Truly I have never seen Nemo look this upset. Even when we fought sometimes it was never this much. It was clear it was something he didn't really want to talk about. But the look on his face said he had to tell me no matter what. He still had tears on his cheeks. It wasn't something pleasant. I placed my hand on his cheek and he quickly placed his hand on top of mine, "I'm sorry." he apologized to me again. I couldn't help but worry with all the apologizing he had been doing. "Nemo I still don't understand why you are apologizing to me so much." I knew he was having trouble getting his thoughts together. He frowned listening to me.

"I don't really want to talk about this..." he plainly told me. "Well...than it's alright, if you don't want too." he shook his head. "No...I have too." he was clearly against it. But at the same time he felt like he had to tell me. "Really if you don't want to talk about it. It's fine...you don't..."

"It's too late...I have to tell you. It's been too long anyways. I should have really explained myself sooner to you." I could only give him a confuse look. I didn't understand what he meant at all. "...Sion she." he cut himself off. "...this whole thing...she did this to gain information I wanted no one to know. She wanted to learn why I react the way I do toward you. Why I freak out...why I over react..." From how he was talking I had a feeling it had something to do with his past life.

He never spoke of it. Most likely...it wasn't a pleasant time for him. From the sound of it. "I don't want you to hear it from her." maybe he was worried over how I would react? Is that why he was having trouble? "...I have so much regret. I have that because I couldn't accept the truth...of something that happened in my past. But it also why I freak out when things happen to you. Because...I am so scared I will fail again." he closed his eyes, but I could see more tears falling from them. It made sense why he would freak out over me now. Why each time...he would panic. He maybe a god...but he still felt fear just like any other human would. Why he was so desperate. I understand now. But I now know why he never spoke about it. But then again, I never did ask about it too.

"Do you remember? I told you my past I was a mermaid."

"Yes, I remember that." So, he hid some stuff of his past. Maybe it was too painful to speak about it? I couldn't really blame him for that. "I'm sorry...I should have told you everything must sooner than this." he apologized to me again. "My past isn't a pleasant thing. It is something I wish I could just forget about...because I couldn't accept the truth. I did something horrible. I couldn't move on because of it." I couldn't do anything but listen to him. What in the world happened to him back then?

"...I used to watch human go about their daily lives back then. It wasn't anything special. Them just doing normal things." Yes he told me this before but without a doubt he didn't tell me everything. "But...it changed one day. It was near the coastline where I saw her. I saw a young girl hanging up wet cloth to dry. She was pretty plain looking truth be told. But...I found myself unable to look away from I heard her singing to herself. I...I fell in love with her in that small moment." ...?! he didn't tell me this last time. Is this what he hid from me? Why hide that?

"But...a mermaid and a human? that would never work out. It was doomed to fail at the start." a doomed love. "Even a human and mermaid speaking to each other was unheard of." Why did it hurt to hear any of this? "I spoke to her hearing her sing." why...does this hurt? "What...is that song?" was the first thing I asked her. She was startled. she quickly stepped back hearing my voice. Her reaction wasn't good. I feared she would run away now. "A...M-Mermaid?" She looked scared when she saw me. "Please I...I don't wish you any harm." I lightly told her. But her guard was up. "She fled from me slowly after that." This felt painful listening to his story. I wanted to ask him to stop. I didn't want to hear anymore. But I know that wouldn't be right...when he was trying so hard right now.

"It wasn't a good first inner action. I just wanted to speak with her. She ran from me as fast as she could." The past can chain you down. Even more so if you can't accept what has happened. That was what happened to Nemo. He was chained by his past. "I didn't even know her name. would I even see her again? or would she be too scared to come back to the coastline now?" He stopped after that staring at me. He must see my reaction. He frowned he was being fully honest with me. But he could tell I wasn't taken it well. I slowly let go of him. Did...he even see me when he looked at me? Or did he see that girl? Did he see me as a replacement for her?

"Sara..." I could feel myself doubting myself than. Did he even love me? Or was he placing his love for her on me? He tried touch me and I quickly panicked. I moved away from him. He sighed. He knew what I was thinking without a doubt. "No matter what I love you and only you." he told me. I refused to meet his eyes with mine. How do I know that? What if you see her in me? He tried to take hold of my hand to calm me down. But I refused to let him. "..." Has he ever seen the real me? Or did he always only see her? Without a doubt he must have lost her and that has to be regret right? He tried to hug me, and I quickly pushed him away, "No!" I sobbed.

"You never saw me, did you? You always saw her in me."

"N-No that isn't..."

"You love her not me."

"Sara that's not..."

"I hate you...you Lier."

"..." I didn't even finish telling her about the past. And of course it ended badly. "I know you aren't her. you two aren't the same. I know that. You are two different people." She refused to look at me. No matter what I said to her. "Sara...please."

"You only see her when you look at me don't you?"

"What? No of course not!"

"...you Lier." I didn't matter what I said now. She wouldn't believe me no matter what. She continued to sob. Damnit...and I had messed up so horribly. She refused to let me near her. Every time I tried, she would move away from me even more. This couldn't have gone any worse if I try. Of course she would have doubt after what I told her. That's why I was worried about telling her. That's why I was against doing this from the start. But I wanted to be honest with her. Her mental state was bad to start with...I never should have told her this. Why...did I do something so stupid?

I tried to hold her hand again and she quickly freaked out, "No... don't touch me!" she pushed me away again. I really did it this time.

This time for sure...she really does hate me.