Hello. It has been a while since I wrote something. But I had this idea and had to get it out. I hope you enjoy it.

Laid off. I just got laid off from my job. I sigh as I sit on a park bench in Central Park. The restaurant owner said that his son really needed a job and I was told that I wasn't needed anymore. Apparently that was a legal thing for him to do. Great just great. I open my phone and get right on indeed. I need to find something as soon as possible. I have bills to pay. I have some savings. Not a lot but some to get me by for a couple months. That is something that my parents instilled in me. Always have a savings. So luckily, I do have some.

I'm scrolling through the restaurant jobs and applying for as many as I can. I hit the back button and go back to the main page. I see something that catches my eye. It is an ad for a surrogate website. I figured that I should look into it. What's the harm? I had a healthy pregnancy with my daughter Molly. I had her at 39 weeks. Labor lasted a long time. 32 hours to be exact. But there were no complications through the 9 months or the delivery. So I could definitely do this. I don't have a husband to stop me. Molly's dad, Jake and I divorced when Molly was a baby. Now she's 3. So I quickly go to website and apply to be a surrogate. It is a lengthy application process. I am not surprised though. They need young and healthy people to be a surrogate for someone. And definitely someone who doesn't have problems getting pregnant.

Fortunately, I don't have a problem getting pregnant. Jake and I weren't even trying. We were 24. We had just gotten married and then two months later, I found out we were going to have Molly. She had been born October 3rd of that year. So after she was born, we decided that we should be really careful. We loved having her but we knew that we didn't want more right then. We wanted to wait. Sometimes, I like to wonder what would have happened if we never divorced. Would we have had more kids by now? Who knows. It's ok though, I can't think about that right now. Right now I need to focus on helping a couple, grow their family.

It was awful getting divorced from him. I thought everything was fine. I was so happy. We were newly married and had a baby. We were even looking to buy a house. One night he came home from work just as I was putting Molly down. He had to stay at the office late that night. He said we needed to talk. I was instantly scared. So I sat down with him on the couch. That's when he admitted to me that he thought we rushed into marriage and he wasn't sure if he still loved me. That was hard to hear. And after everything was done, it took us a while to get to the healthy place we are now.

When I go home, I feel good about what I did. I could be helping a family have a baby. That would be incredible. By doing that, I could take some time from the restaurant world for a little bit. This is a game changer.

I heat up Chinese take out from the fridge and sit on my couch. I pull out my phone and pull up Jake's number. I call him to talk to Molly. This is his weekend with my precious daughter. I could use some cheering up from her sweet voice. I just can't let her know what happened today.

"Hi baby." I say when her cute little face appears on my phone. Gosh I love her so much. She looks just like me. She has Jakes blonde curly hair. But her face is all me.

"Hi mama."

"Are you being a good girl for daddy?" Sometimes when she is with him, she really tries hard to get her way. It works a lot of the time.

She nods. "We eating pizza."

"Ooh pizza. You are one lucky girl." It's true. She is. Jake loves her so much. He will do anything for her and spoils her to pieces. I got very lucky with what a good dad he is. And luckily we co-parent really well too. We have a good thing going.

"Uh huh. Oh I gotta eat pizza." She hands the phone to her dad. I can't help but laugh. That little girl loves her pizza. She's too cute.

"Jake can you have her call me before she goes to bed tonight?" I ask.

"Yes."

I smile. "Ok talk to you later."

Yes we get along but that doesn't mean that I want to have a conversation with him on FaceTime. And I certainly don't want him to know about my job situation. So I would rather just talk to Molly later.

He smiles back to me. "Talk later."

I hang up the phone and turn on the TV and eat my Chinese food.

I still can't believe that I am going to do this. It is perfect though. Not only will a couple get a baby that they always dreamed of, but it pays really well. Although, being pregnant with a three year old should be interesting. I do have a very well behaved kid though. Gosh I love her so much.

I'm not going to tell anyone about this just yet though. Not Jake or Rachel or my parents or Ross. I don't want anyone to talk me out of it. It's a big deal and they will say I need to think it over more. Or what am I doing? Or Are you sure? They all mean well but this is something that I don't need their opinion on. Especially Jake. Him and I aren't even married anymore.

I'm very sure. I am going to do this.