Kakashi and I had finally reached the outside of my apartment building. The pain I felt from today's turn of events was beginning to hurt me physically with each heartbeat. I wanted to climb into my bed and cry to get rid of the pain, but I had to hold on.

"Since you'll be gone in two days, I want to spend every day like this until the moment you leave. I'll miss you," he whispered sweetly as he kissed my forehead through his mask.

"I'll miss you too, Kakashi," I whispered back.

He then held me in his arms before leaving my apartment complex. I watched him walk to the crosswalk, waving one last goodbye before heading up the stairs to my apartment.

I sighed loudly as I climbed the stairs. Ughh I have to see Sasuke...he's gonna ask about yesterday...what excuse can I make up?

I finally reached the front of my door, bringing my trembling hand to the door nob with a beating heart. Don't worry Naruko, you're good at bullshitting.

I took a deep breath and opened the door with a smile. "I'm home~!" I cheered happily.

"It's about time," I heard him mutter from the kitchen.

I walked into the kitchen watching him cook dinner for us. "Looks good," I said while walking back out of the kitchen and towards the couch.

"What were you doing? It's six o'clock," he questioned while serving the food.

"I was out with my boyfriend, duh," I replied while surfing through the channels.

"Oh...did you eat already then?"

"Yeah," I replied dryly.

"Okay...I'll wrap up your dinner and leave it in the refrigerator then." I heard him wrap my dinner, placing it in the refrigerator before walking to the table to eat.

We sat in silence for a while until I heard him clear his throat. "Naruko," he called.

My blood went cold at the thought of the conversation we were about to have. "Yeah...?"

"Can we talk about last night...?"

The air in the apartment grew thick. My heart was beating quickly and my hands became sweaty. "What about last night?" I asked coldly.

"The kiss..."

I closed my eyes at the regrettable memory. Alright, Naruko...it's time to put on a performance.

I bursted out into laughter as I looked at him from the couch.

"Naruko...?"

I wiped the tear from my eyes as I calmed my laughter. "I'm sorry, it's just the thought of what I did last night makes me laugh in embarrassment...!"

"...Why did you--?"

"Okay so last night after my date with Kakashi, he walked me back home, right?" I started as I adjusted my body to face him. "So when we stood in front of my apartment, he tried to kiss me, but I got scared and told him I wasn't ready. I didn't want to kiss him and make a fool of myself, so that's why I decided to kiss you as practice. I mean, you are my husband so that meant it would be okay to kiss you. I'm sorry if I made things weird...I should have just told you this morning, but I was embarrassed by what you would have thought..."

He shook his head with a sigh. "Naruko...you should have just kissed him. The first kiss is always kind of messy."

"Really? How was your first kiss?" I asked curiously, wondering if it was me who he had kissed.

He stayed silent as he looked away from my direction. "...It was...unexpected..."

"Huh? What's that supposed to mean?!" I shouted in disappointment.

"It means exactly what I said! Now drop it," he commanded in embarrassment.

I smiled at his childish reaction. Every time he grew embarrassed, it made me want to tease him until his ears would smoke from the intense blush. "Aww, at least tell me who was your first kiss~" I teased while standing up from the couch.

"No..." he mumbled while staring at the table.

I giggled as I sat in the seat in front of him. "Come on~ You already know mine so tell me yours!"

"Of course I know yours...I experienced it first hand," he said with a sigh.

"Ehh minor details. Now tell me~"

He clicked his tongue, scratching the back of his head with a pink face. "It was you..."

My heart sang with delight. I was his first!?

"Really?! That's cute~, so I'm guessing I was your first and only kisser, right?"

"Tch...I guess..."

I giggled happily at the thought of being each other's only love. But then the pain in my heart returned. No...it doesn't matter anymore...I need to let go.

I felt my smile beginning to drop. I couldn't let myself seem sad in front of him, so I stretched my arms, turning around to head towards my room. "Wow I'm tired~" I sang while walking away.

"It's not even seven yet," he mentioned.

"I know, but I feel so drained today. Imma go to sleep early tonight."

"Okay..."

Not once did I turn back to look at him, because if I did, the tears I managed to hold back would finally escape.

While watching Kakashi during his practice, my head was filled with thoughts. I couldn't watch Kakashi without feeling guilty, and I couldn't face Sasuke without feeling as if I were to cry.

I sighed as I stood up to walk outside the gym. I needed to clear my head from all the overwhelming thoughts.

"What am I doing...?" I asked as I mumbled to myself. I laid my head against the outer wall of the gym, looking up at the sky with a tear to my eyes.

I know I need to let go of Sasuke and love Kakashi, yet I can't...I like Kakashi, but I don't love him. He makes me happy, but I feel complete with Sasuke...

My hands slowly turned into a fist as I began to cry. I just want to know what happened in the future! I know knowing won't change anything, but I want to know. That way it might be easier to completely let go of him...

"Excuse me?"

I quickly looked down from the sky to see a girl with short brown hair, wearing a school uniform I had never seen before. Her expression carried much concern for the girl she had never met before.

"Are you okay?" She asked while slowly approaching me.

I quickly wiped my tears with my uniform sleeve. "Yeah, I'm good, believe it!" I shouted with a smile. Even as I smiled, tears still somehow made its way down my cheeks.

I urgently wiped away the tears with my sleeves as I sobbed. "I-I'm sorry...I don't know why-"

"Here," said the girl softly while passing me a handkerchief.

I took the cloth in my hands with a loud cry. "Thank you, lady." I can't believe I'm crying in front of some stranger!

"You're welcome...do you...do you want to talk about it?" She asked while making her way to stand at my side.

Can I? Can I tell this stranger my problems?

"I-Is it o-okay?" I asked while hyperventilating.

"Yeah? Why not?" She replied with a smile.

"B-but you don't even k-know me..."

"Well...sometimes opening up to a stranger can be more freeing since you have no ties to them."

While I tried to normalize my breathing, I processed her words. Maybe this is what I need...I really want to talk to someone about my situation...

I nodded my head as I wiped my nose again. "Thank you..."

The two of us sat down on the floor, leaning against the wall of the gym as I gave her a synopsis of my problem.

"So...you're in love with this guy that you can't be with, yet you're in a relationship with a guy who loves you...And you feel bad for not loving him back the same way..." she sighed as she gave a light chuckle.

"Why're you laughing...?" I asked while blowing my nose in her handkerchief.

"I'm sorry, it's just...I went through a similar predicament..."

"You did...?"

She nodded her head with a bittersweet smile. "Yeah...and that's what lead to the end of what I thought was a long term friendship..."

"What...?"

Before we could continue, the sound of all the basketball players leaving the gym ended our session. The girl and I stood up from the floor, waiting for all the players to leave. Within the crowd, Kakashi began to walk up to me with my things in his hands. "Naruko, you left all your--Rin?"

He stared at the brown-haired girl who stood beside me in shock.

"Kakashi!" she cheered happily while approaching him with a smile.

I looked at the two in confusion. What is going on...?

Kakashi looked over at me with a sigh. "Sorry Naruko, could you wait for me by the gate? I'll meet you in 10 minutes."

I nodded my head as I went to grab my bag from his hand. "Sure, I'll see you in 10 minutes~," I said happily.

"You're the best." He ruffled my hair with a smile before letting me go to talk to the stranger named Rin.

I stood by the gate, confused by what I had witnessed. I know Kakashi's popular with girls, but who even is she? She wasn't even in our school's uniform! So who is she and how does she know Kakashi...? What is he hiding from me?

"Naruko," I heard my boyfriend say.

I quickly turned to the direction of his voice, smiling as I held out my hand so we could walk home together. "So who was that girl?" I asked curiously.

"That...that was Rin Nohara..." he said with a long sigh.

"Was she a friend?" I asked.

He gave me a weary smile as his grip on my hand tightened. "How about I tell you a story over dinner."

I nodded my head as I reciprocated the hand squeeze to show reassurance. "Sure, dinner sounds great!"

He kissed my cheek through his mask, pulling me closer so I could walk by his side, held in his arm. "You're really the best, my little breath of fresh air."

I blushed happily as I felt the butterflies in my stomach overwhelm me. I placed my hand over my beating heart with a smile. I think I'm slowly starting to love you, Kakashi.

We sat beside each other in the booth of a fast food restaurant, eating burgers and fries as he told me about Rin.

"This isn't a story I like to tell others, but since it's you, I'll make an exception," he teased while bitting into his burger.

"I love being a VIP," I joked with a giggle.

He placed down his burger, grabbing my hand in his as I used my other to eat the fries. He really is clingy, hehe~ He's nothing like that reserved jerk...

"Remember yesterday when I mentioned Obito?"

I nodded my head as I continued to eat.

"Well, because of Rin, his hate for me increased to the point where he no longer wanted to be my friend..."

"Huh...?"

He sighed as he remembered the past. "Rin, Obito, and I use to be very close friends. I wasn't one to be attached to people, but somehow they made their way into my lonely bubble. Before they were friends with me, Rin and Obito were inseparable. They were the best of friends until I showed up...

Rin was in love with me, and I never cared for her. I didn't even know her nor cared to know her or her stupid friend, Obito. But one day, the three of us were paired together for a project, forcing me to interact with them. I tried to push them away after the assignment, but they wouldn't leave me alone...They made me their friend.

Obito knew of Rin's feelings for me and I knew of his for Rin. He had given up on the possibility that Rin could ever love him, so he tried to play matchmaker. I never liked her, yet that idiot always tried to force me to go out with her. Ugh...he's always been so stupid..." Kakashi rubbed his temples, cringing at the memory.

He took a few fries in his empty hand, stuffing them in his mouth before continuing. "Later...we were finally freshmen at Konoha High, and Rin finally accepted Obito's feelings. They were going out for a while and everything was fine in our friend group. Obito was happy and we were always competing on the court for the title of captain. It was all perfect until Rin tried to kiss me."

"Huh?! Why would she do that?!" I yelled in shock.

"Because she was still in love with me."

My heart dropped in my chest as I realized Rin and I had done the same thing. No wonder she said she was in the same situation...

"You wanna know how it went down?" He asked with a laugh.

"Spill the tea!" I commanded.

"It was almost the same as today, actually. She waited for me outside the gym and asked to speak to me privately. I kinda knew what she was going to say, but I never thought she would outright tell me she was in love with me and not Obito. She even tried to kiss me right after confessing. I tried to push her away, and luckily I always have my mask on, so she couldn't do anything.

Obito saw and heard everything, and his emotions got the best of him. We fought, more like they fought, and the rest is history. After our freshman year, Rin left Konoha high to go to some prep school a few stations away from us and Obito transferred to Saint Madara."

"That's it? So he hates you because of what she did?"

"More like he's jealous of me, but basically yeah."

I slouched down in the booth in shock. It's like I had my present and future told back to me...uahhsjsjs I don't wanna be like Rin!!!

"Hmm now that I think of it, Obito was supposed to be in Saint Madara since elementary, yet he always went to a public school...It's always been strange to me that the Uchi--"

"Kakashi!" I shouted while interrupting him.

"Yes?"

"I promise I won't be like Rin!" I shouted in determination.

He stared at me, blinking a few times before bursting into laughter. His arm wrapped around me, bringing me into a side hug while he laughed. "I know you won't," he said happily with a kiss to my forehead.

I smiled as I dug my face into his chest. I promise Kakashi...I promise I'll love you.