It felt less annoying now. Maybe because the witch wasn't near here. I tried to move my hand it didn't hurt to do so anymore. I guess the side effect from that stupid Tea was finally gone. Master had fallen asleep waiting. I wrapped my arms around her. I really should take her back to her room. But...this is nice~ I can finally touch her again. I held her close and sighed.
Finally...That was so annoying...
I lightly pecked at her lips. I quickly heard her mumbled at me. "If you are going to do that not here, Nemo..." she told me in a whisper. I knew what she was trying to tell me. That we should leave here. I didn't really want to move. "Do we have too? ~" I asked kissing at her neck. "Yes. if you are going to be like this." I pouted hearing her answer me. She was right of course. I also need to have a talk with her before big mouth tries to tell you. I know without a doubt it will not go well...at all. She will clearly take it the wrong way. I am not looking forward to it.
I sighed. I had to give in no matter what. I took her into my arms and carried her out of the witch's lab. "I can walk you know." I knew that of course but I didn't want her too. I wanted to carry her. I want to hold her against me. So, I ignored what she had said. "Nemo." She knew I was just ignoring what she was saying to me. "I want to carry you." I plainly told her. "This isn't...necessary."
"I Know...but please let me." I whispered to her lightly kissing her cheek. I know she isn't injured or anything. But I just want to hold her. As much as I can. I'm sure she understood why. The whole way back to her room. I tried to figure out how to explain to her. Why this whole thing happens and what was the reason behind it. I would have to tell her about my past. I knew that part wouldn't go well at all. She wouldn't take it well at all. I knew that without a doubt. In truth I didn't want to tell her at all. I am so fearful over how she will react to it.
But I know if I don't tell her Sion will. I think it will go worse if she tells her and not me. I am without a doubt I'm scared. The past for both of us was a scary time. It felt like nothing good happened there. But...I can't just avoid this. I know that. "Is something wrong Nemo? you look like you are thinking hard about something."
"..." I'm really scared. I don't want to talk about this. But I have too. I really have too. I could only stare at her. I was still trying to get my thoughts in order. I don't want to do this. I really don't. I started it out in the worse way I could. "I'm sorry." I quickly apologized to her. She could only give me a confuse look in return. "Why are you apologizing to me?" of course she didn't understand. she wouldn't until I explain it to her. This whole thing had been my fault so of course I apologized to her. Sion was trying to find out why I would react the way I did toward my master. that was the whole reason behind this whole thing. She knew now. Everything happened because of one reason. Something I couldn't accept. My Regret cause everything to go out of control. I still had that regret even now. Even now as her servant. I know...you aren't her. You two are two different people. but...I can't help myself but see her a bit in you. I am horrible because of this.
"All of this happened because Sion was trying to learn something...I didn't want anyone to know." I plainly told her. "Uh...okay but that doesn't explain why you are apologizing to me." of course it doesn't. I don't want to talk about that part. I don't want to think about that time anymore. I don't want to talk about it... But now I have too. I felt tears running down my face. This is too much. I can't... I felt myself sob against her. "Nemo? What's wrong?" she hugged me. I'm sorry...I'm sorry. Even now...it's too much for me. Thinking about that time I... still can't accept it. My regret never left me. That's why I react so strongly when things happen to you. That's why I get so scared. I can't...let that ever happen again.
I have to calm down. She doesn't even understand why...I am acting this way. She held me against her trying to calm me down. I'm sorry...I know you don't understand. But it means so much to have you beside me. But this just makes me more scared to talk about this. I want to be with you more than you will ever know. But I know this will go poorly...and there no way around that.
"I have a story to tell you, Master." A story I don't want to tell. "A story? Does that link to what Sion did?" I nodded to her. Everything was linked after all. Linked in the most horrible way. The biggest link I had was my regret for being so powerless in my past life. I couldn't protect her than. That's why I am so desperate to protect her in this life.