Bailey offers April some advice in s9.
Miranda Bailey was a professional - she didnotenjoy getting involved in anyone's personal lives. Sure, she enjoyed an occasional gossip and somehow knowing everything that went on at Seattle Grace Mercy West (even when she didn't want to, or try to, know it), but that didn't mean she always appreciated what a distraction it was. They were here to work and provide the best possible care, after all, and they couldn't do that if they were too busy moping.
For once, she was choosing to get involved (reluctantly). It was pretty obvious to her that April Kepner needed someone to talk to and set her straight - someone who actually understood, and so, she was going to offer that. Only because she'd already heard an earful in the attending's lounge already when all she wanted was to take a nap.
"Oh, hi, Dr. Bailey. How are you? How's the wedding planning going? Do-"
"Kepner, quit talking." She states, holding up her hand to cut the redhead off. April blinks at her in response, a little taken aback by the abruptness, but determined to listen to whatever it was that her fellow doctor was going to say. "Now, if I do recall, there was a time when I was drunk and you looked after me. I said to lose your virginity to a nice boy, a kind boy - one who loves you. And you did, did you not?"
April looks at her, confused, wondering where the conversation is going. She certainly hadn't expected her to even remember that night in the ER - let alone bring it up again. "Uh, I-maybe? but-"
"So, I don't see what the problem is with you sleeping with Avery."
How did everyone already know about that?!And why did it feel so much more embarrassing that her superior knew and was now trying to advise her on what to do about it? This was almost like when Mark had tried to encourage her to sleep with him in the first place, only much less inappropriate.
She takes in a breath, trying her best to not let herself ramble. "The problem is that I was saving myself for marriage, and Jackson...he's not my husband. Now I'm not going to be a virgin for my actual future husband, so everything's a mess and I-"
Bailey cut her off again, wanting to get to the point that she was trying to make. "Look, I don't go around talking about own faith - my relationship with God? Thats between me and Him, but...I was like you once - trying to follow all the rules and thinking that hey, if I did just that then maybe my life would be oh so perfect, so I lost my virginity to my husband and had Tuck, and guess what? We still got divorced. Did I let that stop me from moving on with my damn life and being happy? Hell no! I'm engaged, again, and Tuck has himself a pretty damn great step-dad."
April takes in her words, feeling a little bit better about her situation for a moment, because it is genuinely comforting to hear from someone who is also a Christian and somewhat understands what she's going through. Everyone else seems to just want to poke fun at her (and Jackson, by association). There's a part of her that still can't help but feel bad, though, as she points out the obvious difference between their situations, "But...at least you were married, you know?"
"The point is that you can't plan for everything. Yes, I was married, and I did everything the 'right' way. Do I regret it? No, because then I wouldn't have my son, but I also don't think that following all those rules and putting pressure on myself did anything for me. All it did was give me a hell of a lot of stress, and my heart can't be dealing with that no more. Doing things my way doesn't make me any less of a Christian. You wanna know why? Because faith is personal. It can't be measured by some rules in a book."
"I just...I don't even know if Jackson wants me. Maybe itwasjust sex to him and I have to just go back to being friends with him without making it more awkward than it already is..." She admits quietly, because she truly doesn't know where she stands now after they both spent the last few months ghosting each other. What if he didn't want her? How did they make things just go back to the way they were before?
Bailey lets out a heavy sigh, but as she gives her some honest words. "Then talk to him. Ask him where he's at and how he feels about this." She softens her voice as she continues, "That man cares about you. Everyone in this hospital with eyes can see that, or are you forgetting that he was the one who gave Alex Karev a black eye after you tried to take your maiden voyage with him?"
"He was...just being a good friend."
"Maybe so, or maybe he likes you. Either way, it's up to you to find out. Communicate!" A moment of comfortable silence fills the air as April takes in the advice, before her superior finally flits back to professional mode and snaps, "Now, get back to work!"
April nods quickly, fumbling with her charts and stumbling off towards to the emergency room - trying to focus on work and forget about Jackson until she had a chance to talk to him later.