the hero and madoka are ridiculed by sayaka

we were at the train station. the sky was dark and the air heavy with loud rain and the atomosphear of unrelenting sorrow, painting our surrounding in vering shades of an errie blue. madoka, sayaka and i sat on a bench within the booth. the light from the nearby street lamps did not flicker and yet their light was colored by the ever present blues amplified by the glass of the booth.

sayaka held her head onto madoka's shoulder, on her other side i sat patting her back. i don't know what to say. damn, i want..i want to make some grandios speech that would give her the will, the ability to keep going.

madoka broke the ambiunce of rainfall "sayaka-chan, you shouldn't fight like that!" her voice was soft but stoic and her face showed plently of worry in spite of the darkness of the night hiding most of her face.

at first sayaka didn't respond. i looked at her face, she...seems to be ontiplating somthing difficut, her hand was facing down, her eyes were as though they were crying and yet no tears are shed.

madoka looked at her with similer eyes and a heavy jaw. "you don't need to lie to us, we know you're hurt, even if you can't feel it we-"

"-if i haden't i would've lost" sayaka cut her off with a voice that seemed numb "i'm not gifted at this sort of thing" she leaned forward covering her eyes with both her palms, her elbows burried in her knees.

"then improve" i replied to her

this got them both to look at me, madoka clenched the colar of her shirt and tensed her shoulders in worry, but sayaka with her expression unchanged simply replied with a stern "what"

"if you're really so bad that you need act reckless, then we should work on that. spar, stradeguise, examine each other's weakness and short comings, every humasn being starts off not knowing how to do anything so we practice learn and-"

"-you may be human but i'm not" sayaka injected while looking away clenching her hand

"you know that's not true sayaka, you are as human as you've ever been!"

she stoicly displayed her soul gem in her hand "you see this? this was what left of me when i was human" her voice began to quiver. "i'm just a corps pretending to alive!"

sayaka was crying.

"why? why do you insist that because your body was altered that you are no longer you? you are still sayaka miki, so why? i don't get it!"

"of course you don't!" sayaka was practicly shouting, tears rolling dowing her face. "you're a boy, so you'll never be able to understand how i feel"

madoka was agasp "sayaka, how can you say that!? Judai-kun has been fighting alongside you for all this time and yet-"

"-what about you.!" sayaka snap her head twords madoka

"huh?" madoka was shoked

"kyubey said you had more potentional then anyone else but you don't fight, you just stasnd there waiting for others to protect you. you're selfish"

"wait but that's not...i..."