I think sometimes I forget how many Servants Naru really has. Even if I do see some of them every day. I guess it just doesn't really cross my mind much. But on other occasions sometimes some of her servants will approach me out of nowhere. This was one of those rare occasions I guess I will call it. Very Rare. "Hey-o Captain~" Should I call it Super Rare? Perhaps rare wasn't even a strong enough word for this. I didn't even recognize the voice until I turned to look. I saw Astolfo running toward me. This was a very rare encounter. He soon stopped right before me. "Uh...Hello Astolfo." I can't remember the last time he spoke to me really.

Did he want something from me?

"Sorry to bug ya Captain! But I just had to find you and ask!" I had no idea what in the world he was talking about. "See I heard a rumor! I wanted to know if it was true!"
...another rumor? ugh... What was it this time?

"I heard a rumor you are fucking your...!" before he could finish, I quickly covered his mouth. How can he just ask something like that?! Eyes quickly stared toward us. "...Could you please not ask something like that here?!" I don't need more people knowing that. "Huh? why? I thought everyone knew about it." ugh...what is wrong with you? "It's not a big deal. I'm fucking my master too~" I stared shocked at him as other servants quickly started talking around us.
I quickly grabbed his arm leading him out of the hallway. "...How can you just ask something like that?!" He's a knight for crying out loud. "Uh? why are you mad?" What do you mean why?!

"D-Don't ask something like that! Even more so not in private!" I don't need more servants knowing about it. somehow some still didn't know about what happened. I wanted to keep it that way if I could help it. "So if it in private I can?" Did he get hit in the head or something? "...Astolfo." Sometimes it scary me how weird other servants act. "...what? I don't get why this is a big deal you to Captain. As I said I have fucked my master many times.~" I don't get how he can just act like it wasn't a big deal. Why was he even telling me this?

"...why are you telling me this?"

"Well, I heard you have done the same with your master." of course...he heard about that. I couldn't help but blush. Of course I have...in truth it had been going on for sometime now. I couldn't stop myself. "ummm...yes I guess I have." If I admit it maybe...this whole thing will end sooner. "So, we are in the same on the front, right?"

"...Astolfo what is this about?" I did hear a rumor about his master sleeping with one of her servants. But...it didn't really matter to me, so I pretty much ignored it.
"Well, I thought we could talk about our masters~" No. No Not happening. "No."

"Huh? why not?"

"...It's not happening." I don't need her angry with me again. Plus, I really don't want to talk about my...I couldn't even finish that thought. "Aww don't be like that Captain~ I mean they are both pretty cute right?"

"..." I wasn't falling for it. I refuse to give him answer. "We aren't talking about this." I quickly tried to leave but he blocked the door. "Come one Captain~ just talk with me for a bit alright?" I quickly glared at him. "I'm not talking about my sex life with you." Just saying that much out loud. I quickly dropped to my knees. I-I really just said that. ugh... "...why are you so embarrassed over this? it isn't a big deal Captain~"

"I-I don't want to talk about it!"

"I heard your master was shy. But I guess you are too." Is that more rumors flying around? ugh...I know most of them are my fault. "...how can you talk about it like it isn't a big deal?" I don't get it. "I mean...it normal, isn't it? for people to get together?" normal has nothing to do with us. This should be seen as abnormal. "Lots of people...think its wrong for a servant and master to have this kind of relationship, right?"

"Is that why you hid it captain?"

"...I wanted to protect her from it too. But...I couldn't stop myself."

"She was just too cute for you to ignore huh? I get that~"

"..." He wasn't wrong. It got to a boiling point where I couldn't hold back any longer. "I mean you two are just doing that. it isn't like you are getting married or anything.~"
...No one knew so far. That I had asked her to marry me. But...she hadn't given me answer so far. I was worried she would never give answer to me. What if she never wanted to get married? Every day that passed by I thought about that. She would never bring it up. I was worried.

"...Uh? why are you being so quiet now, Captain?" I frowned as I looked up at him. "...No. ha-ha...you didn't, right?" I quickly avoided eye contact with him. "...I did ask her to marry me." There was silent when I told him that. But sadly, that silent was short lived. "WHAT? A-ARE YOU SERIOUS?!"

"...yes."

"Uh...but from your reaction..." I was pouting I knew it. "...she never gave you answer, did she?"

"No... she didn't..." That's why I'm worried. What if she never wants to get married? "Wow...uh...I mean. I guess you are super serious about your master." he tried to laugh it off. "...Astolfo." He stopped and stared toward me. "...what do I do?" I want her to answer me. But if I push it she will refuse no matter what. "um...I can't really say. I never made it to marriage in my past life."

"..." I guess I shouldn't be surprised. "How did you get married in your past life?"

"...I didn't." there wasn't many happy memories in that life. But...why does this feel more difficult than it should be? "Um...I see I guess we are in the same boat." How can I not worry over this? It had been weeks sense I asked her that. I was hoping she would have told me one way or the other by now. "...How long do you think I need to wait?"

"...Uh...I'm sorry I don't really know Captain."

"...Should I try to ask her again?"

"I don't think that's the problem Captain..." The waiting just felt like...agony. "But she didn't tell you no. So that's a good sign, right?"

"..." I don't know if good was the right word for it. I was trying hard not to, but it did happen. I felt tears falling from my eyes. "Captain Nemo?" I shook my head hiding my face against my knees. I Just want her to answer. That's all I want. I thought I wasn't asking that much. I wanted to bring it up to her again. But I was scared too. What if she just told me no when I do.

I was still chasing her in this life. It also felt like...I was always a bit out of reach to catch her. No matter how much I tried. That's why I feel the need to spend so much time with her. I'm scared. I'm so scared...when I'm not with her. That fear appears again and again. I can't...lose her again. I know...she's safe. But...this fear has never disappeared once sense than. That's most likely why I am so desperate for her answer. If she says yes that means...we can always be together no matter what. That's why I need her to answer so badly. Until she does...that fear will never leave me.

But that's also why...she will never understand how much I truly love her...