"On the charge of rape in the first degree, we the jury find the defendant… not guilty."
Alex felt the weight of the world on her shoulders as the jury foreman read the verdict and she heard the responding cry of despair from the victim and saw the triumphant smirk on the defendant's face. The blonde ADA had walked into court this afternoon absolutely confident that her evidence was rock solid and her win was pretty much guaranteed, but apparently the jury felt differently, and now a dangerous man was free to roam the streets of New York hunting for his next prey. Alex exchanged a few awkward words with her client, gathered up her things, and hurried out of the courtroom, briefcase in hand, her heels clicking angrily on the floor as she struggled to keep her emotions in check. She could feel anger, stress, guilt, and anxiety welling up inside of her as she walked out of the courthouse and made her way toward the 16th precinct in search of the detectives of the Special Victims Unit.
Olivia sat at her desk in her office as she typed something into a search engine on her computer and scanned through the results until she found what she was looking for and opened the file. She and her detectives were waiting on Alex to arrive to bring them news regarding the verdict of their latest case. Olivia had wanted to be present in the courtroom to offer moral support to the victim as the verdict was handed down, but another case had prevented her from doing so. The brunette detective picked up her cup of coffee and took a sip as she opened another window and began to read through a lab report. Her head snapped up when she heard what sounded like Alex yelling and cursing angrily and she stood from her desk to find out what all the commotion was about, but she instantly knew that they had lost their case. She walked out of her office and found Alex in the bullpen yelling at Olivia's newest detective, Grace Muncy, who just happened to be the first unfortunate soul to make eye contact with Alex when she stormed into the squadroom. Grace, looking confused and fearful of Alex's wrath, was somewhat cowering behind Fin, who had stepped between them to try to calm Alex down, but in her irrational state Fin's interference only fueled Alex's fire. Olivia rolled her eyes as she walked up to the trio and she almost laughed when she heard Alex threaten Grace's badge, even though Alex had no power to take away anyone's badge, but Grace didn't know that. Alex's ire toward Detective Muncy was woefully misplaced; Grace hadn't even been called to testify in this trial, that responsibility had been placed on Kate Silva, and Olivia found herself feeling grateful that she had sent Detective Silva and Detective Velasco down to the M.E.'s office. Olivia knew her little blonde firecracker very well, and if Kate had been sitting in the squadroom when Alex came in, it would have only made her more angry.
"Alex." Olivia used a dominant tone to break through Alex's ranting and get her attention.
"I don't work for you!" Alex snapped angrily at Olivia, and Olivia raised an eyebrow.
"No, you don't, but Detective Muncy doesn't work for you either. Come with me." Olivia guided Alex out of the squadroom and escorted her toward the elevator. When they were safely out of the eyesight of her detectives, Olivia took Alex by the arm and addressed her wife sternly as they walked, "If you are going to behave like a naughty little girl, I will treat you like one. Go home, change into your pajamas, get into bed, and stay there. When I come home, we are going to have a serious discussion about the tantrum you just threw in the middle of my squadroom, and tomorrow morning you are going to apologize to Detective Muncy."
"What kind of unit are you running, Captain? All of your fucking detectives need to be sent back to the fucking Academy and- ow!" Alex was shocked into silence when she felt Olivia's strong right hand connect sharply with her skirt-clad bottom one time.
"Be quiet. You should be grateful I'm not hauling you back in there and spanking you in front of my detectives, and if you ever come barrelling into my precinct like that again, I will do exactly that." Olivia scolded. At that moment, the elevator doors opened, "Go home and get in bed. I love you."
"I love you." Alex mumbled, still staring at Olivia in shock. In silence, she stepped onto the elevator.
Olivia sighed as she walked back into her squadroom where she found Fin and Amanda now trying to comfort Grace Muncy. When Olivia approached them, Grace looked up with tears in her eyes.
"I'm so sorry, Captain." Grace choked out.
"You have nothing to be sorry for, Muncy, nothing about what just happened is your fault and I will see to it that you get a proper apology from Alex first thing in the morning, she's just upset because the jury found Wesley James not guilty. For right now, pull yourself together and let's all get back to work, we have a lot of work to do this afternoon. Rollins, take this down to Morales and see if he can get the information off of it with his fancy equipment. My laptop won't open it." Olivia handed Amanda a flash drive.
Several hours later, it was finally time to clock out for the day. Olivia gathered up her things, walked out of the precinct, and got in her car knowing that she had a naughty girl waiting for her at home, and she hoped that she would find Alex in bed where she was supposed to be. Alex's sense of self-preservation usually kicked in when she knew she was in trouble, but sometimes Alex's inner brat was more powerful, which meant that she sometimes found herself in even bigger trouble than she would have been otherwise. Alex was already due for a sound spanking, and Olivia hoped that Alex had obeyed her and gone to bed so she wouldn't have to deliver a harsher spanking than she was already planning. Olivia let herself into the apartment and was greeted with silence as she kicked her shoes off, put away her badge and gun, and walked down the hall to the bedroom to change her clothes. She walked into the bedroom and was pleased to find Alex dressed in her pajamas, lying in bed staring up at the ceiling. Alex's body language was still tense but more relaxed than it had been that afternoon, her face was calm, and her baby blue eyes were remorseful. Olivia quickly changed her clothes and then went over to sit on the bed beside Alex's body.
"Good girl for obeying me." Olivia praised, giving Alex's belly a gentle rub of approval, "Are you ready to sit up and speak to me calmly and respectfully, or do you need to lie here and rest for another hour?"
"You swatted me in the hallway." Alex's lower lip trembled as she sat up.
"I did." Olivia agreed, "There was nobody in the hallway to see it. I had to do something to get your attention, your behavior was out of control. I love you more than anything and because of how much I love you I will never allow you to behave like that."
"I'm sorry." Alex whimpered, "I lost the case this afternoon, and I was angry and looking for someone to blame when I should have just blamed myself."
"No, you shouldn't blame yourself." Olivia countered, "You worked just as hard as my squad and I did on that case. Juries screw up sometimes. We all know that Wesley James is going to strike again sooner or later, and when he does my squad and I will be waiting for him. However, you should not have taken your anger out on my detective the way you did today. If one of my detectives needs to be yelled at, that's my responsibility to take care of, it's not for you to even concern yourself with. I want you to list everything you did wrong today."
"I was rude to Grace Muncy by yelling and cursing at her, I usurped your authority over your squad by yelling at her, I threw a tantrum in the middle of your squadroom which was unprofessional, and I was rude to you by yelling and cursing at you." Alex rattled off her list of offenses.
"And what happens to naughty little girls in this house?" Olivia inquired.
"Naughty little girls get spanked." Alex admitted.
"Stand up." Olivia ordered.
Alex crawled out of bed and stood in front of Olivia as Olivia pulled her pajama pants down to her knees. Without being told, Alex draped herself across Olivia's lap, offering her bare bottom for punishment. She wasn't exactly looking forward to what she knew was about to happen to her, but she could still feel anxiety, anger, and guilt rolling around inside of her and she knew that she needed to have those things spanked out of her. The pretty blonde laid her head down on the bed and relaxed her bottom muscles to receive Olivia's loving discipline.
Olivia's strong right hand connected sharply with Alex's tender bare bottom in a steady, punishing rhythm. For a while, the only sound in the room was the sound of each spank echoing off the walls, occasionally accompanied by Alex's whimpering. At this point, Alex's pale bottom was barely blushing pink and Alex wasn't making too much of a fuss at all yet, understanding that her spanking was just getting started and they had a long way to go before they would be done. While Olivia went about the task of setting her beloved wife's naughty bottom on fire, Alex contemplated the events that had transpired that afternoon and came to the conclusion that her punishment was perfectly justified. In fact, Olivia was even showing her mercy by waiting to spank her in the privacy of their own home instead of punishing her publicly, which she would have every right to do since Alex had behaved so disgracefully in public.
"Owwww…" Alex whimpered with tears in her eyes, burying her face in the bed sheets. Olivia continued to spank her naughty girl for several minutes until she was satisfied with the healthy pink glow of Alex's bottom, then she paused long enough to reach over and pick up the hairbrush from the bedside table. Alex gasped when she felt the familiar implement tapping her bottom, and she gripped the bed sheets to resist the urge to reach back and cover herself.
It didn't take very long until Alex was crying heavily as the hairbrush spanked and punished her naughty bottom. Even as the pain became unbearable, Alex forced herself to lie obediently still and let the spanking happen, only twitching slightly with each impact. The repentant blonde woman wasn't sure how much time had passed when she finally realized that she was no longer being spanked and she felt Olivia's gentle hand underneath her pajama tank rubbing her back.
"Get up when you want to, little girl. We are going to wash the filthy language out of your mouth, and then I'm going to put you back over my knee one more time before we're done."
Alex spent a few minutes lying across Olivia's lap resting and catching her breath, and when she felt strong enough she pushed herself up to her feet. In her emotional state, Alex wobbled a little on trembling knees, but Olivia quickly held onto her to make sure she didn't fall as she guided Alex into the bathroom. With tears streaming down her pretty face, Alex looked up at Olivia pleadingly, silently begging her not to make her sit.
"Sit down, little girl." Olivia ordered, her tone firm but not unkind, and Alex submitted to the authority in Olivia's voice.
Alex forced herself to sit still and not pull away while Olivia scrubbed her mouth with a soapy cloth for several minutes. When Olivia deemed that Alex's mouth had been sufficiently scrubbed, she tossed the soapy cloth into the sink and placed the bar of soap in Alex's mouth. As always, she allowed Alex to rest her head against her hip and she held Alex's hand to support her through the ordeal while she gently stroked Alex's long blonde hair and delivered a short lecture. At the conclusion of her lecture, Olivia kissed Alex's forehead and allowed her access to the sink.
"Please, Ma'am, don't spank me anymore! I'm sorry!" Alex sobbed as Olivia led her back to the bedroom.
"You are going back over my knee for a sound paddling, and then it will be over. Bring me the small paddle. Now." Olivia popped Alex's cherry red bottom sharply when Alex hesitated.
"OW! Yes, Ma'am!" Alex burst into fresh sobs as she hurried to obey.
Alex reluctantly draped herself back across Olivia's lap, but try as she might she just couldn't force herself to relax as she continued to sob, profusely apologizing and begging Olivia not to spank her. Olivia recognized that Alex was freaking out and she softened a little.
"Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh." Olivia soothed as she reached underneath Alex's pajama tank to gently rub her back to try to get her to relax, "I love you so much, baby girl. This isn't going to kill you. What is my job in this relationship?"
"To love me, discipline me, and protect me." Alex managed to choke out between sobs.
"And what is your job in this relationship?" Olivia inquired.
"To submit and obey." Alex sobbed.
"Right now, both of us have a job to do. My job is to discipline you and your job is to submit. What would I be teaching you if I didn't finish my job?"
"That you don't mean what you say." Alex choked out.
"And what would happen to you if I taught you that I don't mean what I say?"
"I would feel insecure and act out more." Alex admitted.
"And what happens when you act out?"
"I get spanked."
"So wouldn't it be a much better idea for me to finish my job now so you feel secure so you don't act out and I won't have to give you another spanking anytime soon?"
"Yes, Ma'am." Alex sobbed after a split second of hesitation. She couldn't argue with that logic.
"That's my good girl. I promise we are almost done, this will all be over in just a few minutes and I promise I will hold you for as long as you want me to." Olivia tapped Alex's punished bottom with the small paddle, "Now do your job and relax back here, please."
It took a moment, but Alex forced herself to relax her bottom muscles. Olivia didn't give her a chance to tense up again and brought the paddle down immediately. Alex grew hysterical, completely distraught as she continued to beg for her punishment to be over. Olivia didn't try to make her stop begging, she simply focused her attention on the task at hand and peppered her darling's bottom with sharp spanks. Finally, Alex choked on a broken wail and went limp across Olivia's lap, accepting Olivia's right to spank her until Olivia decided that she had been spanked enough. The moment that Olivia felt Alex go limp across her lap, the spanking was immediately over and Olivia threw down the paddle as if it had burned her. The brunette detective made everything about her body language, facial expression, and tone of voice extremely gentle and loving as she once again reached underneath Alex's pajama tank to gently rub her back. After a few minutes, Alex realized that she was no longer being spanked, and if it were possible she began to sob even harder out of pure relief. Anger, anxiety, and guilt no longer bothered her, they had indeed been spanked out of her. The only thing Alex felt now was the need for Olivia to hold her. Her wish came true a brief moment later when Olivia gently guided her up and into her arms. Olivia was careful to keep Alex's sore bottom off the rough material of her jeans as she arranged them so that they were both comfy on the bed.
"There, there. It's over, baby. It's all over." Olivia cooed as she cuddled Alex close to her heart and showered her sobbing baby with praise and love.
"I'm sorry!" Alex sobbed on Olivia's shoulder.
"I know, sweetheart. You don't have to be sorry anymore, I forgave you before we even started. You've been punished and my good girl is all forgiven. You just rest now, angel, and cry it all out. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Just breathe and try to relax, it's all over. You were so, so good for me. I'm so proud of you, baby. You're a good girl." Olivia lovingly stroked Alex's long blonde hair and rubbed her heaving back and kissed her forehead and temple.
Alex sobbed until she thought she couldn't sob anymore and she slowly began to calm down as she let Olivia's gentle voice soothe her. Her bottom was killing her, but her heart felt lighter than it had all afternoon. When Alex was completely calm and her eyes were dry, albeit bloodshot and puffy from crying, she stayed cuddled in Olivia's arms while Olivia slowly rocked her, still craving the reassurance and babying Olivia was giving her. The blonde yawned and winced.
"Such a good girl. Do you want me to lie down with you, baby?" Olivia offered.
"No." Alex snuggled deeper into Olivia's arms, "If I fall asleep now I won't sleep tonight. I just don't want you to let go."
"I'm right here, angel, I'm not letting you go." Olivia assured her.
The next morning, instead of going straight to her office Alex accompanied Olivia to the precinct in search of Detective Muncy and offered a heartfelt apology for her behavior the previous day. Grace accepted Alex's apology and then Olivia walked with Alex back to the elevator and she gently kissed Alex's forehead, nose, and lips.
"I'm so proud of you, baby." Olivia praised, and Alex beamed, "Have a good day, and I'll see you at lunch."
"I have a meeting this afternoon that might run late, but I'll text you if I can't meet you at the diner for our lunch break."
"Okay." Olivia agreed, "Just make sure you don't skip lunch, make sure you get something to eat."
"Yes, Ma'am." Alex agreed. The elevator doors opened and the blonde ADA stepped inside the elevator to leave the precinct and go to her office.