I gave Rick an update on the search idea. He looked at me and smiled.
"you're doing good" he winked.
"it's only what is right" I replied.
"everyone get some rest and we will start first thing" Rick said as the rest of the group had gathered around us.
So thats what we did. I went with Daryl into the tent and lay down. He snuggled up close to me stroking my arm until I drifted off to sleep. I had around a 2 hour nap, when I woke up Daryl was fast asleep still. I watched him for a little while as I didn't want to wake him. Rick came to the tent and Daryl woke instantly. "sorry guys but Hershal wants to do a little memorial for Otis, and I think its only right that we should all be there" he said.
"of course" Daryl nodded. So we got up and freshened up quickly. Hershals family had placed rock into a mound and everyone was stood around including Shane. Hershal spoke words from the bible and then his wife spoke. She asked Shane to say something as he was the last to see Otis alive. I couldn't even tell you what bullshit was coming out of his mouth, but I could tell you every single word was a lie. We all then placed a rock on top of the pile as a mark of respect.
"can you believe that jack ass?" Daryl whispered.
"I can actually, he is a fucking evil twat" I said a little too loudly and everyone turned to look in our direction.
"come on lets get a little break from everyone" Daryl said grabbing my hand.
We walked in silence for ages walking through the fields, until we got to the edge of the pasture. There was a tiny little summer house, that must have been for when the children were little.
"did you know this was here?" I asked.
"yes I found it earlier today" he grinned.
"is it safe?" I asked.
"yes and its actually pretty clean in there" he said opening the door.
He was right, it was beautiful cute, very girly and child like, but after the time being on the road it was like a palace. There was a little sink and cupboards, a little single bed and a two seater sofa.
"take a seat" he said walking over to the cupboards. He handed me a can of coke.
"were they already in here?" I asked.
"No I found them on a run awhile ago, I knew it was your favourite so I kept it for a special occasion" he winked.
"what is so special now?" I asked, looking confused.
"We are alone, Carl's going to be ok. It's a small celebration, but one never the less" he winked.
Before we knew it we were ripping eaching others clothes off and having wild sex on the bed. We were totally naked and it was like we didn't have a care in the world. Afterwards we lay naked in the bed cuddling.
"I wish everyday was like this" Daryl said.
"Same, I like spending time with you" I said turning to face him.
" good I'm glad, because a couple of days ago you didnt seem to like me much" Daryl said.
"No it wasn't like that at all. I really do like you, it's just there's a lot going on right now and I can't give you my all, it's not like it used to be dating. It's not like we can go on a proper date and get to know each other" I said.
"Don't you think it's better? The time we have spent together is like 50 dates. We wouldn't know each other on the level we do now" he said.
"that is true" I replied rubbing my finger across his chest scar. "but the thing is, one of us could die tomorrow, if we fall in love one of us will be devastated and that's not fair" I added not looking him in the eye.
"that's exactly how it was before, Mia yes the odds have changed a lot but it's no different. What did he do to you? That caused you to be this way?" Daryl asked.
"I don't want to talk about it. It's pointless and I would rather not" I said sharply.
"Just let me love you. Just let me in and make how ever long we have left a little happier" he smiled sweetly.
"why me though. I'm not the best looking and I'm clearly not emotionally stable" I giggled.
"are you being serious right now?" he asked "you are stunning, literally stunning. You have gorgeous dark hair a figure to die for and those green eyes are everything to me. And those lips are perfect. Plus who is mentally stable these days"
"why are you so nice to me?" I asked
"why not?" he asked looking confused "you are an incredible woman you deserve everything I wish I could give you everything"
I sat up and swung my legs out of the bed.
"where you going?" he said grabbing my arm, which made me flinch.
"don't do that, I'm not going to hurt you" he said
"I know that it's just..." I stopped.
"just what?" he asked.
"Nothing" I snapped. I stood up and quickly put my knickers and jeans back on.
"Mia tell me, what did Shane do to you?" he said standing next to me.
"Nothing, he did nothing to me only cheated on me, you already know that" I said pulling away from him.
"Mia please tell me I won't do anything" he begged.
"I can't okay I just can't" I said ramming my boots back on.
"Why not, what was so bad? Come on" Daryl said putting his arms around me in a bear hug.
I found myself sobbing into his chest. He just held me for ages before I spoke.
"It had been a month or so since I found out about Shane cheating on me, and I was sure I knew who it was, anyway I had gone to dinner with my friend and when I got home someone was in my house, it was Shane he had broken in and was going through all my things, trying to find if I was seeing anyone else. He completely trashed my house and I went mad. I tried to attack him and he gripped me up, pinned me against my unit. I tried to get loose but he wouldn't let me go. Then he started kissing me I tried and tried to break free and I couldnt" I sobbed.
Daryl didn't say a word, I just saw his jaw clenching as I spoke. To say I didn't want to talk about it, it was all coming out.
"the next thing i knew he was ripping my trousers off, then my knickers were down, he forced my legs apart with his knees. By the grace of God there was an emergency call out on his radio, he stopped doing what he was doing zipped up his trousers and left me there on the floor. I had bruises on my wrists, arms inner thighs. I didn't say anything because he didn't actually do anything. Plus it would have effected my work, he's above me, I love it in Charming I had really made a home for myself, I felt the safest I had felt in a long time. What was the point, he's made my life hell ever since anyway, it would have been 1 million percent worse if I had reported him" I said wiping my tears away.
Daryl still hadn't spoken he just looked at me like his whole world had fallen apart. Why was this man infront of me so lovely after only knowing me a short period of time?
