breath catches.
It's a low creaking noise. Rhythmic. Soft, but persistent. Not the kind of sound a house makes when it settles. It's deliberate.
She freezes for a moment, bottle in hand, her heart beginning to thud against her ribcage.
Setting the bottle down on the countertop with trembling fingers, she moves back through the living room. Her bag sits where she left it, and she quietly reaches inside, fingers curling around the smooth wood of her wand. She draws it with the fluid precision of a habit born from war. Her other hand hovers near her side, open and shaking slightly, but she forces her feet forward.
The hallway feels longer now, the shadows stretched thinner than they had been only minutes before. The creaking continues—softer now—and then, unmistakably, comes the muffled edge of a voice. Feminine. Fragile. A breathy moan, half-suppressed.
Hermione's stomach drops.
She stops just shy of the bedroom door, her body taut like a bowstring. Every muscle in her arms and legs screams at her to turn around, to forget she heard anything. But she can't.
She won't.
Her heart pounds in her ears as she leans in, listening.
Another sound.
This one lower, rougher. Male. A deep, guttural moan that claws at her insides like broken glass.
Her hand shakes as she reaches for the doorknob, her wand clutched so tightly in her other hand her knuckles have gone stark white. Her lips tremble as silent dread swells up her throat like bile.
The door creaks open with a reluctant whisper.
And her world shatters.
A silent sob wracks her chest, curling through her ribs like a vice. Her knees threaten to buckle beneath her, but she stands still, frozen in the doorway, the dim lighting painting cruel shadows across the scene in front of her. Her wand trembles in her grip, the tip lowered slightly as if it, too, is stunned.
Tears slip silently down her cheeks, carving trails across the makeup she hasn't yet washed off. She doesn't make a sound. Can't. She bites the inside of her cheek until she tastes blood, trying to hold herself together—trying not to scream.
The ache in her chest swells to something unbearable, and still, she watches.
Still, she doesn't look away.
Hermione stands frozen in the doorway, her heart hammering in her chest as she takes in the scene before her. The bedroom is dimly lit, casting long shadows across the bed. There, tangled in the sheets, are Ron and Astoria. Their bodies are pressed together in a way that leaves no question about what is happening, and the sight hits Hermione like a wave of cold water.
Her stomach twists painfully, a mix of disbelief and betrayal clawing at her insides. She doesn't know what hurts more: seeing Ron like this, or the way it feels like the final confirmation of everything she had feared. Her eyes sting, but she holds her ground, refusing to give in to the weakness she so desperately wants to escape. She takes a deep, steadying breath and feels a wave of calmness spread over her—cool, like the first breath of morning air after a storm.
Ron and Astoria are oblivious to her presence. She doesn't say a word. She knows, deep down, that anything she says will only shift the blame onto her. He'll turn it around on her. He always does. The thought of engaging him—of confronting him—makes her feel sick to her stomach. No, this isn't the moment for words. This isn't a fight she's willing to have, not right now.
Instead, she raises her wand slowly, her hands trembling only slightly. She casts a silencing charm over the bed, muting the sounds of their entangled bodies. The room falls eerily quiet, her breath the only noise now as she turns toward the rest of the space.
Hermione walks across the room, each step a mix of numbness and purpose. She moves with quiet precision, gathering her things from around the apartment. Her eyes scan the room, picking up items she'll need—clothes, toiletries, a few personal belongings—her extendable bag stretches and expands as she quickly shoves things inside. The world outside feels distant and cold, as if everything inside her apartment has stopped moving, leaving her alone in a moment that is both surreal and painful.
As she works, her mind races. She can't stay here. Not now, not with the weight of what she's just witnessed. She needs space. She needs to think. To be away from him. Away from the lies. The constant hiding.
With her bag packed and everything in place, Hermione stands still for a moment, the silence in the room pressing down on her. She doesn't look back at the bed, at Ron, or at Astoria. There's nothing left to see, nothing left to say.
With a final glance around the room, she turns and leaves, closing the door quietly behind her. The cool night air meets her as she steps outside, the chill a welcome contrast to the suffocating heat of the apartment.
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She makes up her mind, her resolve hardening with each passing step. There is no turning back now. The weight of what she has just witnessed—of the betrayal, the heartbreak—is too much to bear. Her feet move on their own, carrying her away from the apartment, away from everything she has tried to hold onto. Taking a small pause, Hermione takes a deep breath and disapparates on the spot.
Tears, which have been building up behind her tired eyes for hours, finally slip free. They trace cool lines down her cheeks as she walks through the rocky terrain, her footsteps sure but slow. This is the same land she and Harry traversed so many years ago, when they were searching for the Horcruxes, their lives weighed down by a task so much larger than them. The memories hit her like waves.
She glances toward the spot where their tent had stood—a humble thing compared to the enormity of their mission. The exact place where she shared a fleeting moment of happiness with Harry, a brief escape from the chaos of the world. They danced, their laughter mingling with the soft music of a broken radio. Her fingers clung to his as they swayed in the flickering light, the world outside them fading away. The moment had been so simple, so pure, that it seems a lifetime ago, almost like it belongs to someone else.
Her chest tightens as the memory replays, and she quickly turns away, unwilling to stay in that moment too long. She can't afford to dwell on the past—not now. Still, her heart feels heavy with the absence of the hope she has clung to for so long.
The wind whispers through the trees, carrying with it the scent of pine and earth, grounding her in the present. She starts walking again, her eyes scanning the familiar landscape, every rock, every tree, every corner of this place now marked by their shared past. What if? she thinks for a moment. What if he's here? What if I can find him here, in this place where we were once so sure of ourselves, so sure of our friendship?
But the reality is stark. She searches for two days, scouring the land, retracing every step they took together. She checks every place she knows they visited in those long months—places they camped, small nooks they used to escape from the overwhelming weight of their task. She searches for any sign of Harry, any trace, no matter how small. But the land holds its secrets close. The trees whisper nothing, the rocks remain silent, and the earth itself seems indifferent to her pain.
By the third morning, after two days of relentless searching, exhaustion weighs heavily on her body and her spirit. Her hope has begun to wither, like the leaves of a tree in late autumn. She feels the sharp ache of disappointment cutting into her resolve. It is clear now, though she refuses to admit it at first: maybe he isn't here. Maybe he never will be.
Her eyes, once so determined, grow distant as she stands at the edge of a familiar outcrop, the weight of her failure pressing down on her chest. With a final glance around the expanse that had been so important to her once, she swallows hard, turning away.
There is only one place left to go now. The place she hopes to avoid—the place that holds too many memories of the past. Grimmauld Place.
Her heart skips at the thought of it. The house where so many plans were made. The house where so much began—and, ultimately, so much was lost. But if there is any chance of finding Harry, it will be there.
Taking a deep breath, Hermione sets her gaze forward, the last remnants of her hope clinging to that distant, familiar destination. She has no idea what awaits her at Grimmauld Place, but the road ahead is clear.
The moonlight filters through the trees outside as Hermione creeps toward Grimmauld Place, her steps careful and deliberate. The house looms before her like an old, familiar specter, its dark windows staring down at her as though it is watching her every move. The air is heavy with the scent of dust and old wood, the same musty odor she remembers from when they stayed there before.
With a deep breath, she raises her wand and mutters the incantation. The house groans in response, the familiar creak of its old bones reverberating through the night. As if sensing her presence, it slowly reveals itself to her, its hidden secrets gradually fading away as the magic of the house unfolds. She doesn't need to be invited inside. It has always been a part of her life, and tonight, she has come for answers—or perhaps, just to escape.
Hermione peers through the darkened windows, her heart racing as she reaches for her wand again. "Revelare," she whispers softly, the spell tingling through the air. Her wandtip glows briefly, casting light across the room. It reveals no one. The house is empty, or at least it appears so.
Satisfied, she slips inside, careful not to make a sound as the window creaks open, the glass scraping against its frame. She feels an odd sense of déjà vu, the same eerie sensation from when they first stumbled into this house. It has always felt like the house had a life of its own, but tonight, it seems still, as if even it has given up on waiting for anyone to come back.
Hermione pulls herself into the dimly lit entryway and closes the window behind her with a soft thud. The house is eerily silent as she makes her way toward the stairs. The worn, wooden floors creak beneath her feet, but she moves carefully, keeping her weight centered, as if any loud noise might disturb something—or someone—lurking in the shadows.
She reaches the base of the staircase and glances up toward the rooms above. The air feels thick and oppressive, but she pushes through, climbing the stairs slowly, one careful step after another. Her fingers brush against the walls, the dark tapestries and faded portraits watching her from every corner. She feels as though the eyes are following her, but she ignores the sensation. She doesn't have the luxury of fear tonight.
Reaching the top of the stairs, Hermione chooses a room at random—an old, dusty place where the furniture seems as though it hasn't been touched in years. She throws open the door with little hesitation, the hinges groaning in protest, and steps inside. The room is cramped, the furniture shoved haphazardly in places. The bed, long untouched, sits in the middle of the room, draped in faded curtains. There is an old chest at the foot of the bed, the wood dark and weathered.
Hermione drops her things onto the floor, tossing her bag and cloak carelessly into the corner. The clutter doesn't matter. Not tonight. She moves swiftly, rearranging the items around her, moving the furniture to suit her needs, though it doesn't bring her comfort. She is just looking for some semblance of control—anything to distract her from the gnawing emptiness inside.
A deep growl tears through her stomach, reminding her that, despite her need for answers, her body still has its own demands. She pauses, hand on the edge of the wardrobe, feeling her stomach twist in discomfort. Another growl follows, louder this time, and Hermione's hand instinctively presses against her abdomen.
She sighs, closing her eyes for a moment as the hunger overwhelms her. She hasn't eaten much earlier, too preoccupied with the emotional weight of everything to think about feeding herself. But now, it is undeniable.
With a huff of frustration, Hermione turns and makes her way back down the stairs. The house is still silent, the only sound the soft padding of her footsteps on the worn carpet. The kitchen seems so far away, but she continues, her feet taking her through the familiar hallways, past old doors that creak as if protesting her every movement.
The kitchen is dark, but the outline of it is still recognizable, even after everything that has happened in this house. She opens the pantry door, the cool, damp air brushing against her face as she scans the shelves, looking for something quick and easy to settle her stomach. A can of soup catches her eye. It isn't much, but it will do.
Hermione pulls it off the shelf, and as she examines it for a moment, she realizes it isn't even her first choice, but it is all that is left. She doesn't care. She'll settle for anything to quiet the rumbling in her stomach. She uses her wand to heat the can, the magic warming it just enough to make it edible.
The soup is bland, and the small portion doesn't fill the emptiness inside her, but it is something—something to keep her going. She eats quickly, the motions automatic, not caring about taste or even the act itself. It is fuel. Nothing more.
When she finishes, she sets the can down, leaning against the counter as the cold night air seeps in through the window. The kitchen seems to breathe with the house, heavy and still, as if waiting for something—or someone—to finally break the silence.
With a sigh, Hermione wipes her mouth with the back of her hand and takes a deep breath. The search will continue tomorrow. But tonight, she needs to rest. There is no way she can keep going without a pause. Grimmauld Place is no longer the place of refuge it once had been, but for now, it is the only place she can be.
About thirty minutes later, Hermione sits at the small kitchen table, her half-eaten meal now cold. She cradles the last bit of her drink in her hands, the warmth of the mug seeping into her palms as she takes a final, absentminded sip. Her mind is far away—adrift in memories, tangled in heartache, lost in questions that have no answers. The silence of Grimmauld Place is heavy, almost suffocating, broken only by the occasional creak of old wood settling in the dark.
She pushes the empty mug aside with a sigh, leaning her elbows on the table and burying her face in her hands, when a sudden click echoes from the front door.
Her head snaps up. That isn't the house creaking.
It was the unmistakable sound of the front door unlocking.
She froze. Every muscle in her body tensed as her heart leapt into her throat. A chill danced down her spine.
Silently, Hermione pushed back her chair and rose to her feet. Her fingers slid toward her wand on the counter, gripping it tightly. She crept around the kitchen wall, each step measured and quiet, her breath caught in her lungs.
Peeking around the corner into the dark hallway, she saw it—a tall, looming figure standing at the door, facing it with one hand still resting on the lock. The figure's broad shoulders and dark silhouette were illuminated faintly by the moonlight trickling through the stained-glass window above the entryway.
Whoever it was… they weren't supposed to be here.
Hermione tightened her grip on her wand, raising it slowly, arm trembling slightly as she stepped into the hall. Her bare feet made no sound on the old floorboards as she crept closer. Every nerve in her body screamed to act—to defend herself. But something in the back of her mind whispered a warning: Don't hex until you're sure.
The figure shifted slightly, as if sensing her presence. Then, slowly, it turned.
A gasp ripped from her throat before she could stop it, and her wand clattered to the ground, forgotten.
Her eyes widened, her breath caught somewhere between a sob and a whisper. Tears welled instantly, blurring her vision as her lips parted in disbelief.
The man in front of her froze as well, recognition flooding his features as the dim light illuminated his face.
"Hermione?"
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Until next time,
HL